Eating oreos at 3:55 am (severe depression edition)

[vercetti2021]

Hey lovelies. I finally ran out of oreos. I tend to binge when I'm depressed. Food becomes a huge comfort and then self loathing afterwards after eating junk.

Trying my best to feel okay. Like putting on a brave face. Smile and pretend to be okay in the eyes of everyone you love. While dying on the inside and screaming. Depression and my dysphoria are a terrible mix.

So um hi? Ya'll okay?

[safeinOhio]

1. I've found exercise works best for me.

Also cleaning house.

Have to make an effort to get started, then it gets better.

Best of luck and keep trying.

[vercetti2021]

6. I exercise

Doesn't do much for me anymore. I feel very trapped.

[elleng]

2. Sorry, dearie,

I've got 2/3 container here, and 'sorry' I discovered I don't like them (anymore did they change the recipe?

Depression's terrible; lucky I recovered a few years ago, so those I love don't have to see me that way.



Watching 'As good as it gets.' Never liked Nicholson much; he's ok now, but maybe it's the cast.

g'nite.

[vercetti2021]

5. I don't know?

They still taste the same as I had when I was a lil messed up kid.

Good as it gets...i forgot that movie. Hmm...I'm just hoping you're enjoying it.

[elleng]

7. Movie ended up OK, but was long;

over now. 'Sensing a need for human company, he pursues an unlikely romance with a waitress, who is the only person willing to put up with his rudeness.'

Warming up, waiting for sun, hoping I can catch some birds, then on to decent Chinese (maybe.)

[vercetti2021]

10. Interesting

Are you in a different part of the world

[elleng]

15. Southern MD,

60 miles south of DC.

Feeling cooler than forecast now, and no sun, but cloudy and 47 degrees.

[SleeplessinSoCal]

3. I hear you sister. Please don't be too hard on yourself.

We are all coping with the untenable. I'm trying to switch out various cravings so that I don't get sick from too much of one thing. Swiss cheese tonight. Trader Joe's Chocolate mints another night and their corn puffs seasoned with onion and sour cream may be my downfall.

One day I'll say "hell no" to my cravings. "I'm stronger than my craving". But not today.

[vercetti2021]

4. I'm out of food

I have to get some groceries. And I'm trying to plan a birthday for.my mom and she isn't fond of parties. But I feel she needs to be with loved ones right now. She is also dealing with depression. I know we are suppose to be safe and distant.

But not seeing family for so long is starting to kill us. Everyone has been vaccinated. Except me.

[SleeplessinSoCal]

8. Well that sucks.

Can you double or triple mask and use a face shield for a visit? Stay 10 feet apart and enjoy birthday party of everything you both like.

There is also Zoom partying going on. You can make it a costume party. Or use the Zoom filters. Seize the technology! 🐵

Hope your party brings much needed love of sharing the special day. 💕

[vercetti2021]

9. I can triple mask

I have been at work. Everyone in my family was lucky to get their second vaccine and I'm over here without my first still.

[procon]

11. Hey, eat whatever lightens your load.

And be happy that you can still appreciate a little self indulgence with some cookies. Have you tried the oreos with caramel filing? They are especially yummy with a good strong cup of coffee.

[vercetti2021]

12. They make those?

I never seen them

[procon]

13. Yep. Bought from Wal-Mart.

It might be in limited release only in certain areas. Try Amazon?

[vercetti2021]

14. I guess I'll have to look at Amazon

They have Lady Gaga ones I want