I am sorry, but I have created another GoFundMe to try and help with my current situation.
I really did not want to do this, as I feel like such a slime for even asking for help.
We need some help because bills are piling up and my medical situation is not going to get any better.
Now, I am aware that most of us are not doing well. Which is why I feel so crappy about even asking.
If anyone can help, I would appreciate it. If anyone wants to berate me for even asking, go right ahead. I do not deserve anything, nor can I repay anyone for any of it, since I doubt I will make it to this time next year. But, it will help my husband recover from being connected to me, since I am obviously such poison to every aspect of our society. (I mean, based on the things that have happened to me over my life, that seems to be the only rational conclusion.)
As I have stated before, I am not a salesperson, and I have no desire to be. I know that this is the difference between getting a few dollars, and getting more, but I would rather skin myself with a dull knife than try to be a 'hype-man'. I can only ask for any help that might be out there. If there is none, then so be it. I am about done with this entire fantasy, to be honest. I never asked to be a curse on the planet, and I doubt any relief will be had until it is all over.
https://gofund.me/bc41e2b13
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have a seat next to me.
I'm going to talk to you like your drunk uncle at a party who has had 8 Jack and Cokes and is slurring his words.
First of all, never be afraid to ask for help. Never. You are not asking for much anyway.
Secondly, you're not a curse, you're not a burden. You are here for a fucking reason, even if you don't know that reason. (hic! Hey, bring me another drink, wouldja?) .
You get my drift?
So get that "curse" shit right out of your head.
I donate to pretty much every DU Go Fund Me anonymously. I can only donate very small amounts, because I'm pretty much fucking broke and live on debt, but I donate, and I donated a small amout to you (donated what I could afford).
Hic!
So you other DUer's, help OldBaldy out. Even if you can only give a few bucks (hic!).
Take it from your old drunk uncle here...NEVER put yourself down. NEVER! Got it? I'm a Christian (albiet a shitty Christian) and I believe God put you here for a reason. No matter what your faith, (or even your absence of any faith at all)...you need to believe that you are here for a reason that you can't see yet.
Hang tough Baldy, and best wishes!!
PS - I don't drink alcohol, but I've been given "the talk" by plenty of drunk uncles, so I can mirror their spiel pretty well. 
Seriously...good luck. You're going to be ok.
I appreciate the kind words. I really do.
Reality does not seem to agree with you, but I do appreciate it.
Also... just eight drinks?
You are not one of my Irish-descended uncles... they would have had that much before they even arrived at Grandma's house!
(P.S.: I do not like asking for help because there are so many out there in worse straits than I am in, and, they actually have potential. They are not lost causes like I am. They deserve to be helped. I have nothing to offer anymore. They do.)
when I thought I was a goner.
When I thought I had nothing to live for.
And then, inevitably, WITHOUT FAIL, AND EVERY SINGLE TIME, something would happen that would pull me out of the horrid abyss just enough to make me see that I was wrong.
I'm trying my hardest here to make you understand something...
You have saved someone's life...and you might never even know who, or why. You may never be made aware of it.
You flashed a quick smile at someone one day when they were thinking of killing themselves, and your smile stopped them. Don't believe me? Trust me, it's true, and it's something that you were not meant to be made cognizant of.
Someone in this world thinks that you are the cat's ass (that is a term that is used as a high compliment in my area of the world)...and they are never going to tell you that they think you are the cat's ass...but they truly believe that you are.
It's human nature to believe that we can't pull through when we are sick...but people pull through every day when things are looking their bleakest.
You're strong enough to type. You're husband loves you, even though it may not feel like he does right now. You may be fighting, you may be arguing, but he loves you. Conflict is part of love. Without true love and caring, there can be no conflict.
I read your Go Fund Me and I can sense how you are feeling right now...because I've been there, Old Baldy, and I've always pulled through.
And you will always pull through now. I promise you that you will pull through.
Don't you fucking dare make me wrong about this! 
You're going to be alright, I promise you. And money isn't going to be the thing that makes you alright. A better car isn't the thing that is going to make you alright. YOU are what is going to make you alright.
It's a beautiful world. OldBaldy. And you are part of that beautiful world. And the world would be less beautiful without you in it.
I speak from my heart, and I believe what I am telling you. I hope you believe these truths as well.
Medical bills will continue to pile. Are there no agencies that can step in to ease it?
I am not a social worker but I hope that someone here can direct you to appropriate sources.
