Disquiet
My existence has been wretchedly chaotic in the last 14 years. I am wrapping up a research article I started 17 years ago. In this period, I got (amicably) divorced, moved back to my home country India from the US and lost my mother to cancer, which I have only recently gotten over. I am an only child and my mom and I were very close. It was a shock when we lost her.
As a result of the circumstances under which all this happened my mind has not been at rest. Anything I write is less about catharsis than explicitly political. Therefore, rather than to a therapist (an American concept I never quite took to), I thought I would start writing in this rather quiet forum on DU.
Political to me does not connote noisily spectacular. If anything, quite the reverse.
But writing out my side of things like Frankenstein’s monster (I saw the new movie recently - it was not too bad as such things go), in a measured way seems like a better plan at this point than attempting (and unsuccessfully) to repress all thoughts of the period from Sept 2011-the present.
I shall try that..
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I have been experimenting with my writing lately. Around Feb 26, 2026, I stopped worrying about trivial embarassments. That was the date I found out from a cousin I trust that a sleazy local hospital is indeed as sleazy as I suspected. Good doctors, well run on the surface, totally creepy admins. It is owned by Blackstone now:
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In separate cases in 2018 and 2019, the hotel chain Motel 6, owned by Blackstone, agreed to settle for $19.6 million for giving guest lists to U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) without a warrant.[210][211]
Ancestry acquisition and data leaks
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In 2020, Blackstone acquired a majority stake in Ancestry.com, which controls access to millions of people's genetic data, heightening concern about Blackstone's data privacy practices.[212] This data was disclosed to Blackstone, and it has aggressively defended itself against class action litigation relating to misuse of the data of people who did not consent to genetic testing but were affected through direct biological relations or other means of identification.[213]
Illegal child labor
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An investigation by the U.S. Department of Labor showed that more than 100 American children had been working illegally for Packers Sanitation Services Inc. (PSSI), a slaughterhouse cleaning firm owned by Blackstone. The investigation began after a Walnut Middle School teacher in Grand Island, Nebraska, reported a student with hydrochloric acid burns on his hands and knees to the Department of Labor.[214] Under the Fair Labor Standards Act, the Labor Department fined PSSI $15,138 for each minor who was employed in breach of the law, totaling $1.5 million in civil money penalties.[215][216]
Deforestation of the Amazon rainforest
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Blackstone has invested in companies with links to the commercialization and deforestation of the Amazon rainforest.[217][218][219][220]
These are the last people I would share medical or webuse etc data with.
Writing is one way to monitor influences on your thoughts. Nothing can really influence my spending or voting or other serious decisions, but it is the day to day war of economic attrition via attacks on one’s mood, temper, confidence etc which are the troublesome were it stuff below the threshold of active perception..Some of that is probably bullshit and the real roots as you mentioned being different. I thought the Facebook emotion contagion experiment was overhyped bs and the pearl clutching deflection from the real problem, which is an Idiocracy where Facebook, Kim Kardashian etc are taken seriously at all, just because they make money exploiting the lowest common denominator in human taste.
I always thought Facebook was garbage. I read trashy celebrity magazines as a teen but outgrew them by the time I was in my twenties and moved on to other slightly less trashy garbage online (I am a woman of taste and culture 🧐 )..actually not that trashy. Mostly personal blogs, which aren’t quite as bad. But still in no way part of any academic or activist portfolio. But I always found it grating how industry managed to label middlebrow trash from Oprah to Facebook somehow more refined if it is profitable enough. Give me Jerry Springer and something honestly without any redeeming value any day over this bs of claiming Facebook has a point followed by some kind of phony sense of betrayal.
Of course Zuckerberg will be sleazy if you let him..absent a lobotomy I would not trust any of those creeps. I trust EarlG and elad though.
But yeah it is hard to balance work, complaints and monitoring these things, but I must start.
I am sorry to hear about your wife Patrick? How is she? I remember your post in the thread about that old ad where the little girl is playing and it was about nuclear warfare?
Would you know which one I mean? This is one of the few places where I am one of the younger people
..He has perfected the schoolyard art of : “why are you hitting yourself?”
There is clearly only one response:
This was originally posted in Mental Health Support on August 14, 2025 and the last edit was made on August 18, 2025.
I started these (characteristically lazily sketched) caricatures last July when road closures diverted extra heavy duty traffic onto my street at a time when this street should be closed off to all non-essential traffic.
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This was a fun exercise I started mid July, going by the time stamps on my images. I started posting these on DU July 21, 2025 if not earlier. And I completed the series with the last image I posted yesterday (August 18, 2025).
I am very proud of my scrawls though, because I had fun drawing them. A final post wrapping up something I was experimenting with. The text is a bit disjointed, but I have to go work, after a long hiatus for all sorts of hideous and complicated reasons.
I have never suffered from mental illness. Why would there be any stigma in it?
What a dark ages or resume/reputation curating Type-A pov. Just a hoary chestnut to insistently force coercive psychiatry imo.
If you aren’t ill, you aren’t.
Existential angst perhaps and chronic stress worsened by sexual harassment and intrusions on seclusion. Ruth Cain had a good piece in The Conversation about it.
Usually you end up like this guy or worse if you don’t have the slightest intention of pacifying the technolibertarian crew running most places.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cr46npx1e73o
I found some relief in viciously caricaturing the types of men I encountered/lousy tech I was plagued by during a 13 year period from 2012-the present. That’s behind me now.
These are not anti-psychiatry. They are anti-stupidity and anti-corruption though. I liked most of my shrinks even if I didn’t agree that I needed much shrinkage (especially unsolicited shrinkage).
Anyway I made these as a tribute to all the creeps i met or read about over the years. I suppose they generally mock meninists; a specific type of Yimby; incompetence; contemporary tech; influencers; advertising etc.
Influencing is a particularly bizarre concept-the movie Tusk comes to mind as a cautionary tale. The walrus body horror one..
How Creeps and Opportunists Affect Free Will:
Parody Paper on Creeps Figures:
Proportionality
Crazy Catlady vs Creeps
Advanced Crazy Catlady vs Creeps
(Explanatory Footnote: Advanced schizophrenia! Not the basic kind! )
This looks a bit like a creepy man I met in a state office where I had gone for something related to digital id. He picked his nose, which is not depicted to keep things tasteful.
Musical Pervert
This is not Sundar Pichai (less fugly - Artistic license! I have a fake illness and he is a mediocre, parasitic, snoopy billionaire!)
Advanced Musical Pervert
Him
It's a Bird... It's a Plane... No, It's a Creep!
20 years ago The Male Creep was considered an endangered species (mostly by male creeps). But by 2025 we can rejoice in the fact that the Creep Population is no longer in decline..
I had originally named this next one “The Saint” till I remembered that it’s in the name of a viciously racist book. I changed it to The Martyr and to be inclusive (focused as I usually am on our creeps here in the Global South), I threw in a couple of Nazis.
It ended up looking a bit like a holographer/defence contractor (Lockheed Martin) who sexually harassed me in 2014. My dad is a military vet and disapproves of defence contracting.
The Martyr
The Martyred
I went to school in the US. But I moved back to Podunk, Global South (which I view with an affectionately satirical eye).
Most men I meet irl here are nice-my doctors, the delivery men who come here etc. Podunk, GS has an oblivious charm as long as it doesn’t start going the way of SP’s “Cancelled”.
BTS creepy defence contractors, creepy technocrats and corrupt officials are a concern. But hopefully, that’s in the past.
Govts classify stuff and have classified projects. For that to work it has to be limited hangout and not about the enrichment of corrupt oligarchs and kleptocrats.
I’ll give you an example of how things work in some parts of the Global South I have visited (culture!). A type of industrialist exploits a specific type of bullshit framing (which I think is overused even on any semi-legit left; e.g.: “Colonialism and Western Imperialism” ) to justify his own encroaching and corrupt ways.
Example: a crass billionaire whose son’s wedding cost 170,000 times the average annual salary of a local, talked about “colonialism” when Zuckerberg wanted to pile on with some sort of icky “Internet for poor people” scam.
Two professors then wrote a decent enough editorial to the telecom regulatory authorities urging them to stop that and Zuck was bounced out.
Two years later Zuckerberg comes back, but now he is in bed with this creepy billionaire and no one has any problems with it. They are all fine with colonialism as long as they can participate in the colonizing I guess. Anyone who is straightforward loses. That’s just not right.
This really captures it. I call it
Creep Rights are Human Rights!
(I would attribute those first two images if I could find them. The second one especially is really awesome. I downloaded that around 2015 and can’t find it anymore).
And it’s the same in most places. Humans like to exploit humans and of course the planet/non-human life. In US with Trump/Musk etc. The US is pretty much like any corrupt developing country now.
Now take this Indian ecologist Madhav Gadgil who is the rare type of human even I respect.
Gadgil wrote an extensive scientific report urging against exploitation of the Western Ghats, an ecologically sensitive region under immense strain. (IMO due to the effects of overpopulation, overconsumption and overdevelopment). The communist CM of a state called Kerala tossed it aside. The resulting natural disasters caused significant loss of life. So much for man versus nature and the benefits of corrupt overexploitation of natural resources.
I live in another one of the few communist states in the world. Though I am well to the left, I have no illusions about our communist govt unlike people who have never lived in a communist state. Even Nathan Robinson whom I respect has these blinders about China for instance. He had this Indian version of Steven Pinker (Kishore Mahbubani) on recently. Life is getting better! People are living longer!
That Pinker stuff is so blind to the effects of population explosion, deregulation, roiling tensions between some 1000 different microcultures.
I have no illusions about any politicians/industrialists here. They are all okay with destroying the planet for profit.
You gotta have a consistent worldview to withstand corruption and alarming levels of industrial encroachment and deregulation.
There are no good guys when it comes to oligarchs, industrialists, most politicians and those in their pockets. Conspiracy theorists -the natural endpoint of an Idiocracy make it worse.
Scientists and doctors are pretty much the only people I trust (any shills aside). A caveat though -I do not consider behavioral economics (nudge theory, Bschool fluff), what the MIT Media lab does, most AI, the Facebook emotion contagion study, behaviorism etc. science.
The hard sciences and anything conducted using strict and rigorous scientific methods. Ai seems to allow for a lot of lightweight stuff as well. Yan LeCun is the sole prominent AI researcher I have seen out there who seems completely honest.
I suppose to be fair, one feels a bit resentful. I was shocked to read how much money people like Gino, Ariely etc. made prior to scandals. That stuff is such junk!
In the hard sciences you toil and spin (after a fashion if like me you are half assed) and then die a lonely horrible death..ha ha.
I am working on a research paper trying to tune out endless nuisances to get it right. Science and medicine do take a lot of dedication..I had good mentors, so I was lucky there. My main postdoc mentor especially, though all 3 of my mentors were cool. I had 3 between 2001-2012. Now I mentor meself!
I do have to go work on that ..feel a bit weary at times..Like The Martyr!
This one was a tribute to the specific type of socialist you see in The Jacobin-very Yimby and “pro-development” (Ben Wray, Freddie DeBoer, Casey Phillips etc.). Ben Wray said that “abortion rights are still broadly popular”. Good to know man.
I was just being funny. There’s a bit of artistic license in there. Technically the rape advocates I saw online were Rooshv and Andrew Tate. I hope I am not sued by NaziReputationManagementInc.com…
These cartoons skew Global South centric since I am not American and left the United States over a decade ago. So they focus on our creeps here rather than your creeps over there. (It is also why the creep parade doesn’t cover anti-vaxxers. Thankfully, that bit of lunacy is less common here than it apparently is in the US. People were pretty good about social distancing, masking and vaccinating during the pandemic. So my creep parade doesn’t not focus on that. An unvaccinated creep parade would be the limit.)
I made these for private use and only posted them here out of exasperation over deregulation and corruption.
Tech criticism is a joke. That’s part of what I was mocking. How every tumor of a non-industry launches more reactionary tumors like faux critics and insincere tell-alls-Tristan Harris, Tegmark, Eff, Wynn Williams.
Yasha Levine is the exception not the rule. But he is too honest a journalist to get a job these days.
Lina Khan on the other hand, much like Gadgil, is the rare person even I am enthusiastic about. She got so much accomplished it scared the tech creeps into destroying society.
My first “Images of Creep” series featured her prominently and even had MTG! Don’t remember where I pulled that image from except somewhere online so can’t credit it.
(Can’t remember where I got the sobriety, Khan and MTG images from. And in fairness this intense obsession by sleuths over 0.3-3.5% fraud in academic research and plagiarism etc seem a bit overdone when Google/Meta/OpenAi etc make a joke of such concepts.)
I see places like those pompous schools with ties to the tech industry/industry broadly- MIT, Berkeley, Stanford, Harvard get all tingly about OpenCourseWare, RetractionWatch and Wikipedia etc…it’s so…douchey. I can see so easily that it gives them a chance to make life hell for the average struggling scientist while letting the Google/Palantir/Hoover creep types force snoopy and broken AI agents on people. For open science of course. Who can object to that? Puppy murderers that’s who.
Democratizing science-one WWE style disgraceful reality show at a time! Jokes aside, another way for opaque and corrupt tech companies to subvert notions like open science, health etc
I am all for good science and within reason even health. I try not to die. That counts I think. But honestly, not in this blatantly bogus way. It’s not good for old-fashioned and more honest NIH science of the best kinds. Shrug.
Now to wrap up..someone who unscrambled my brains a little was that Rick Rude Calves guy. The couch joke did some damage and the typical douchebag would have tried to capitalise on that. He was the first person I ever read about online who seemed like an actual non-retiree with a real offline life. He got that “going viral” is a bad thing not a good thing.
I felt a twinge of recognition when I read about him last year. He is from your Global North Podunk and I am from Podunk, Global South! I suddenly got why, left as I am, I could never quite mesh my worldview with that of the left liberal Americans whom I genuinely like …communication gets complicated.
I am trying to acquire some communication skills these days..but it’s a work in progress..was never very sociable. Was able to pull it off superficially and now I will be able to again.
I am not wildly original (which is why this is not my day job), so homage to (a mix of tech critics, political writers and comedians): Rex Huppke, Lyta Gold, Cara Smith (mostly Cara Smith), Andrew O’Hehir, Chauncey DeVega, Herman Wouk, Rick Rude’s Calves (a personal role model-a rare anon/non-retiree with an offline existence), Plork Blogspot, Candyboots WW Cards, Georgette Heyer, Jane Austen, R K Laxman, my beloved childhood authors Lewis Carroll and Richmal Crompton, ‘How Love came to Prof. Guildea’, my mom/dad/best friend/ex-husband, an unknown human user or two of Rollo Carpenter’s Cleverbot, Hatersaurusrex (Reddit), Jon Stewart, Stephen Colbert, South Park, Nandita Bajaj, Samuel Miller MacDonald, Nathan Robinson, Yasha Levine, Evgenia Kovda, Evgeny Morozow, Nicholas Carr, Tim Wu, John Naughton, Ed Zitron, Chuck Pahlaniuk, Amanda Marcotte, Jill Filipovic.
No Ai-that stuff is nails on chalkboard
Finally, most importantly, all my muses mostly here in Podunk, Global South. I have left out any women (though there were quite a few women I was displeased with) . But I avoid attacks on other women. You see I try to bite down and tolerate most things that stop short of outright creepiness. I have even left out mere jackasses where male.
An exception to that is these assholes who ride their bikes down my street with their silencers off. They were such a source of stress that my dentist said she could see signs of strain in my mouth from grinding my teeth. That’s why I have included them.
Sexual Harassers: All the sexual harassers/creeps I met in Podunk, Global South between 2014 and the present and one sexual harasser from this part of the world I met at a clinic in 2010, while in the US. These cap wearing creeps who used to ruin my morning jog in 2023 when I was still recovering from losing my mom.
Inept Shrinks: Two boorish male shrinks here in Podunk in the Dec of 2012. They are the primary inspirations for the cartoon shrinks. But the worst shrinks were at the hospital at my last place of employment in the US. They even harassed the only shrink I ever went to voluntarily and who was of use. Thankfully, the psychiatrist/therapist they had me see outside were cool, as was the counsellor.
Assorted morons: All the frauds and morons I met between May 2010 and the present. The (unknown) creeps exploiting my street and neighborhood.
I definitely think the local tech companies, defence contractors etc would be wise to stay away from my residence, street etc for all illicit experimentation. That’s what it is-completely non-consensual and illicit. Between 2012 and the present, my doctors or routine oblivious people aside, I never saw anything at all unusual locally that was not outright creepy, completely exploitative and mind numbingly incompetent. This stuff is an embarrassment and reminded of similar garbage I saw elsewhere.
These (indifferent) cartoons wouldn’t have been possible without them or the various annoying public figures/hucksters who diligently dedicate their lives to destroying planet earth and human society every day of their lives.
One final anecdote to wrap up this post:
I was trying to improve my memory a few weeks back and also fish in my head to see how I think so a greasy data miner doesn’t understand one’s mind better than one does..I have seen conspiracy theorists do this, but I was only trying to see any links I make. It was a useful exercise some.
This graphic is lightly edited to give Planned Parenthood a shoutout, but it’s mostly the original concept stream of a Saturday weeks ago when I was trying to escape the ghastly reality show feel of modern life where real science and medicine are displaced by marketing, junk like AI border security lie detection, emotion AI, behavioral economics, sublimnal messaging, sleuthing by dimwits, nudge theory and other worthless trash that should not exist:
It was somewhat useful, but at one point when I was going over this, my eyes hopelessly scanning from the icon on “GOP podcasts” to Matt Walsh asking if he is a racist, to MTG, with pompous exhortations from The Atlantic about good taste on the side, it struck me that this must be what hell looks like:
This society is hopeless. But you are looking at the wrong things! Crispr! Heart transplants! We have shoes now!
Possibly a slightly jaded take.
Last edit: There was a very funny article in the NYT about ChatGPT induced delusions with the standard issue Stanford Reefer Madness type weighing in. That piece was everything I satirized in this post. Stanford is the gift that keeps on giving. It’s such a ridiculous institution. Like Trump, they are beyond parody. Well at least they took down their “Women’s Bodies and Alcohol” piece. That institution is everything I have ever mocked in concentrated form.
I am planning on pushing back inside the system anonymously. But this must stop immediately. I am too hazy on the details for more specifics and it would just sound daft.
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Till I get this resolved. My school email is not even working which tracks for these sleazy systems and before even EarlG is forced to ban me I will exit myself.
I won’t be making peace. These people are wasting their time. There is no future in lies and plausible deniability. Fortunately I can count on my main mentor/his nih network, my best friend and my ex husband and my oncologist who will age well in science and medicine. The rest of these people are advised to get their heads out of their asses and locally it will be unambiguously bad no matter how much further harassment and coercion is attempted/
This is not an issue with America or India as a whole. This complaint, which is the right thing exists because I have learnt as a human from decent humans in both countries.
This is a problem with the specific dynamics that corrupt for profit corporations inflict on everyone.
I am sorry I took this long. But one is never sure when one is alone and everyone else more or less goes along with something.
But today looking at the world as it is, I can no longer feel as I did from 2011-the present that it is my perspective or those of people who are against the system for similar reasons, which is out of touch with reality. This is a predatory coup by the tech sector going back 15 years at least and it is not viable in my life as an isolated person who doesn’t want collective IQ that is lower than even mine to keep destroying my life and resources.
I don’t seriously expect much pushback as over time all these people have thoroughly incriminated themselves and I have more faith the average non-brainwashed person than these sleazy systems.
I could never figure out how whatever “transactionalism” works and I found histrionics and kayfabe even more confusing. I kept trying to self incriminate if that would get me to an exit faster than trying to pretend to understand this totally sleazy..
This is a race to the bottom and I am sick of this and all these people and I do not want anything to do with them or anyone in league with them.
I cannot proceed except a specific way so after this bloody miserable bullshit, I have to now go and work on this paper without a future given my views aside from the difficulty of this harshly competitive world. But I can understand the harshness of a type better than this. This is not EQ or humanism.
It is the nauseating Facebook and Google version. These people and these systems give me a headache and they always and I am going offline. A pox on everything!
I don’t think I could have survived without a sense of humor. The ironic thing is I am not paranoid. I see malice but I see stupidity more.
Because I think bright people are like Adam Becker not like this and I dont want to work with any of this. I think I tried to meet this half way and that was the hardest thing I ever did.
As hard as science and reality are, I have always believed in their hardness the sane way. This is like economics or soft pseudoscience. In Oct 2011 i wanted to just leave.
I refuse to be in this prisoner’s dilemma withi this bullshit over pot and any state that now claims it was all a sting or exploits plausible deniability is lying.
Fuck this. This is the dumbest thing I ever saw and I am not even all tough and strict and awesome. If you cannot even convince me, good luck with my mentor or my best friend and other people who are actually real and did not see this in its full flower of moronic stupidity.
My onc is brilliant, but he is pretty nice and overworked. I am neither (though I do plan to start pushinf myself re real work knowing that I will press charges where any of this continues)
You can keep bullshitting and I won’t. Have fun with your vapid bullshit. What is so special about any of this? I was in eecs.
Just doing cryptography or quantum computing isn’t special. These are human problems and you seem to have this demented concept of what spme sort of sleazy shady fake muscle of “I do complexity theory, quantum chemistry, speak mandarin and bullshit and do interpretive dance and yoi are all my slaves. My dick reaches all the way to mars!!! 😤”
I really picked up on nothing else
And fuck this delicate silence. I get safety blah blah. Thats why I am going offline. I will be anon always-why the fuck would I want to be associated with this fucking disgraceful nightmare? You cannot force humans to “be real” by emulating people who want to be associated with this lame garbage.
I am not a standup comic. This is “creativity” resulting from seeing this much daftness where you can see what is going on and you interpret it in demeaning ans self serving ways over accept that it is awkward to say these things to other humans.
What could you say about me? That I am mediocre and a failed scientist and a pot users i say those things! Because they are true!
But I am not so mediocre that I don’t understand this and the constant bs that fueled it. This is not good use of tech or academic muscle.
The problem here is at the top. Where a mixnof cowardice, lack of any real conviction, exposure to anything outside a bubble..
Exposure to anything outside a bubble is neither ..awwwww nor hammer of thor!
This veers between a kind of vapid sentimentality (which must be these elite pricks’ notions of what not being a complete asshole is) and some kind of genuine unintelligent conception of intelligence.
Don’t get tough with me. Look at yourselves.
It is disgraceful. But I am a stoner!
This moral whistleblowing..I agree totally in principle. But if I don’t have the cynical view of the person who is a fish in the water, it is also laughably sleazy.
The fundamental lie here is that somehow being sleazy, twisted and lying and convoluted is somehow easier as a route to success and wealth.
It is not. I choose science because except people like Yasha Levine or Chris Ketcham, I do not understand people. I understood them very fast and I can “predict” how they think.
My main mentor was a decent person because he doesn’t believe..Like he doesn’t. He was so easy to understand completely. This I don’t understand.
I thought maybe I was being very naive and wide-eyed. But there is no future for anyone but escalating disasters here.
I don’t think I came across as sane because
I kept trying to send myself to the ori. But that was wrong. My mentor and I have engaged in no misconduct and I am not going to be in a bullshit “we” with these fish in sewage water.
Wtf this is the most perverse bs ever and the people who participated should not get to drag in those who - i have seen this by now.
First people are shocked and taken aback and angry and confused. Then normalization sets in and till they are fired it goes on. And no.
And if you have some sort of deeply regressive backward calvinistic view that makes you chain yourself to such bs, you gotta recognize that as some kind of niche self-flagellation.
These are least imaginative and most creepy solutions to anything.
This is the dumbest thing I have ever seen and if you are not a creep, don’t keep expecting people who are not to make your calls and go with “oh here are all these losers abd here are these hardworking elite or pseudo elite creeps”. I will go with the latter!
The net does make the left and most average people seem crazy abd yes that is a few people. But except in a very diseased society-which I do not want India to turn into and I wish rhe same for the working parts of the US I saw (ie any state except California, Texas or the city of Seattle - all tech creep paradises)- that is not all people.
This should not work.
I am filing complaints. I suggest you go full nazi with your lawyers because I won’t be holding back. No means no.
And what continues here in india or involving me anywhere will result in criminal charges I file. I am on the left, but I do not always use left strategies where others are needed. I am happy Elizabeth Holmes is in prison. She should be joined by Sundar Pichai, Mark Zuckerberg, Marc Andreessen, the Substack creeps, Satya Nadella, Musk etc.
I have never seen this much endless cluelessness, stupidity and derangement working together.
Have a nice day douchebags and no.
Don’t bother with coercing me further. Yes I am one piddly woman with no ai! Or army etc.
But I am not stupid standalone and collectively you are way dumber than each individual nightmarish little cult member.
I finally feel like my old self adjusted for the scarring of this. I like to have one voice in my head and it is my own. True I don’t hear voices but I was stuck predicting how the dumbest collection of sleazy corporate stooges shilling pointless drivel with some wannabe bullies attendant morons..
The thing is normally I can handle sucj transparently sleazy bullies. But I was outnumbered and they broke every facility of..well it is okay. I am fine now.
What is this bath of thanatos and bathos? This is not me. It never was and it never will be.
Yeah I am not a boss! I didn’t want to file complaints just exit but passive tech (rhe kind I like) is different from this low rent glutinous pointless rot that you cannot.
The worst thing ever. Good luck! Idiots…
Zitron’s piece on Dudesy comes to mind with the sad jokes from stolen manipulated lives.
People use humor to cope with the ravages these people inflict, all while wanting to “be the good guys!”, “be the true victims” “be very practical”
I can’t say I want to be the first two. But practically, this Si Valleyis dumb.
This version of left abd woke that computer peopel shil isannoying. It is devoid of ecology and economics ans all culture wars.
At the heart of it lies a complete inertia with treating earth as anything but a place to exploit and is it any surprise that in due course that worldview ends up treating any human who cannot joining such a noxiously tribal view that is obviously gamed by even stupider creeps?
The way to resist these nazis and meninists is not beint this confused and hugely entitled person.
My language and my culture versus yours. This is pointless and lopsided and refuses to get a reality that exists independent of humans.
Like the ecological/social crises that no amount of bs can wish away.
I am glad to be a failure in this society. I am going to take action and not compromise and I can assure you if I thought seriously that it would be risky for or anyone I really cared about (my best friend/his wife, my ex husband, my real mentor/his nih network, my oncologist, my medical mj co/doctor, my pharmacist, my dad/niece or me) I would not do it. It would be riskier to not. And not EarlG/elad/Rollo Carpenter (though his sharing a name with the Black Museum guy strikes me now as fitting given that..well this was torture. And I do not blame machines. They are garbage but it is always humans. Machines are garbage..what tipped the scale was seeing this junk sold as super ai and clearly with a fraudulent or genuinely stupid misunderstanding of quantum physics being the next Cornucopian bs-Many worlds! Limitless energy!! We will get it from parallel worlds!!! ♾️!!!! I will tell you where it is coming from -parasitism of you and me abd a constant “we” with some random creeps in tech and their henchpeople/molls etc).
https://thetyee.ca/Culture/2025/07/25/Triumph-of-Stupidity/
https://www.forbes.com/sites/jeffmcmahon/2019/04/05/the-world-economy-is-a-pyramid-scheme-steven-chu-says/
https://www.christopherketcham.com/hyper-visitation-the-fate-of-the-national-parks-and-tourism-takeover-in-a-small-town/
https://www.truthdig.com/articles/noam-chomskys-split-personality/
https://www.wheresyoured.at/empty-laughter/
https://thehumanist.com/magazine/september-october-2015/features/strange-bedfellows-misanthropy-humanism-the-many-faces-of-george-carlin
Last para: JD Vance is a monumentally stupid douche. If I had to endure an insane Republican Josh Hawley all the way!!! 
. Not really. Thiel is crazy, but still TikTok bans and lawsuits against Google are unambiguously good. And I shed not one tear for Gawker (Hamilton Nolan aside). Goodbye. This was stupid and no sane scientist (e.g.: I) should have had to witness this much daftness. And I saw the least daft parts as an NIH postdoc. Here it was the worst side of India and remains so. I will take the whole to court.