I'm not gay, but I'm in love with a man......

[fNord]

My boyfriend, is the most amazing person I've ever met. He is smart, funny, and attractive to boot! I've known him almost 20 years, and have known I've been in love with him for almost half that time. We have inspired personal jokes, we speak in dated references to each other (Shaka, when the walls fell.....) We've even have been accused of speaking in code, though we just thought we were talking.

I love this man. I'm IN LOVE with this man....

But I'm not attracted to this man. Not in a "romantic" way. Not how I WANT to be.

I've "been" with men before, and that idea doesn't disturb me in the slightest.
I do find women more attractive, but I've never felt about anyone the way I feel about him. I truly LOVE him.

He knows my conundrum, and has no animosity about it.....He loves me too....
But I know it must bother him.

Today is his 35th birthday, and I want to make him happy. I just don't know what to do. I've never been in love this hard, and I've never felt this useless.

Please, any advice would be extremely helpful right now.

[lambchopp59]

1. Dinner out at his favorite cuisine?

That's always been more memorable to me than any trinket.