What did you find out about yourself

[applegrove]

years later that made you feel you belong. I realized I am partially dyslexic. I‘m good at interconnected thinking. I think in 3D. I was depressed in my late teens. All typical of dyslexics. I can clearly remember struggling to communicate with people. And it didn‘t happen. No connection. I needed time and solitude to learn how to think for myself, instead of just buying into the narrative of a friend who dominated me. Depression happened again when I was 25. Again for a very good reason(harassment). So those mysteries are solved. And I know how to stear away from trouble. And I feel safe. And I‘m very hopeful.

[Aristus]

1. Growing up as a smart, but small, kid, I got beat up a lot in school.

When I hit puberty, I grew to be large enough to look like you wouldn't want to mess with me. (I still hate fighting, but you wouldn't know it to look at me...)

I began to feel an affinity for the bullied, the harrassed, the downtrodden, and the unfairly maligned.

These things are part of what makes me a liberal. When I realized one day that I am a liberal, I knew I had found where I belonged...

[applegrove]

3. When I go back into family history I

think there are many dyslexics. And they were always Liberals on my dad‘s side even thought they had money. I think the interconnected of dyslexic thinking makes people want to hold out their arms and embrace others and be in ‘this‘ alltogether. Thomas Edison was a passifist and a dyslexic. So was JFK a dyslexic. It is nice to belong to a club that follows the golden rule.

[olddots]

2. I have made a science out of insecurity

have become secure in my insecurity and have become a very successful failure .

[applegrove]

4. When you‘re a good person it is inpossible

to be a failure.

[Tuesday Afternoon]

5. I have come to realize that I fight harder for other people than I do myself.

I don't stand up for myself when I have been wronged but, I will fight like the dickens when I see injustice against friends.

[Populist_Prole]

6. Though, while reserved by nature, I was/am very independent minded

I just didn't realize that as a younger adult, let alone a kid. My parents used to worry that, as a kid, I wasn't sociable or outgoing enough. Always telling me to smile more, laugh more. They just thought I was "shy". ( Damn I hate that catch-all cliche for anybody that isn't an obnoxious back-slapper ) I mean, I had friends, just not the multitudes of them they wish I had. They kept trying to force me into awkward situations and events with others in vain hope I'll connect with others. I hated them for that. Using that logic, the way to teach somebody to swim would be to throw them in the middle of a lake. I used to root for the bad-guys/heavy's in movies and TV shows just to piss them off.

Turns out I just never wanted anything to do with shallow, narrow, loudmouths. Didn't even want them as foul weather friends. I'm proud of myself now. I've found plenty of others who think like me and we get along great, and have become friends lasting 30 years or more. We can took about interesting stuff. Everyone else seems so narrow and shallow. I just can't connect with them. Though I try to be polite for decorum's sake or professional reasons, they still think me aloof. They're right: I am.