Sad news
My poor Hudson passed away this afternoon. I was not expecting that, but deep down I was feeling like it might be in the next few days. I was holding out hope for a holistic miracle, but we didn't make it to that treatment--which was slated to start Tuesday morning. He was not eating and I was force-feeding him pureed food and his nights were becoming increasingly difficult. Last night was very difficult, but we went for a ride this morning (which he had been enjoying) and it started out OK but he was clearly becoming uncomfortable. Came back home and sat on the floor in front of the couch with him and held him across my lap. He seemed to calm down (he had been panting) and looked up at me. His paw was shaking a little, so I held that as I rubbed his head. He looked up at me, newly relaxed, and seemed happy for a minute. I told him that it was OK if he was ready to go see his first person, my mom, and some of his friends that had passed and that I'd see him again before he knew it. I thought he was just resting so I went into the kitchen to do something and, when I came back about 2 minutes later, he was gone. Now I'm a wreck---looking at his stuff (his beloved teddy bear, the pharmacy that I was developing here, his bed, his water bowl). This is horrible 
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I am so sorry about the loss of your precious companion. They bring such joy to our lives. Hudson loved you and you loved Hudson. It has to hurt a lot. Please accept a warm virtual hug from me.
I'm so sorry, but glad you were able to say goodbye.
every good memory you have of Hudson help ease the sadness of his final days. Grieving with you 
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You did everything you could; you loved him and cared for him and now he isn't sick any more. Just went through this with two elderly cats in the last couple of months and it's awfully hard, but I try to think of all the good years and the fact that now they aren't suffering. And I think of these comforting words of Irving Townsend: "We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own, live within a fragile circle; easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we would still live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan."
I've read your posts about your beloved Hudson, and I know how hard you were trying to keep him here with you.
Hold on to the knowledge that you loved him with all of your heart. I am sure that love was returned tenfold.
When we give our furry family members the best of ourselves, we can always hold on to that fact and know that they had the best life possible.
I wish you didn't have to feel the sorrow. Unfortunately, that is the cost we pay for great love.
My baby died two months ago and everything is dead and empty without her. It happened pretty quickly...about 10 days. After spending 17 years together, just the two of us, it is beyond misery now. I hope you do better than I am doing. I feel empty and dead inside. I miss everything about her and everything reminds me of her 24/7.
I hope you get through this better than I am. I knew it would be like this, but that doesn't make it any easier.
For Hudson
❤ lmsp
Just sending
They are our loving children and there's no way to stop the pain immediately. You did everything right, everything you could, and he *knew* he was loved.
for Hudson.
You did so well with the end care of giving nutrition, rides, spending time.
It is so hard when they finally let go. He loved you. What a great person you are.
I am so sorry for this terrible loss.
My heart is heavy again, I had a similar loss in April with my 18 year old kitty.
I am so sorry for your loss.