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Mom passed a year ago yesterday 5/22
Dad died two days ago 5/21 (only 12 hours before the 22nd)
Now my dog has to be put down.
I can't even
montanacowboy
(6,730 posts)it's a lot to carry all that loss.
OAITW r.2.0
(32,563 posts)Hoping you have better days soon. I assure you that, in time, it will be easier for you.
Polly Hennessey
(8,962 posts)will recover.
fierywoman
(8,629 posts)(My Dad passed a few Dec 26th's ago -- my Mom passed the following June 26th -- is this a thing, of people together for a long time passing on similar dates? Oh, and I would have been conceived around June 26 many moons ago ...)
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)I'm pretty sure that it's a thing. I know that he had broken heart syndrome for sure. He'd never had ANY heart issues and then got COVID last month and had a major heart-event... then his gall bladder got him last week, and he went septic before they could do anything. He wouldnt have survived surgery anyway and had a DNR. It was rough.
Walleye
(45,385 posts)whathehell
(30,547 posts)and I'm so sorry for your losses, so many at the same time...It's tough, I know.
Is there anyone you can stay with or call to be with you? Please try not to be alone.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)thanks
whathehell
(30,547 posts)although I know it's hard in any case .I've faced the same sort of losses, although not, fortunately for me, so close together...Your post brings tears to my eyes, FirstLight..Be kind to yourself..Our hearts are all with you.
MontanaMama
(24,751 posts)Please accept my condolences on the loss of your folks. My parents died a year apart. They couldn't really manage without they other.
I'm also very sorry about your dear dog. That's almost too much.
Be gentle with yourself...these are hard things. We're here for you.
live love laugh
(16,473 posts)Tikki
(15,212 posts)So sorry for your losses.
Tikki
murielm99
(33,081 posts)40RatRod
(566 posts)I am so sorry.
Laurelin
(955 posts)I hope their love and your memories help you get through the grief. It does get better with time but I know that isn't much comfort now.
KS Toronado
(23,846 posts)onecaliberal
(36,594 posts)ancianita
(43,342 posts)If you have anyone who loves you, hug them. The more hugs the less heartbreak.
Hugs to you.
anciano
(2,312 posts)Sending peaceful vibes your way.....🙏
debm55
(61,624 posts)snowybirdie
(6,747 posts)Its a lot to bear. You have friends here.
irisblue
(37,894 posts)Fla Dem
(27,763 posts)I am so sorry for your loss. So much heartache. The month of May will never be the same again for you. But when you can, remember the good times with your Mom, Dad, and Pup. That always bring a smile to my face and heart.
dcmfox
(581 posts)It can come at any time for sure. I lost a sister in 2011, my dad in 12', my best friend, (sudden death) in 2015, and mom in 2018, life is loss
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)my sister and I have both vowed to get our own affairs in order..
sorry for your losses too
flying_wahini
(8,281 posts)How we care for each other is all that really matters.
Deuxcents
(27,664 posts)My heart goes out to you, FirstLight. Maybe you could tell us how to get in touch with your vet and we could donate for your pups expenses. Seems like so many of us care about you so be strong and take good care.
niyad
(133,985 posts)you close in light and love.
My deepest condolences on the loss of your father that way, and now your dog. I cannit even imagine.
This is all so much, almost too much to bear. But we are all here for you.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)I haven't cried much today, numbness I guess.
I hate that I have to wait till I get paid Friday to help my puppy cross the Rainbow Bridge. The local shelter will do it for $60, I can't be with her when they do it. Dont know if I can handle that, I dont want her to be scared and think I just dumped her.
The vet charges between $150-200... I just dont have much money, especially since my coming paycheck took a hit from losing hours to go to the hospital.
I wish there was an easy solution.
(My partner says she's got enough valium we could do it here... but I can't bury her in the yard, the bears & coyotes would dig her up. which is a horrific thought)
I hate that she's suffering
niyad
(133,985 posts)let her linger in pain and suffering.
orleans
(37,176 posts)my cousin had someone come to her house for one of her cats.
also, if your pet passes at home you can still take their body to a vet.
i'd find out more about treating your dog at home... in case there was a problem (seizures, pain, etc.)
i'm so sorry you lost your dad -- and mom -- and now another special loved one.
glad you're not alone and there is someone to help you through this sorrowful time
MLAA
(19,798 posts)I am sending you kind thoughts and hugs. Please continue to post and allow your DU community to offer a shoulder to lean on.
forgotmylogin
(7,964 posts)Remember, Karma will not ever plate you more than you can handle even if it feels that way.
(Apologies for talking in metaphors, but this was the sold advice that helped me most)
Grief is a bitter hard candy lodged in your throat that you can't make go away all at once. You must take opportunities to acknowledge it's there and lick away at it in your own time. Allow yourself space to grieve and don't push it down or try to forget about it so it won't rise up and choke you at unexpected moments that aren't on your terms. Don't neglect opportunities to remember and reminisce with joy or tears which will melt it down to a level where you can live comfortably alongside it.
My cousin warned me and this exact thing happened: there will be a time in the future when everything is done and your thoughts are clear and you think you're okay. You'll be sitting quietly with no interruption and that's when your brain will decide to remove a long-standing buffer of shock designed to protect you and finally allow you to purge the grief. You want that bitter candy to be the size of a breath mint rather than a gobstopper at that time when your psyche decides to cough it up. The more familiar and experienced you are with the taste will make that moment more cathartic than traumatic when it does happen and you can finally chew through it.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)Fortunately, we have some amazing memories and my sister and I are gonna write down all the stories and jokes for our kids...
I have been to the hospice grief counselor
forgotmylogin
(7,964 posts)Hospice can be an amazing resource - not just for the patient but the surrounding family. They have sent me several post cards offering counseling or just talk and any emotional assistance I needed in the half-year since my mom passed.
Backseat Driver
(4,671 posts)All I got were requests for donations in hand-addressed No 10 envelopes -- The estranged and disinherited one - First from the facility my dad, mom, and brother died in; then from the facility that's just down the road - all right, 30 miles down the road. Who died in that one, I wonder...or should??? Sorry, guess that anger stage still pops out; none of them ever asked or provided me help of any kind in those trying situations.
I'm glad your experience hasn't been conflicted. My thoughts rest on FirstLight's painful grief and of the everlasting loss of new joys with loved ones gone, that now will soon include the life and loving ways of her furbaby. May I join with others on this post expressing my deep condolences and a plea that she finds the strength of unconditional love for her pup to attend his crossing. Group hugs, peace, and comfort to you, FirstLight. I know none of us need be alone and bereft, and I've come to the conclusion that it's never a shame to need each other.
japple
(10,459 posts)memories from the past. It was so helpful to me to talk about my parents, husband, brother, pets and look at old family pictures in the days after they died. You will find the strength to go on. They are still with you in spirit.
virgdem
(2,323 posts)I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Peace and light to you and your family.
Jean Genie
(550 posts)My gosh! So sorry. Take care of yourself. Too much heartbreak all at one time - you need some peace in your life. I hope you get it soon.
LoisB
(13,442 posts)chowder66
(12,498 posts)Lost my dad in 2017, then my step-dad and brother in 2019, then my cat in early 2020.
It still gets to me but it's getting easier to live with as time progresses.
Duppers
(28,476 posts)Hope folks around you are supportive.
Sending cyber
aggiesal
(10,913 posts)There is an old saying
When you're going through hell, keep going.
I lost my dad and oldest brother 1 day apart 13 years ago.
You have a support group, here in DU.
Feel free to lean on us when needed.
pazzyanne
(6,761 posts)Evolve Dammit
(21,814 posts)Goddessartist
(2,176 posts)Please take care of yourself. I had a heart attack last year after losing my Mother, and a Sister in the same week, or rather in between their passings. Broken Heart syndrome. Sending you and your sweet dog all of my love.
IbogaProject
(6,065 posts)That is going to be tough. Try and take some solace that they weren't separated very long.
milestogo
(23,193 posts)Lost my mom 5 years ago this week. Don't know why the date eludes me.
I've always thought there should be a law of the universe that prevents one from being overloaded with too much grief in too short a time. But alas, there is no such law.
Thinking of you.
vercetti2021
(10,481 posts)sheshe2
(98,407 posts)Response to FirstLight (Original post)
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AltairIV
(1,068 posts)Condolences on your losses, an extremely difficult year for you.
cilla4progress
(26,526 posts)I'm so sorry! 😢
Holding you in my heart!
Wicked Blue
(9,011 posts)Raine
(31,237 posts)so much to have to endure in such a short time. 💔
usonian
(26,570 posts)Here's a flower I photographed a couple of days ago.
I hope it brings you some comfort.

FirstLight
(15,771 posts)we still have piles of snow lingering everywhere! (Tahoe= buried)
usonian
(26,570 posts)Contact if you need help. I'm going to file with FEMA for some storm damage.
After your snow melts. I drove through the central valley, and it looked saturated.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)up here, the "creeks" we like to play in on hot summer day are RAGING rivers, WAYYY over their normal lip... it's amazing and there's Still a ton up top waiting to melt too!
I heard we might get a wetter summer this year too, we need it. Maybe this wont be such a bad fire season
peacebuzzard
(5,887 posts)so much heartache; ....and tragic turns. I hope you can find some solace; no words.😿
🥀
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)I still haven't gotten a hold of the vet
I can call the shelter and see about how they handle it....I don't want to have THAT conversation.
Last Resort is here at home, I can look for services that do that also.
Worst part is waiting till Friday/PayDay
(and the car insurance and water bill I've been trying to ignore)
Fuuuuck...I'll keep you all posted here as I figure this out.
I needed the love and advice... I do have a hospice counselor..and just got offered online therapy through my employer!
breathe... remember to eat...etc
redwitch
(15,272 posts)I am so sorry!
TFRD
(205 posts)May Love's Light shine upon You and may Your fondest memories comfort you.
Ocelot II
(131,199 posts)kimbutgar
(27,543 posts)My wedding anniversary was 5/20 and I always felt she stayed with us until the next day so her death wouldnt be associated with my wedding anniversary.
So sorry for your list Firstlight.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)It's hard because it's just emergent spring here in the high sierras, so seeing new life bursting out is kinda rough, but also hopeful. They are definitely better off and with all their friends and family
pnwmom
(110,321 posts)JudyM
(29,785 posts)This is so much to endure
Wishing you extra strength and increasing moments of relief in the depths of this.
Hugs hugs hugs, so sorry
you will get through this, though, you will.
MerryBlooms
(12,400 posts)I lost my folks way back, they died 5 months apart in '91. To this day, pretty sure daddy died of a broken heart, even though they divorced when I was just little.
Hang in there. Time does make it better... Not so raw, not so hard, bitter sweet. But, it's gonna always be a head slap.
Sending you a bunch a love and hugs.
FirstLight
(15,771 posts)Even though dad's been deteriorating for weeks, it's still a blow
Just when you think you're done grieving, something else happens
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colorado_ufo
(6,262 posts)calimary
(90,742 posts)Its good that you shared this. It means we can all know and keep a vigil with you. You do not mourn alone.
Duncanpup
(15,651 posts)Were here for you First light.
Joinfortmill
(21,658 posts)malaise
(297,869 posts)claudette
(5,455 posts)area51
(12,752 posts)Sanity Claws
(22,437 posts)My condolences on your losses.
TdeV
(160 posts)Niagara
(12,101 posts)May you have better days ahead.
Bluethroughu
(7,215 posts)yardwork
(69,612 posts)electric_blue68
(27,258 posts)My mom passed on 5/22 as well - 15 yrs ago.
Take it minute by minute.
Phentex
(16,749 posts)Snackshack
(2,596 posts)I have been there. Mom, Dad, Grandma, Grandpa...all of them are gone now. This new reality is not by choice and it hurt/s so much but to not have it would mean I never knew them and that is simply not acceptable.
It will get easier, I promise. Loss never gets better but it does get easier to live with interact with and eventually fine peace with.
Somedays it really is 1 day at a time.
/hug
CousinIT
(12,738 posts)One major loss is bad enough but when they start piling up, it feels like you're alone in the world - especially parents and pets.
liberal N proud
(61,203 posts)Wild blueberry
(8,369 posts)That's a lot of grief. Please be as kind to yourself as you can (sleep, walks, good food, time to cry--or not). Connecting with your sister.
Sending a big hug!
Please keep us posted on how you are.