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FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
Tue May 23, 2023, 04:55 PM May 2023

Heartbroken, that's all ...

Mom passed a year ago yesterday 5/22

Dad died two days ago 5/21 (only 12 hours before the 22nd)

Now my dog has to be put down.

I can't even

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Heartbroken, that's all ... (Original Post) FirstLight May 2023 OP
So sorry montanacowboy May 2023 #1
Tough times for you, indeed... OAITW r.2.0 May 2023 #2
Your heart is in pieces now but I know it Polly Hennessey May 2023 #3
I'm so sorry for your losses. fierywoman May 2023 #4
yea, mine were together for 60 years.... FirstLight May 2023 #7
So sorry Walleye May 2023 #5
..I feel for you, FirstLight whathehell May 2023 #6
my partner is here and my sister and I have been holding eachother... FirstLight May 2023 #8
Good..I'm glad you're not alone whathehell May 2023 #14
Oh dear. This is a lot... MontanaMama May 2023 #9
I'm so sorry 😞 live love laugh May 2023 #10
Hugs for FirstLight, family and friends Tikki May 2023 #11
I am very sorry. murielm99 May 2023 #12
I can only imagine what you are going through 40RatRod May 2023 #13
That's so much... Laurelin May 2023 #15
I'm so sorry for your losses. KS Toronado May 2023 #16
I'm really sorry. onecaliberal May 2023 #17
A terrible weight. ancianita May 2023 #18
So sorry... anciano May 2023 #19
I am so sorry, FirstLight. So much for you to carry. debm55 May 2023 #20
So very sorry snowybirdie May 2023 #21
This is so so much to bear, I am so sorry irisblue May 2023 #22
Very little will console you now, but know we are all here. Fla Dem May 2023 #23
Death dcmfox May 2023 #24
yea, true... FirstLight May 2023 #26
Yes, life is all about loss. flying_wahini May 2023 #29
Yes...each day is a gift. Deuxcents May 2023 #41
Sending vibes for healing and strength. You know that your DU family will be holding niyad May 2023 #25
thanks. FirstLight May 2023 #30
Lady of the Beasts, please take Your precious little one gently home. Do not niyad May 2023 #35
there might be an org. in the area that will come to your house to help your furbaby cross over orleans May 2023 #67
I can't imagine the succession of losses you have suffered, all so close together. MLAA May 2023 #27
You're shouldering a lot. forgotmylogin May 2023 #28
that makes sense, definitely FirstLight May 2023 #31
Good for you! forgotmylogin May 2023 #32
Isn't that nice! Yep an amazing resource! Backseat Driver May 2023 #45
May you and your family find comfort in the love you have and happy japple May 2023 #33
My deepest condolences to you. virgdem May 2023 #34
Too much! Jean Genie May 2023 #36
There are no sufficient words. I can't even either. Sending a GIANT hug to you. LoisB May 2023 #37
I feel for you. chowder66 May 2023 #38
What LoisB above said. Duppers May 2023 #39
I'm sorry to hear this. My condolences ... aggiesal May 2023 #40
3 deaths in one year is hard to handle! pazzyanne May 2023 #42
I am so sorry for your losses. Evolve Dammit May 2023 #43
My heart is with you Goddessartist May 2023 #44
So sorry IbogaProject May 2023 #46
So sorry. milestogo May 2023 #47
I'm so sorry vercetti2021 May 2023 #48
I am so very sorry for your loss, FirstLight. sheshe2 May 2023 #49
This message was self-deleted by its author sheshe2 May 2023 #50
Sorry for your loss. AltairIV May 2023 #51
Oh gosh, FirstLight! cilla4progress May 2023 #52
I'm so sorry, FL Wicked Blue May 2023 #53
I'm so sorry 😞 Raine May 2023 #54
I lost both parents in the same year. usonian May 2023 #55
thank you, so pretty! FirstLight May 2023 #59
I am near Yosemite, as the Mariposa Lily might suggest. usonian May 2023 #61
Carson valley is definitely saturated too! FirstLight May 2023 #62
I am so sorry, FirstLight. peacebuzzard May 2023 #56
THANK YOU for the Love FirstLight May 2023 #57
That's too much. redwitch May 2023 #58
Love's Light TFRD May 2023 #60
I'm so sorry! That's a lot to deal with. Ocelot II May 2023 #63
5/21 sucks for me also my mother passed that day 7 years ago kimbutgar May 2023 #64
Im sorry ... FirstLight May 2023 #66
That must be overwhelming. I am so sorry, FirstLight. pnwmom May 2023 #65
My heart hurts for you. JudyM May 2023 #68
Big ol' road a pot holes. I'm sure sorry for your loss and pain. MerryBlooms May 2023 #69
Thank you ..I can definitely relate with you FirstLight May 2023 #72
This message was self-deleted by its author FirstLight May 2023 #70
So sorry! colorado_ufo May 2023 #71
Just sending you love and support. calimary May 2023 #73
Hugs Duncanpup May 2023 #74
I prayed for you. They are still with you Joinfortmill May 2023 #75
Too sad malaise May 2023 #76
Hugs for you❣️ claudette May 2023 #77
I'm so sorry for your losses. area51 May 2023 #78
That's a lot to bear Sanity Claws May 2023 #79
So sorry. TdeV May 2023 #80
My deepest condolences on your loss, FirstLight. Niagara May 2023 #81
I'm sorry. Bluethroughu May 2023 #82
I'm so sorry. yardwork May 2023 #83
Oh, woah! My condolences. That's really rough! ... electric_blue68 May 2023 #84
So sorry... Phentex May 2023 #85
I'm so sorry. Snackshack May 2023 #86
I'm so sorry. CousinIT May 2023 #87
So sorry liberal N proud May 2023 #88
We're with you Wild blueberry May 2023 #89
My deepest condolences (nt) LostOne4Ever May 2023 #90

OAITW r.2.0

(32,563 posts)
2. Tough times for you, indeed...
Tue May 23, 2023, 04:59 PM
May 2023

Hoping you have better days soon. I assure you that, in time, it will be easier for you.

fierywoman

(8,629 posts)
4. I'm so sorry for your losses.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:00 PM
May 2023

(My Dad passed a few Dec 26th's ago -- my Mom passed the following June 26th -- is this a thing, of people together for a long time passing on similar dates? Oh, and I would have been conceived around June 26 many moons ago ...)

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
7. yea, mine were together for 60 years....
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:04 PM
May 2023

I'm pretty sure that it's a thing. I know that he had broken heart syndrome for sure. He'd never had ANY heart issues and then got COVID last month and had a major heart-event... then his gall bladder got him last week, and he went septic before they could do anything. He wouldnt have survived surgery anyway and had a DNR. It was rough.

whathehell

(30,547 posts)
6. ..I feel for you, FirstLight
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:01 PM
May 2023

and I'm so sorry for your losses, so many at the same time...It's tough, I know.

Is there anyone you can stay with or call to be with you? Please try not to be alone.

whathehell

(30,547 posts)
14. Good..I'm glad you're not alone
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:13 PM
May 2023

although I know it's hard in any case .I've faced the same sort of losses, although not, fortunately for me, so close together...Your post brings tears to my eyes, FirstLight..Be kind to yourself..Our hearts are all with you.

MontanaMama

(24,751 posts)
9. Oh dear. This is a lot...
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:08 PM
May 2023

Please accept my condolences on the loss of your folks. My parents died a year apart. They couldn't really manage without they other.

I'm also very sorry about your dear dog. That's almost too much.

Be gentle with yourself...these are hard things. We're here for you.




Laurelin

(955 posts)
15. That's so much...
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:15 PM
May 2023

I hope their love and your memories help you get through the grief. It does get better with time but I know that isn't much comfort now.

ancianita

(43,342 posts)
18. A terrible weight.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:26 PM
May 2023

If you have anyone who loves you, hug them. The more hugs the less heartbreak.

Hugs to you.

Fla Dem

(27,763 posts)
23. Very little will console you now, but know we are all here.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:37 PM
May 2023

I am so sorry for your loss. So much heartache. The month of May will never be the same again for you. But when you can, remember the good times with your Mom, Dad, and Pup. That always bring a smile to my face and heart.

 

dcmfox

(581 posts)
24. Death
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:37 PM
May 2023

It can come at any time for sure. I lost a sister in 2011, my dad in 12', my best friend, (sudden death) in 2015, and mom in 2018, life is loss

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
26. yea, true...
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:42 PM
May 2023

my sister and I have both vowed to get our own affairs in order..

sorry for your losses too

Deuxcents

(27,664 posts)
41. Yes...each day is a gift.
Tue May 23, 2023, 07:01 PM
May 2023

My heart goes out to you, FirstLight. Maybe you could tell us how to get in touch with your vet and we could donate for your pup’s expenses. Seems like so many of us care about you so be strong and take good care.

niyad

(133,985 posts)
25. Sending vibes for healing and strength. You know that your DU family will be holding
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:42 PM
May 2023

you close in light and love.

My deepest condolences on the loss of your father that way, and now your dog. I cannit even imagine.

This is all so much, almost too much to bear. But we are all here for you.

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
30. thanks.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:47 PM
May 2023

I haven't cried much today, numbness I guess.

I hate that I have to wait till I get paid Friday to help my puppy cross the Rainbow Bridge. The local shelter will do it for $60, I can't be with her when they do it. Dont know if I can handle that, I dont want her to be scared and think I just dumped her.
The vet charges between $150-200... I just dont have much money, especially since my coming paycheck took a hit from losing hours to go to the hospital.

I wish there was an easy solution.
(My partner says she's got enough valium we could do it here... but I can't bury her in the yard, the bears & coyotes would dig her up. which is a horrific thought)

I hate that she's suffering

niyad

(133,985 posts)
35. Lady of the Beasts, please take Your precious little one gently home. Do not
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:54 PM
May 2023

let her linger in pain and suffering.

orleans

(37,176 posts)
67. there might be an org. in the area that will come to your house to help your furbaby cross over
Tue May 23, 2023, 11:33 PM
May 2023

my cousin had someone come to her house for one of her cats.

also, if your pet passes at home you can still take their body to a vet.

i'd find out more about treating your dog at home... in case there was a problem (seizures, pain, etc.)

i'm so sorry you lost your dad -- and mom -- and now another special loved one.

glad you're not alone and there is someone to help you through this sorrowful time

MLAA

(19,798 posts)
27. I can't imagine the succession of losses you have suffered, all so close together.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:43 PM
May 2023

I am sending you kind thoughts and hugs. Please continue to post and allow your DU community to offer a shoulder to lean on.

forgotmylogin

(7,964 posts)
28. You're shouldering a lot.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:43 PM
May 2023

Remember, Karma will not ever plate you more than you can handle even if it feels that way.

(Apologies for talking in metaphors, but this was the sold advice that helped me most)

Grief is a bitter hard candy lodged in your throat that you can't make go away all at once. You must take opportunities to acknowledge it's there and lick away at it in your own time. Allow yourself space to grieve and don't push it down or try to forget about it so it won't rise up and choke you at unexpected moments that aren't on your terms. Don't neglect opportunities to remember and reminisce with joy or tears which will melt it down to a level where you can live comfortably alongside it.

My cousin warned me and this exact thing happened: there will be a time in the future when everything is done and your thoughts are clear and you think you're okay. You'll be sitting quietly with no interruption and that's when your brain will decide to remove a long-standing buffer of shock designed to protect you and finally allow you to purge the grief. You want that bitter candy to be the size of a breath mint rather than a gobstopper at that time when your psyche decides to cough it up. The more familiar and experienced you are with the taste will make that moment more cathartic than traumatic when it does happen and you can finally chew through it.



FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
31. that makes sense, definitely
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:49 PM
May 2023

Fortunately, we have some amazing memories and my sister and I are gonna write down all the stories and jokes for our kids...

I have been to the hospice grief counselor

forgotmylogin

(7,964 posts)
32. Good for you!
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:51 PM
May 2023

Hospice can be an amazing resource - not just for the patient but the surrounding family. They have sent me several post cards offering counseling or just talk and any emotional assistance I needed in the half-year since my mom passed.

Backseat Driver

(4,671 posts)
45. Isn't that nice! Yep an amazing resource!
Tue May 23, 2023, 07:18 PM
May 2023

All I got were requests for donations in hand-addressed No 10 envelopes -- The estranged and disinherited one - First from the facility my dad, mom, and brother died in; then from the facility that's just down the road - all right, 30 miles down the road. Who died in that one, I wonder...or should??? Sorry, guess that anger stage still pops out; none of them ever asked or provided me help of any kind in those trying situations.

I'm glad your experience hasn't been conflicted. My thoughts rest on FirstLight's painful grief and of the everlasting loss of new joys with loved ones gone, that now will soon include the life and loving ways of her furbaby. May I join with others on this post expressing my deep condolences and a plea that she finds the strength of unconditional love for her pup to attend his crossing. Group hugs, peace, and comfort to you, FirstLight. I know none of us need be alone and bereft, and I've come to the conclusion that it's never a shame to need each other.

japple

(10,459 posts)
33. May you and your family find comfort in the love you have and happy
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:51 PM
May 2023

memories from the past. It was so helpful to me to talk about my parents, husband, brother, pets and look at old family pictures in the days after they died. You will find the strength to go on. They are still with you in spirit.

virgdem

(2,323 posts)
34. My deepest condolences to you.
Tue May 23, 2023, 05:53 PM
May 2023

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Peace and light to you and your family.

Jean Genie

(550 posts)
36. Too much!
Tue May 23, 2023, 06:10 PM
May 2023

My gosh! So sorry. Take care of yourself. Too much heartbreak all at one time - you need some peace in your life. I hope you get it soon.

chowder66

(12,498 posts)
38. I feel for you.
Tue May 23, 2023, 06:14 PM
May 2023

Lost my dad in 2017, then my step-dad and brother in 2019, then my cat in early 2020.

It still gets to me but it's getting easier to live with as time progresses.

aggiesal

(10,913 posts)
40. I'm sorry to hear this. My condolences ...
Tue May 23, 2023, 06:59 PM
May 2023

There is an old saying
When you're going through hell, keep going.

I lost my dad and oldest brother 1 day apart 13 years ago.

You have a support group, here in DU.
Feel free to lean on us when needed.

Goddessartist

(2,176 posts)
44. My heart is with you
Tue May 23, 2023, 07:12 PM
May 2023

Please take care of yourself. I had a heart attack last year after losing my Mother, and a Sister in the same week, or rather in between their passings. Broken Heart syndrome. Sending you and your sweet dog all of my love.

IbogaProject

(6,065 posts)
46. So sorry
Tue May 23, 2023, 07:23 PM
May 2023

That is going to be tough. Try and take some solace that they weren't separated very long.

milestogo

(23,193 posts)
47. So sorry.
Tue May 23, 2023, 07:33 PM
May 2023

Lost my mom 5 years ago this week. Don't know why the date eludes me.

I've always thought there should be a law of the universe that prevents one from being overloaded with too much grief in too short a time. But alas, there is no such law.

Thinking of you.

Response to FirstLight (Original post)

usonian

(26,570 posts)
55. I lost both parents in the same year.
Tue May 23, 2023, 08:30 PM
May 2023

Here's a flower I photographed a couple of days ago.
I hope it brings you some comfort.

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
59. thank you, so pretty!
Tue May 23, 2023, 10:03 PM
May 2023

we still have piles of snow lingering everywhere! (Tahoe= buried)

usonian

(26,570 posts)
61. I am near Yosemite, as the Mariposa Lily might suggest.
Tue May 23, 2023, 10:43 PM
May 2023

Contact if you need help. I'm going to file with FEMA for some storm damage.

After your snow melts. I drove through the central valley, and it looked saturated.

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
62. Carson valley is definitely saturated too!
Tue May 23, 2023, 10:48 PM
May 2023

up here, the "creeks" we like to play in on hot summer day are RAGING rivers, WAYYY over their normal lip... it's amazing and there's Still a ton up top waiting to melt too!

I heard we might get a wetter summer this year too, we need it. Maybe this wont be such a bad fire season

peacebuzzard

(5,887 posts)
56. I am so sorry, FirstLight.
Tue May 23, 2023, 09:19 PM
May 2023

so much heartache; ....and tragic turns. I hope you can find some solace; no words.😿 🥀

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
57. THANK YOU for the Love
Tue May 23, 2023, 09:21 PM
May 2023

I still haven't gotten a hold of the vet

I can call the shelter and see about how they handle it....I don't want to have THAT conversation.

Last Resort is here at home, I can look for services that do that also.

Worst part is waiting till Friday/PayDay

(and the car insurance and water bill I've been trying to ignore)

Fuuuuck...I'll keep you all posted here as I figure this out.
I needed the love and advice... I do have a hospice counselor..and just got offered online therapy through my employer!

breathe... remember to eat...etc

kimbutgar

(27,543 posts)
64. 5/21 sucks for me also my mother passed that day 7 years ago
Tue May 23, 2023, 11:03 PM
May 2023

My wedding anniversary was 5/20 and I always felt she stayed with us until the next day so her death wouldn’t be associated with my wedding anniversary.

So sorry for your list Firstlight.

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
66. Im sorry ...
Tue May 23, 2023, 11:26 PM
May 2023

It's hard because it's just emergent spring here in the high sierras, so seeing new life bursting out is kinda rough, but also hopeful. They are definitely better off and with all their friends and family

JudyM

(29,785 posts)
68. My heart hurts for you.
Wed May 24, 2023, 12:38 AM
May 2023

This is so much to endure…
Wishing you extra strength and increasing moments of relief in the depths of this.
Hugs hugs hugs, so sorry… you will get through this, though, you will.

MerryBlooms

(12,400 posts)
69. Big ol' road a pot holes. I'm sure sorry for your loss and pain.
Wed May 24, 2023, 01:02 AM
May 2023

I lost my folks way back, they died 5 months apart in '91. To this day, pretty sure daddy died of a broken heart, even though they divorced when I was just little.

Hang in there. Time does make it better... Not so raw, not so hard, bitter sweet. But, it's gonna always be a head slap.

Sending you a bunch a love and hugs.

FirstLight

(15,771 posts)
72. Thank you ..I can definitely relate with you
Wed May 24, 2023, 04:17 AM
May 2023

Even though dad's been deteriorating for weeks, it's still a blow

Just when you think you're done grieving, something else happens

Response to FirstLight (Original post)

calimary

(90,742 posts)
73. Just sending you love and support.
Wed May 24, 2023, 04:51 AM
May 2023

It’s good that you shared this. It means we can all know and keep a vigil with you. You do not mourn alone.

electric_blue68

(27,258 posts)
84. Oh, woah! My condolences. That's really rough! ...
Wed May 24, 2023, 11:17 AM
May 2023

My mom passed on 5/22 as well - 15 yrs ago.

Take it minute by minute.

Snackshack

(2,596 posts)
86. I'm so sorry.
Wed May 24, 2023, 12:32 PM
May 2023

I have been there. Mom, Dad, Grandma, Grandpa...all of them are gone now. This new reality is not by choice and it hurt/s so much but to not have it would mean I never knew them and that is simply not acceptable.

It will get easier, I promise. Loss never gets better but it does get easier to live with interact with and eventually fine peace with.

Somedays it really is 1 day at a time.

/hug

CousinIT

(12,738 posts)
87. I'm so sorry.
Wed May 24, 2023, 01:12 PM
May 2023

One major loss is bad enough but when they start piling up, it feels like you're alone in the world - especially parents and pets.


Wild blueberry

(8,369 posts)
89. We're with you
Wed May 24, 2023, 01:50 PM
May 2023

That's a lot of grief. Please be as kind to yourself as you can (sleep, walks, good food, time to cry--or not). Connecting with your sister.
Sending a big hug!
Please keep us posted on how you are.

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