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Related: Culture Forums, Support ForumsI'm not celebrating Fathers Day
First my father is dead 7 years.
Second, we didn't like each other. If anything, he made it worse when he said "I love you" to me because he had no idea what that meant.
Third, he didn't know me, didn't want to know me.
Fourth, but I knew him and knew him well. And that scared the shit out of him. He looked at me and he knew that I knew.
I don't celebrate his death as I don't celebrate his life. He and my mother summoned me here and then didn't know what to do. They're gone and I'm still here.
LakeArenal
(29,949 posts)OnDoutside
(20,868 posts)He was the sort that would go out for a pint of milk and come back 2 months later. I hadn't spoken to him in about 40 years before he died, and naturally I didn't go to his funeral. There's no point being false about it, good for you.
At least I adore my son and he adores me, so that makes up for everything.
malaise
(296,199 posts)but I celebrate every year - I am one of the lucky ones. I had a great dad and I was a daddy's girl. Oh My Papa - that's my dad.
Wish you were as lucky.
I_UndergroundPanther
(13,370 posts)Because my father was an abusive tyrant.
And he deserves no positive recognition on father's day .
abqtommy
(14,118 posts)and resolved that conflict. Now I sleep better at night. I recommend it.
Dial H For Hero
(2,971 posts)This will be my first Father's Day without him.
no_hypocrisy
(54,919 posts)wish they could.
You were given something I didn't have. I'm not envious. I'm not jealous. I don't hate you.
I get it. You had a family.
I'm okay where I am. I have a brother and a sister whom I use to discuss our memories and analyze what happened.
My point: I have no reason to celebrate a man who sired me but didn't mentor me, didn't sympathize with me, didn't listen to me. Unfortunately he happened to be my father.
When he died, there was no absence as he never had been present.
tanyev
(49,311 posts)I dont do much of anything for any holiday. Sometimes a special meal for a major holidaysometimes not. I lost my mom and my brother a couple years ago and there are plenty of times I still get emotional when I think about them, but its never triggered by any holidays or anniversaries.