My beloved baby dog is gone.
I was hoping and praying that she'd still be here at Christmas but she couldn't hold on - she really really tried, I just know it. She was very old and very sick, and when her life became too painful I had to let her go. I am just broken. I can still smell her in the house her fur is everywhere and I keep thinking I hear her in the next room. There is no solace at home, she was my home.
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She was 15 and 1/2 years old. She was the love of my life just as your baby is. My user name is a tribute to her (Pearl)
Like you, I kept looking for her, I see the little paths she had worn in the grass to her favorite spots. I would automatically call out her name.
My chest literally HURT. Heartbreak is a real thing. Tears just come out of nowhere when you least expect it.
I'm feeling for you so much and your beloved pup.
I have Pearl's ashes in a little urn here on my desk. I talk to her and I tell her I love her.
I have another Border Collie puppy now (her name is Ryn) I was too damn lonely not to have the company of a dog in my life.
A new puppy and just the passage of time helps ease the pain.
Wishing you the best and feeling your loss and heartache. Good luck to you in your healing. 
for your sake. It seems so unfair that they have such short lives as compared to humans. May you find comfort in your sweet memories of her.
ETA: When we had to send our little dog to heaven last January, the thing I missed more than anything was the sound of her little toe nails clicking around the house and her joy over the smallest things. The house seemed so quiet for a long time.
It's so hard.
It's surreal - that's the way I felt.
Sending my condolences and deepest sympathy.
Our furbabies give us so much joy but losing them is so heartbreaking. I'm so sorry.
with your baby stay in your heart and make you smile. We lost our 14 year old baby girl in January. 
It's such a hard thing to lose a loved animal friend.
it's so very hard
Grieve not,
nor speak of me with tears,
but laugh and talk of me
as if I were beside you -
I loved you so -
'twas Heaven here with you
~Isla Paschal Richardson
so sorry for your loss.
{{{HUGS}}}
She wasn't quite ready to go just yet so she's hanging around for a bit to give you some solace. She misses you and you miss her. She'll eventually cross over when she knows it is the right time to move along to the next dimension/existence. While she may be physically gone, her spirit lives forever is how I believe as the soul never dies.
I am so very sorry for you. I know this pain only too well.
Take good care of yourself and know that your baby is in a better place where there is no pain, only love. She's still around and will be there waiting for you when your time comes. Please do not feel alone as she is with you.
Hang-in there and here is a for you!
