My heart is overwhelmed with gratitude for the love and support from my DU friends

[Siwsan]

Losing Sophie was a shock. She's been with me for 14 years. Losing Morgan is such a shock and has shattered my soul. Given her genetic problems, I'm going to take comfort in the fact she likely lived longer because I took her and her siblings in. I have let her sister's mom know to keep an eye on things, and to mention what happened to Morgan so they can check Smoky and Cinder for any potential issues. I'm definitely keeping a VERY close eye on Madoc's litter box contributions.

My wonderful brother came over and helped me take care of Sophie. We buried her with her collar, and with the ashes of her 'sister', Boudicca. When I receive Morgan's ashes, she will be added to the site. My brother read an amazing, ancient Egyptian prayer for cats that, again, had me weeping. In the Spring, their resting place will be covered with a memorial stone and Daffodils. It's right outside the front enclosed porch, where Sophie loved to sit in a patch of sun and watch the birds.

So, the morning routine has become easier, but also a reminder of what I've lost. Madoc gets a good, early morning breakfast. Then the ferals are fed. Then it's my turn. Madoc gets a good grooming, right after breakfast but now I have time on my hands, because I am used to feeding and grooming 3 cats. Now there is just one.

I'm taking the rest of the day off to continue crying while I try and process what has happened. It still feels like a bad dream that I'm having trouble waking up from. And I still question did I do something wrong. And, I am grateful for the wonderful support I received from the Oakland Veterinary Referral Service. It was a long day, into night, but they were kind, compassionate and honest with me about the situation.

So now I turn a new page. Madoc is snuggling on my lap and that gives me immense comfort.

[tblue37]

1. My heart is breaking for you and your precious cats.

[blm]

11. They had a place in all of our hearts.

[tblue37]

16. Madoc must be lonely, too.

[blm]

17. 😢

[calimary]

40. They sure did!

LOVED hearing about them, and we all mourn their loss here, together. I hope they run into Betty, Upstairs, before too long. She's fairly new up there, herself, but she'll be loving and welcoming for sure. Bob, Julian, and Kira send their love and their sympathy. Love you, Siwsan.

[alwaysinasnit]

2. ...

[avebury]

3. I am so sorry for your loss.

i have loved hearing about your journey with you furbabies and along with the DU Community, feel like I know them. Madoc will have big paws to fill as you both comfort each other through your loss.

[Polly Hennessey]

4. Daffodils represent rebirth and new beginnings.

From the Foothills, Millie and PufMan send their love. 🌼🌼

[brer cat]

5. Much love to you and Madoc.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

6. My heart goes out to you, my dear Siwsan...

Please take care of yourself and Madoc, and know that we, your DU friends, hold both of you in our hearts.

[Walleye]

7. I know that feeling of emptiness. There will be more kitty love for you once you get through this

[LakeArenal]

8. Cat is Love. ❤️

All our past is waiting up there for us.
Because there could be no heaven without pets.

[2naSalit]

9. Grieving with you...

Do take care of yourself too.

[littlemissmartypants]

10. ❤

[pazzyanne]

12. Thoughts of sympathy from me, Halle, Teddy, and Feisty.

Take good care of you and Madoc during this stressful time.

In remembrance.

[c-rational]

13. Siwsan, so sorry for your loss. I have so appreciated your threads, and your love of your cats

shines through. I cannot imagine Morgan have had a better home.

[SheltieLover]

14. I am so glad to hear you have such a wonderful brother

and that Madoc is bringing you comfort as you process these painful & shocking losses.

Because you you, they have known love and been exceptionally well cared for.

Hugs to you & Madoc as you begin a new chapter in your lives.

[hibbing]

15. Sorry for your loss, hang in there n/t

[chowder66]

18. I'm so sorry.

[Tomconroy]

19. You didn't do anything wrong. You did everything right.

[Totally Tunsie]

20. My heart goes out to you, Siwsan.

[ShazamIam]

21. I personally consider your posts here, all about caring, to add a wonderful dose of humanity to DU.

[niyad]

22. (((((((((((((Siwsan and Madoc))))))))))))) sending love and comfort and healing, from

my furbaby and me. Through you, I feel that Sophie and Morgan and Madoc, and Cinder and Smokey, and the ferals, are part of my family as well, and my heart is shattered.

Please take very good care of yourself, as I know that you are doing for Madoc and the ferals. You are loved and valued here, and we are here for you.

I love the resting place you have created.

[Snackshack]

23. I'm so sorry.

🕯

[wnylib]

24. It's natural to ask if you did something wrong,

or missed doing something right when you lose someone dear to you. It comes from the powerlessness of loss and a wish that you could have the power to redo things and change the outcome. It's part of the denial stage of grief.

When you are able to fully accept the loss, you will be able to accept that you have human limitations, but that within those limitations, you gave the love and care that you were able to give and received it in return. That's really what it's all about - the love.

[KT2000]

25. You were the light

for Sophie and Morgan and still Madoc and the ferals. I am so sorry - It hurts terribly. Just know you are one of the best cat moms ever and if Morgan's time was to be short, she had the best there is. Sophie had the best for 14 years.
Thank you for sharing this journey with us.

[Danmel]

26. I'm so sorry

We lost our 2 15 year old littermate kitties 2 months apart this summer. I miss them so much. Thinking of you and wishing you comfort and peace

[Grumpy Old Guy]

27. ❤❤❤

[Texaswitchy]

28. So sorry.

There was a reason for the new kittens to come along.

Sophie had a good long life.

[Kimber432]

29. Oh no, I'm sooo sorry

It just never ever gets easier. I'm sorry for your heartbreaking loss.

[GPV]

30. I am incredibly sorry!!!! Poor sweet babies, and poor sweet you!

[Naio]

31. I am so sorry for your loss. .😞

[COL Mustard]

32. Siwsan...

We can't all help you but we can all help you.

[demmiblue]

33. Oh no! My heart breaks for you, Siwsan.

[Jilly_in_VA]

34. I had missed the news

as I was otherwise occupied. I am so sorry for your loss. It is wrenching to lose a furbaby, and to lose two at once is an awful blow. It's good that Madoc is there to comfort you. Perhaps Sophie felt that Morgan, being so little, should not go alone to Rainbow Bridge, and since she knew her time was near, chose to go with her. We don't always understand the ways of our fur friends. I hope that Madoc will continue to thrive, and that the ferals will become ever more friendly. Big hugs for you, and purrs from Winnie and Vicky.

[kairos12]

35. My condolences for the passing of these

sweet family members.

[Trueblue1968]

36. Siwsan, your dear kitten catters are friends with GRACIE, SOPHIE & SNICKERS in Cat Heaven now.

my prayers are with you my friend.

[Wild blueberry]

37. We love you

and your kitties, all of them, here and in the other world.

[Nanuke]

38. Daffodils

I went out and bought some Daffodil bulbs today to plant in honor of Morgan and Sophie Stinky Toes. When they come up in the spring I will post a photo in their honor. That will be LATE spring as I am in Minnesota.

[calimary]

39. Welcome to DU, Nanuke.

Threads like this one just always seem to remind and reinforce that we're a big ol' family here. Brothers and sisters from other mothers and fathers.

Glad Siwsan is part of it, and that YOU are part of it, too.

[Roy Rolling]

41. Good Morning!

There’s a common-themed verse in all spiritual literatures, something like “don’t worry about tomorrow, today has enough problems of it’s own to deal with”.

I hope you make it today with the love of others, and the encouragement you made it through yesterday—so those encouraging sentiments are a fact. If you’re a good person, it does get better with time because—don’t get a swell head—you deserve it.

It only hurts because you loved Morgan and Sophie Stinky Toes. And because of your love, you get grief. But also because of your love and sacrifice you deserve support and love back, so you will make it another day.

I hope it’s a great one.😻😻😻

I’m already smiling from the name “Sophie Stinky Toes”. One of our “volunteer” kitties I call “The Count of Monte Krusty”. So despite your grief today, naming her “Sophie Stinky Pants” brought an enormous smile to the face of a near-stranger two decades later. How does that happen? 😉

[TuxedoKat]

42. With sympathy

I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved kitties, Morgan and Sophie. It must be so heartbreaking to lose two unexpectedly so close together. I would love to know the Egyptian cat prayer sometime if you feel up to sharing it with a fellow cat lover.

[Siwsan]

43. I'll have my brother send it to me.

I know he's helping install dry wall, today, but I'll get in touch with him tonight.

[marble falls]

44. It's hard, but it will get better. I promise.