I had to put my 12 year old Pomeranian down on Monday. He had been poisoned somehow...

[Demsrule86]

by accident with neighbors using poison on rodents or on purpose...I will never know. He didn't die right away and the Vet worked for several months to save him...but on Sunday night he became gravely ill...his liver failed. On monday there was no other choice but to stop his suffering. I am a wreck, I know it is foolish but I love that dog more than anyone should love a dog...and I miss him terribly. I had Covid and am still stuck in the House. I have other dogs and have tried to think about them and how lucky I am I still have them...but I am so sad. I can't move on. Benjy was a present from my husband on Valentines day 12 years ago right about this time...and he died on the anniversary of my Mom's death which is somehow making it worse...just wanted to vent...I try to think about other things but I am not very successful...

[MFM008]

1. Sorry

About the loss of your friend.

[Demsrule86]

25. Thank you I feel very sad...

[FM123]

2. Oh my dear, I am so very sorry for what you are going through.

No, it is not foolish to love a dog that much. As a fellow dog lover (as many are on DU) we understand. Sending you much love and extra hugs during this very painful time.

[Demsrule86]

3. It is so painful. Thank you.

[Demsrule86]

5. He was put on antibiotic and red blood cell shots to try to save him and for a while it worked...

He had three more good months of playing 'stick' and running around. The night it all went to hell, he had eaten well and played with me and the other dogs...so I am grateful for those days. I just wanted more.

[FM123]

13. Yes, I know that feeling well, of wanting just a little more time.

My sweet girl was quite ill then suffered a stroke, but she rallied and made a great comeback for a few months before passing - I too am so grateful for those extra months that I got to have. Please know that you are not alone, we are all here for you. And you may message me privately anytime if you would like.

[Demsrule86]

37. Thank you...my pup got better for a while and I will treasure those times forever...I was so aware

that he could be taken any day that I made the most of out time...cooked his favorite food, played with him and told him how much I loved him...Even when I had Covid, I forced myself to be there in all ways...I wonder if this is why I had a relatively mild case. When we had done all we could I held him in my arms and whispered how much I loved him and what a special dog he was. After the Vet administered the sedative...He looked at me and I could see he saw me and how much love he felt...a few minutes later, the Vet gave him the shot that released him from needless suffering. The vet is of British descent and called him a 'brave little chap'. He cried too as did the nurses. We really had worked very hard to save him and were beginning to be hopeful when the end came. My husband was unemployed during much of this time and the Vet gave me reduced bills or I could not have continued...he is a wonderful man.

[AirmensMom]

4. I am so sorry.

Losing a fur baby is bad under any circumstances. This loss is particularly hard. I wish comfort and peace for you, but it might take a while. Give yourself permission to grieve.

[Demsrule86]

14. Thank you. Everytime I feed the dogs, I just sob...I guess it will get better. I have had dogs all

my life and loved them all, but this little guy I raised from a tiny puppy...and he was my dog all the way...followed me everywhere...slept next to me... I am just so sad. He was playful and we had a great deal of fun too.

[tblue37]

6. I am so sorry! It seems a lot of DUers are losing precious friends. It is not at all

foolish to deeply mourn a beloved companion. I still miss the 16-year-old cat I lost on Nov. 21. I still have 3 cats, but that doesn't change the fact that she left a hole in my life.

I hope the grief eases up soon.

[Demsrule86]

15. I am sorry abut your cat. I know what you mean I have three lovely dogs that I adore, but his little

guy left a hole in my heart and my life.

[Skittles]

7. I am so very sorry Demsrule86

Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears,
but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you..
I loved you so — ’twas Heaven here with you.

- Isla Paschal Richardson


be good to yourself........time does not heal all wounds but it certainly makes them easier to bear

[Demsrule86]

16. Thank you Skittles that is wonderful quote.

it has only been a couple of days but it feels like a year.

[Blue Owl]

8. Words are inadequate to both express the grief or console it...

But know there are hundreds upon thousands of like-minded folks on DU who know what you are going through and have been there. We are here for you if you need to get it all out. Just knowing you are not alone can be the first step towards mending the feelings of brokenness that always accompany the loss of a beloved pet...

[Demsrule86]

18. I think that is why I posted today...and I do feel broken.

[Wicked Blue]

9. How awful. I am so sorry for your loss.

I hope your memories of Benjy and your husband will be blessings to you

[Demsrule86]

19. My husband is quarantined. We both had Covid...he is doing alright so far...so he is still with

me but not with me right now. He had gone down to his new job when he was diagnosed and I was still in cleveland selling the house...but when Benjy became ill, I pretty much concentrated on this...so I know I have done all I could to save him and that is a comfort. I still have to sell the house and all the other stuff that goes with it. I am so worried about my husband and so sad too.

[exboyfil]

10. Sorry for your loss

It is especially hard when they are taken before their time. I hope your other babies are safe from your neighbors.

I lost my heart dog (that one special dog in my life - it is a term in my daughter's agility community) last year, and I have still not gotten over it.

[Demsrule86]

20. Thank you...I had expected more years...I think Benjy was my heart dog.

My other babies are safe so far. I have put cameras outside and walk the yard before I let them out.

[OregonBlue]

11. I feel for you. Been there and it is so lonely without them.

[Demsrule86]

21. It is so lonely...Benjy followed my around and this sounds silly but we had great conversations. no

one else around right now.

[OregonBlue]

100. My doggies and I have great heartfelt conversations

every day. I would be lost without them. I truly feel your heartbreak.

[AnotherDreamWeaver]

12. Many Blessings...

[Demsrule86]

22. Thank you.

[sdfernando]

17. I'm so sorry.

Losing a treasured and loving pet is the same as losing a family member...nothing foolish about that!

I'm glad you have other pets that can help you through this time, but also remember that they will miss Benjy too...as they help you, you will help them.

So so sorry about Benjy.

[Demsrule86]

23. Thank you... Sophie, Molly and Lily are very sad too. Even the cat seems sad. She was my sister in

law's cat and had only gotten used to us recently. My sister in law had to go into a home after she broke her leg in four places. She has not been able to rehab and can't walk. She is a large woman and I couldn't care for her at home. I would have tried and maybe got nurses but she didn't want to...was afraid I think.

[XanaDUer2]

24. So sorry

[Demsrule86]

26. Thank you,

[AZ8theist]

27. We're getting close to putting Maya down...

She's a rescue mutt about 14. Her hind legs are shot. She has trouble walking and standing. She's the sweetest dog I ever knew.
I don't know how I'll react when that day comes...

[Demsrule86]

28. I am so sorry. Our other dog Lucky whom I adored and cried for weeks, months (still) for had

medicine for that...worked pretty well for a while. I hope that day is a ways off...

[Chainfire]

29. It is a heartbreaking process, even knowing it is the right, and only thing to do.

I am a dog person, and I have been through it too many times. I am sorry for your loss, and I understand your pain. My old stinky mongrel is laying right beside me as I type, and she is a family member, in full standing.

[Demsrule86]

33. That is it...they are members of our family. Benjy just was my dog from the beginning...he looked

out for me...took him everywhere I could. I had stopped working when he came because jobs were few and far between and the kids were suffering from having to move twice in a year because of plant closings so I was home more I guess...He gave our heinz 57 baby at least five years extra life...I remember when I saw Lucky sitting under a tree trying to catch a squirrel...Benjie would start barking and Lucky would sit on him...she was a pretty big dog at 55 lbs...Benjy weighed 10 or 11 lbs. They were best friends.

[XanaDUer2]

30. So sorry

[Demsrule86]

36. Thank you...it feels better to let it out...and just cry.

[SWBTATTReg]

31. I am so sorry to hear this sad news. My dogs are literally everything to both of us, and we would

be devastated if something untoward would happen to them. This is why I don't use poison of any kind in any location around and in my house, neighbors too, since they have young children too. I don't even use grass kill (roundup etc.) since they like to eat grass. It's better to be safe and deal w/ the weeds and bugs on a manual basis, and besides, the 3 dogs I have will eat every single bug around, so I don't have a problem w/ bugs.

My best for you and yours. May the best memories of your beautiful baby comfort and console you and your other babies/dogs.

[Demsrule86]

34. I have never used poison either.

I never saw a dead animal either. I hate to think it might have been deliberate. We had dogs poisoned where I used to live who had Obama signs on their lawns...But I put no signs out this year...I can't imagine someone doing such a thing.

[SWBTATTReg]

38. You're right, I can't imagine someone wanting to do harm to these most innocent of animals...

but we saw how the trump nuts acted on 1/6/21, killing people all driven by the words of the PINO then. People say that we're not in a civil war, but I IMHO, think we are, in a war for human decency, human kindness, our hands stretched out in friendship and aid if needed.

These trump thugs are everything we're NOT. An example, Josh Hawley has lost his main republican supporter in MO (Danforth), he's lost all of his church supporters, he's lost his main financial supporter too (in MO). Basically his entire support group(s), except for the most despicable, have all fled him and his gutter mouth, that allowed him to win the office in the first place, from Claire M.

[Demsrule86]

82. Claire is the best... and for some reason the Trump supporter doesn't like me very much so I always

wondered...but it could have been accidental to. I put no signs out for Hillary or Joe because of the fear of what these crazies could do...and where I live it mostly Democratic.

[Yonnie3]

32. So sorry to hear this

It is so difficult to lose such a special companion. You are never ready.

FLFC, our 5 pound Pom, continues to decline. We are not ready for him to leave.

I hope as time passes you will feel better.

[Demsrule86]

35. I see your post in cooking and baking Yonnie. I wondered if FLFC was a pom...

some of your descriptions made is seem he might be ...I hope your pup improves...We had blood work done. That is how we knew what was wrong...but there are other illnesses that affect older dogs that can be treated. I wish the best for you and FLFC. I cook for my dogs you know. I might eat peanut butter but I cook for the dogs...my college age daughter told her sister. The dog eats better than I do.

[Yonnie3]

43. Unfortunately FLFC has inoperable lung cancer

We can't do anything but make him comfortable. We give him medicine that helps his breathing and appetite. It is so frustrating not being able to do anything more for him.

I would say we are spoiling him, but that happened years ago.

I've been told in the cooking group that FLFC (Manny) eats better that some who read the group.

[Demsrule86]

57. I am so sorry, I didn't know. I have spoiled all my dogs...my motto is a dog's life is short, let

them have treats and fun...I cook for my dogs too. That is so hard...Benjie was ill for four months while we fought red blood cells too low, white blood cells to high and to prevent organ failure and did get better for a while, the vet warned me he was not out of the woods, but I was hopeful. Unfortunately, we just couldn't save him. I am so sorry. FLFC sounds like my Benjie as the vet said 'a brave little chap' Mine was a bit of a brat too like many poms...he tried to drag my youngest back into the house on Saturday the day before he became acutely ill. No one was allowed to leave and believed all food and most toys were his. It gives me comfort to know he enjoyed his life right to the end and we had a bit of extra time. ...damn I miss him. I have read your posts about FLFC and know he still enjoys his life.

[SheltieLover]

39. So saddened by your loss

[Demsrule86]

58. Thank you...

[SheltieLover]

76. Yw

[Jakes Progress]

40. I am so sorry. Losing an animal is like losing part of yourself.

The pain just can't be touched.

I lost my 15 year old cat just last month. I still hurt.

The only thing I can tell myself is that I hurt - but he doesn't. He is beyond pain and fear.

I'm sorry that that is all I have.

[tiredtoo]

41. sad story. sorry about your loss

I put my 13 year old dog down recently and my feelings were very similar to what you are experiencing now. Like Bill Clinton " I feel your pain."

[Demsrule86]

60. I am sorry for your loss too. Does it get better?

[birdographer]

64. It gets better

When we lost our Cavalier, I had a complete meltdown. He had had heart problems for many months, it was totally expected, he passed in our bedroom overnight, I should have been able to handle it. Nope. The only thing we could do to get me out of the abyss was get a Cavalier puppy, but of a very different color. I'm sure that accelerated my healing, but we now talk almost daily of the boy we lost--we talk with love and laughing affection. I never have and never will love a dog like I loved that one, but now the memories are precious and not mournful. We had two other dogs at the time (and still have them), but that didn't really impact my grief in any way. It WILL get better with time. But I know how you feel and I am so sorry.

[tiredtoo]

78. yes it does

someone told me the best thing you can do for your deceased dog is get another dog from a shelter. They need the love and you have the need and ability to give them the love. I got a dog and he has again brought joy to my life. Still miss the little guy I had before at times. But knowing he had a good life gives me consolation.

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

42. I'm so sorry for your loss.

There's nothing foolish about loving an animal with all your heart, and it hurts just terribly to lose them. I lost two of my beautiful, sweet cats, one at 17 and the other at 14, this past summer. I know too well how it feels so you have my deepest condolences.



"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own, live within a fragile circle; easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we would still live no other way." - Irving Townsend

[Demsrule86]

67. That is a beautiful quote...and so true. I am so sorry about your cats...two so close together...

had to have been hell on earth.

[OhNo-Really]

44. I know of no greater sadness. I'm so sorry

[Demsrule86]

68. Thank you...I am very sad.

[OhNo-Really]

70. I wailed I was is so much pain at losing Bruzer

Each day became a little easier. I wish I had made an album like we do for kids. My daughter had copies of my pictures printed for me.

Cry your tears. Someday I hope to run in fields of flowers & butterflies with my Bruzer. This fantasy helps me.

{{{Hugs}}}

[TNNurse]

45. My DogGirl has been gone for almost 8 years.

She was my constant companion during surgery, chemo and radiation. She followed me from room to room and had a bed at the foot of our bed where I spent a lot of time. Chemo was rough. In the Spring after my treatment was finished in November, we had to put her down because of lung cancer. I still miss her. I still think about her. Every time I open a package of cream cheese, I remember how she could get the package and make it shine like nothing had every been in it. Actually any container that once held dairy products, she would polish to a shine.

I understand.

[Demsrule86]

69. Oh... I am so sorry. I am glad you are OK...my dogs love dairy products too...right now...

I feel like Benjy is gone...I mean I felt his presence even if I wasn't with him before...but now just emptiness.

[Big Blue Marble]

46. Benjy was a dog of your heart.

I am so sorry that you lost your dear friend. We love all our animals, but sometime we make
an even deeper heart connection, a special bond with one of our animal companions.

And those, I call animals of your heart. To lose these animals is losing a piece of yourself.
The grief is profound. It is comforting to know that you can still connect with them
through your heart, because they reside there always.

[Demsrule86]

77. That is a lovely way of putting it and so true...Benjy was a dog of my heart.

And I will miss him.

[Evolve Dammit]

47. I am so sorry for your losses. Then Covid. Hope you can carry on with your furry buddies. Take care

[Demsrule86]

79. I forced myself to get up and take care of them...probably saved me from a worse version of

Covid...Thank you for your kind words.

[Evolve Dammit]

90. Hang in there. I wish the best, for all of you. Forcing ourselves seems to be necessary now.

[onecaliberal]

48. I am so very sorry. My fur babies are my kids too.

Don’t ever apologize for loving so much. They are better than people and more than we deserve on most days. My heart is broken for you. It’s really hard.

[Demsrule86]

80. My heart is broken...I miss him so much. I look for him without thinking.

And then I remember.

[onecaliberal]

83. Oh I remember.

I lost my boy very suddenly. I was wrecked for a bit.

[gademocrat7]

49. So very sorry, Demsrule86

Sending you love and hugs.

[Gore1FL]

50. I am sorry for your loss

Losing a pet is devastating.

[irisblue]

51. Benjy 🕯️I am so so sorry Dems,

I grieve with you.

[Demsrule86]

81. Thank you Irisblue...I am so unhappy right now...I am taking some comfort in the ones I have left...

He was the best dog...a little scamp mischievous, playful...and he just stole my heart...and he took a piece when he left.

[seta1950]

52. I'm so 😢

[Demsrule86]

91. Thank you ...I am sad too. I miss my pupper.

[Dem2theMax]

53. I am so sorry, Demsrule86.

I can't imagine how hard it must have been for both of you.

Every single one of our furry family members is unique and special. Even though you have other dogs around you, it makes absolute sense that you are thinking of the one who is no longer there.

Vent when you need to. We are here for you.

And allow yourself to grieve for however long it takes. It makes total sense to me that you are hurting so badly.
Dogs give us unconditional love. That is a special bond that can never be replaced.

[Demsrule86]

92. I see you understand perfectly...I am grieving and expect it will last a while...the other puppers

and kitty help. They distract me.

[Ford_Prefect]

54. My late wife got our cat Mickey just before she was diagnosed.

He was a rescue kitten who climbed or leapt to the top of everything in the house including the kitchen cabinets. He was just 2 when she passed 4 years ago.I still tell him how proud Mommy would be of his mousing skills when he presents a trophy by the back door. I think of her when I hold him and stroke his chin.

I feel for your losses. Mickey reminds me of her and how he would move from one lap to the other while we watched TV together. When I open something boxed in the move from back then he looks for her when he smells something from our old house.

I know the pain of losing a special pet. My dog of 14 years passed not long before we got Mickey. I was his boy and that was that as far as he was concerned. He slept on the bed at, and sometimes on my feet. When I was on the computer he'd lay on the floor next to my chair. When I took a break he'd pull on my cuff to get me out for a walk.

Our pets are real and special friends. They are part of the lives we live and the lives we share with others. When they leave us we feel the space they filled and the links they no longer make.

[Demsrule86]

93. Yes, I am so sorry for the loss of your wife. And I am glad you have a sweet kitty...

Benjy was like your dog I was his girl period. he slept with me every night, sat next to me when I was home, I took him with me when I could because he loved to ride in the car...he even went to the rest room with...he had a little pillow in their...I have other pups for which I am grateful but I do indeed ' feel the space the filled and the lings they no longer make' ...perfect way to put it. Thank you.

[lillypaddle]

55. Damn, sucks all the way around

[Demsrule86]

94. It sucks... I was not ready to lose my little guy...sucky year.

[Traildogbob]

56. 💔😥

[pazzyanne]

59. Sincere condolences on the loss of your beloved furry friend.

As Benjy crossed the Rainbow Bridge, he left wonderful memories with you. Take care!


"What we have once enjoyed, we can never lose; All that we love deeply becomes a part of us."
Helen Keller

[Demsrule86]

95. I hope someday we are reunited...if there is a heaven, I can't imagine such a place without out

beloved pets. Thank you.

[felicemmp2]

61. There's no replacing the hole in your heart

for a sweet fur baby. We lost our little 11 year old silky rescue in October after a battle with liver disease and lymphoma. We couldn't stand to see him suffer any longer. It was breaking our hearts. Not a day goes by that I don't shed tears for him. I keep telling myself "all dogs go to heaven, you'll see him again". Now I have to make sure I'll get there myself. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Demsrule86]

96. Thank you. Benjy was poisoned somehow and it destroyed his liver in the end. We had a few

months where we tried to save his life and things seemed to be going pretty well. He was happy, running and playing. The day before he died, we played stick in the house as there was too much snow outside. And he played in the snow. That night something happened and he became ill...he threw up but didn't seem to be in pain...the next day I took him to the vet to find his liver was failing. The vet didn't think he was in pain but he was miserable just the same so we made the hardest decision a pet owner faces and put him sleep...the vet cried, I cried and the nurses cried. He had been a regular visitor as the vet tried his best to save him. He had a few months more of a happy life. I am thankful for this. The vet was very kind an barely charged us anything as we were unemployed at the time. We had time to make the most of what was left...and I am grateful for this. I can honestly say we did everything that could be done. I am so sorry about your silky...it is so hard. They leave a giant hold in our hearts when the leave..I too find comfort in thinking I will see Benjy again.

[OMGWTF]

62. My great aunt had a series of Pomeranians, all female and all named "Fifi"

I'm sorry for your loss. In time, maybe you, too, will want to replace your lost friend with a new one.

[BlueNProud]

63. I'm sorry. You will get thru this.

[Cozmo]

65. with deepest sympathy and understanding

You did what was best for Benjy, it is the commitment we make to our pets when we care for them in good times and in bad. Benjy loves you and will always be with you. Take good care with your other doggies and know that you did the right thing.

[11 Bravo]

66. There is nothing foolish about it. Dogs are family.

I posted here years ago about the death of my beloved Golden Retriever. He was almost 16, and it was time, but I was devastated.
My current sweet pooch is a 12 year old rescue lab. Thankfully she is, while not as spry as she has been, still in good health. But she occupies a special place in my heart, and when the time comes, I will feel as you do today.
Nothing I can say will assuage your grief, but please know that I'm thinking of you and Benjy tonight.

[Karadeniz]

71. **************I looked and looked... Ancient Roman to modern.... for a poem to explain our love for

Pets. Wasn't happy with any of them. Then I stumbled across James Stewart, the actor, reading his poem, Beau, on Johnny Carson. As poetry, it's not up there. But as Stewart reads it and becomes increasingly affected remembering Beau, the episode is perfect. It doesn't explain the human-pet bond, but Stewart displays it.

Google James Stewart, Beau, for a video, but view the one with Carson. That was his first reading of it.

[BobTheSubgenius]

72. I'm SO sorry.

We almost lost our Cairn 3 or 4 weeks ago, and I was holding out hope, so it didn't crash on me like the ton of bricks I know is coming one day.

I hope your other dogs and a little time will give you the peace you deserve.

[niyad]

73. Lady of the ?Beasts, please take Bengy gently home in Your loving arms, and send peace and

comfort to his grieving loved ones.

(((((((((Demsrule86))))))))) I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know that your DU family is here for you.

[MelissaB]

74. I'm so sorry for your loss.

They really do become family. (((hugs)))

[leighbythesea2]

75. You poor thing

This gutted me, and I'm so sorry for your loss. Poms are delightful. Lost mine in fall, and the covid situation @ home all the time just, well, I understand. Know there are people here thinking of you and wishing peace for your dear companion of so long.
I literally made an alter for mine, and it helped a little. Sending hugs.

[Buckeye_Democrat]

84. I'm sorry! My Dad had a G. Shepherd / Collie mix...

... that was apparently poisoned, with anti-freeze as the suspected culprit by the vet who did an autopsy.

We assumed it was the nurse-woman who lived next door who did it, but we never really knew.

Dad mostly kept that dog in our fenced back yard, and it loudly barked at the mailman and others. The woman next door worked night-shift and had already complained about the barking. So my father was "responsible" for that poor dog dying in pain too, as far as I was concerned.

He later got another dog which almost always stayed indoors except for walks and such.

Edit: To clarify, I never thought the poisoning was justified at all! I was just surprised that my father didn't try to accommodate the neighbor who had already complained about the barking keeping her awake. My father was usually much more conscientious, but not in that case for whatever reason.

[Maraya1969]

85. I'm so sorry for your loss. The loss of a pet can be the worst thing ever.

[Freedomofspeech]

86. So very sorry for your loss...we lost our rescue beagle on November 4th.

I totally understand your pain. We only had Emme for 3.5 years but she was such a sweet spirit. She had been badly abused and she loved us so much for saving her. Our 12 year old Golden rescue is mourning her so much that she is a completely changed dog.
Just dwell on the blessings that he gave you for 12 years and how lucky he was to have you. Sending you love and peace.

[TigressDem]

87. Some perspective.

Your grief is HARD but it is GOOD. Your love of that specific dog is GOOD. It makes you someone capable of loving and giving.

All the other things happened and add to this pain.

BUT even though it seems OVERBLOWN in this moment, it is a cleanse.

I had never grieved a situation that happened when I was 7 years old. A friend of mine asked me how long ago my "adopted" Grandmother died as I had accidentally used the present tense when talking about her, a sign that she somehow still was ALIVE in my brain. She committed suicide and I was not allowed at the funeral because it was closed casket.

Some time later, I had to put my dog down because he was having awful seizures. I cried so much harder and I realized I was channeling any "LEFTOVER" grief into it and FINALLY letting go of some things.

So right now you have some piled up leftover grief that has attached itself to this sad moment. Sit with it. Let it flow. Don't think it's silly. You need to live, so maybe set aside specific times to simply sit with the grief. Put a timer on for 5-10 minutes and just let it be there. Journal what comes and then when the timer rings, set it aside to live a little. Take back your life until the next time you sit with the pain.

WHEN you resist grief it will INCREASE until it has your FULL ATTENTION.

WHEN you give it your full attention, let it flow onto a page and honor it, you are controlling the release, watering the garden of your life with tears shed to remember the love that is now gone from this world.

EXCEPT IT ISN'T. Your sweet dog and wonderful Mother have left this world, but their sweetness and light live on in you because you remember their goodness and the other stuff. Think about the good times too and eventually you get to the acceptance.

The angry part is normal too. It is so unfair that we have to lose the people and pets that we love, but death is a part of life.

IT JUST SUCKS. But we all have to spend our time with it. Just like puberty and PMS it's part of the human deal.

Hope this helps your process.

[peacebuzzard]

88. so terribly sorry,

sad. My sentiments, my condolences for the loss of your angel.

[Neema]

89. It's NOT foolish and I'm so sorry.

You have every right to be devastated. Let yourself have time to grieve and heal and don't let anyone make you feel guilty about that. Dogs give us so much love, it's only right we deeply feel their loss. I love my sweet pup more than just about any human on earth.

[Duppers]

97. You described my feelings about my dogs.

Loved them "more than just about any human on earth." Their love is just so pure.
❤ for you.

[Neema]

99. Thanks! My pup has kept me going through this horrible year.

I shudder to think of how deeply depressed I'd be without her.

[Duppers]

98. I am so sorry!

I share your pain, Demsrule86.

We had to have our 5yo precious yellow Lab put down just 9wks ago yesterday and I'm still crying every day. She was the sweetest baby girl; even our neighbors complimented how sweet she was to their dogs.

We got her as a rescue puppy. And just about 5 mos ago i told her foster mom, DUer MimiMe: "See that moon up there? Missy put it there."

We had no idea our baby was suffering with a severe congenital heart valve problem then. It only manifested severe debilitating symptoms a week before we had to stop her suffering.

Missy was our definition of love; she was by our sides constantly, & giving us her paw & kisses when we were troubled because she sensed our every pain & grief.

I know that's how you feel about your sweet Benjy. Some dogs just give us so much love & joy that life is not the same without them.

But the sharp pain you're feeling will eventually subside a bit. I think it helps share & know others totally understand. Don't be ashamed or embarrassed - love is love is love, no matter its source. And we know, some dogs are much more humane than many (most?) people.

Btw, I'm an atheist but it's comforting to me to think our Missy is now a spirit. I hope your sweet Benjy and our Missy gets to meet over the 🌈 Bridge.

[MustLoveBeagles]

101. I just saw this post

I'm so sorry Demsrule.