Sometimes, I hate how I am

[raptor_rider]

Was supposed to watching a great firework display that my town puts on, on my parents hill. And I hear my dogs go off, and hear a cat rowl!!! Thinking it was my 7 yr old cat, I went to look. (We live on 2 acres, in the desert, and anything can happen. Only one outside cat, rest are inside, so don't attack!!!) I find a kitten, about 6 months old.

Her rib cage and hips are crushed. She got picked up by an owl. Can tell by the talon marks.

I'm still crying, even though it's been a couple of hours.

I ran a warm bath, cleaned her up. And I held her in the towel, letting her be warm and loved, while she passed. She passed right in my arms. My husband told me to put her down since she was clawing and biting at the towel, I told him no, she is fighting passing, and I would sush her, and just tall her to just cross that pretty bridge, you'll be very happier there.

Being empathic sucks!!! It's been 5 hrs since I found her, and 4 since she passed, and I'm still crying!!!!

[shenmue]

1. Mercy

Bless you for your kindness.

[raptor_rider]

2. Thank you!!!

I don't get that much. Thank you!! I tried.

Just like with my past kitten litters, I've really tried, would stay awake like a new mother, would bottle feed and have lost 4!!

I used to be a vet asst, so I know, sucks however I know.

I just wanted the baby clean, and loved when she passed.

[daleanime]

3. It's rough, but it's better to be who you are....

would you really want to be the type who walks past a dying kitten?




Now be good to yourself and get some rest.

[Bernardo de La Paz]

7. +1. You did what you could and you did good. Now is the time to move on.

Crying is natural, but it won't help the kitten or any other animal or person. But don't kick yourself if you find yourself crying. Just note it, and get on with things, which might include sleep or taking a walk.

[littlemissmartypants]

4. ..

[bananas]

5. You're wonderful.

I'm glad you are who you are.

[ColesCountyDem]

6. Bless you!

She knew she was loved, when she passed. Hard as it was to let her go, your love and care mattered greatly.

[Bernardo de La Paz]

8. That brave kitten made it safer for other kittens by giving the owl something to remember.

The kitten did what needed to be done. (note: the owl let it go)

You did what needed to be done.

Empathy does not suck. But being overly emotional about it does. You can relax the grip of emotions hold on you without losing any empathy. Crying is not equivalent to being empathic. Even so, if you can't help crying, just cry. It's possible to do what needs to be done while crying. However, sometimes even then what needs to be done is pause and just have a full out cry. Do what needs to be done.

Never hate yourself. Never hate. I don't even use the word in that I never say "I hate such-and-such". If I accidentally say that I immediately catch myself and correct myself. Hatred is toxic and self-hatred is most toxic of all. All the same, there are many things I dislike and want to change. Some of them I can control and have an affect on, some not.

Acceptance is the way.

You must accept yourself, even as you strive to do better in whatever endeavors.
You must accept the world, even as you strive to improve it.

Change what you can, accept what you can't change, and seek the wisdom to tell the difference.

[Liberalynn]

9. Someone once told me

That as hard as it can be on us emotionally it's much more preferable to be a person who feels everything deeply than someone who feels almost nothing because it means we are more fully experiencing what it means to be alive, to be human, and connected to this world.

Thank you for loving and caring so much about that kitten.

[Lunabell]

10. I am so sorry

Nature can be so cruel. The poor little thing. And bless your heart too.

[Rye Bread Pizza]

11. Nature's Way

I am glad you were so kind and caring, and sorry for your pain... Unfortunately nature has chosen to only let two of anything live to breeding age. You are a most kind human... I hope your genes are among the two...

[onlyadream]

12. You're a good person

And it hurts. Glad the little kitty had someone there for her.

[66 dmhlt]

13. Helping any critter to make it over the Rainbow Bridge is a badge of Honor

[alphafemale]

14. Yes you are kind.

Sometimes a kind heart can lead people to cruelty.

Every breath was agony for that kitten as broken bones tore into flesh.

Next time just satisfy yourself with a quick pat and quickly and humanely dispatch the animal.

This wild creature writhing in agony did not FEEL your love.

It wanted out of its misery.

Please do not be an agony vampire ever again.

Sometimes the best mercy is ending the pain when there is no hope.

[rug]

15. I'm there with you. Horribly sad.

That it happens daily doesn't change it. I am most acutely aware of life in those moments. and yes, she was fighting passing. As do we all.

[raptor_rider]

16. Thank you all for your messages

I'm still a bit teary this morning. However I believe it was meant to be. Who knows where the owl picked her up from, she seemed to me to be far away from home. Most of the wild cats around here are tabbies, but she was a white calico.

I've been known to be too kind hearted.

Just wanted her to die loved, not in the dirt and weeds.

[LiberalElite]

17. It does suck -

I sometimes wish I could donate some of my empathy to the needy bastards who don't have any.

[roguevalley]

18. I am so sorry, honey. Don't ever fret empathy. It means that your soul is alive

take care and know your kitty in that last moment was surrounded in the greatest warmth and love ever. I couldn't wish for more for myself in that situation. Take care and know you are loved. All of my cats and dogs were waiting for her. I promise you. she is in good hands.

[lunatica]

19. I think grief is one measure of the divine within each of us

And tears are the holy water that washes everything clean. Your act of tender caring did indeed help the kitten pass more easily because its passing meant something important to someone. Think of the alternative of passing in utter loneliness and pain, instead of gently in your arms.

[orleans]

20. i'd be crying too

and i'd be haunted by the experience for quite awhile too

it was a lovely thing you did