Unfortunately More Writing

[jfz9580m]

I should be working on a paper right now. Nothing I ever do outside my narrow field of hard science will ever lead to an income and it invariably feels icky.

I have mixed feelings about writing as you reveal a lot about yourself when you write and that is not who I am.

But society is increasingly making life so detestably difficult that I cannot check out entirely.

I rarely feel represented by people I see out there because even when I find them relatable, they are out there.

There is nothing I hate as much as crowds. I always hated socializing. Not because people are cruel or mean, but because I find it draining.
It is not a 100%. I am mercurial enough that sometimes in safe places where no one is paying attention to one, you get interested in innocuous people.

I suspect I am a misanthrope a lot and it is nice to sometimes find counter examples. That was something about my postdoctoral lab I remember.

I remember thinking with some surprise “Hey I actually like these people. It isn’t a punishment to be around them.”

And it was a science lab and very focused on science so it was really about science. But they made science fun.

There is something wrong with even rigorous and decent academic science since most of my favorite coworkers left science finding it simply too demanding in ott ways. This was publicly funded civilian science.

And looking at society today I fail to see how having nothing exist but Google, Facebook, Microsoft and a bunch of spooky, creepy Alex Pentlands, Ben Wabers, Aaron Elkinses, Kosinskis, Rosalind Picards, V. S. Ramachandrans, Rana Al Khaloubis has been good for society broadly.

It clearly leads to a maniacally stupid worldview regarding how science, intelligence and humans work and think.

I am filing serious complaints about everything I saw where I live and about my last workplace, which was in every way hostile to the average honest employee.

If you are a fish in water at that place you are a creep (male) or a sleazebag (female). That’s sexist! I have assigned traditional gender roles! Women can be creeps too! Seriously fuck off.. The Ghislaine Maxwells that work in those people’s circles are actually really rare and they would know it if any decent woman actually would be anything but an abductee labelled insane. I tried to leave in a month in alarm. I will rewrite it all.

Men can be sleazebags too! That is kind of implicit in creep. I am a sociologist now!!!

This is unviable though. And I am going to the police about what I have seen locally. I am of Indian origin (nominally Hindu, but really just blah. My grandparents tried to instill some culture in me many a moons back and then gave up finding it simply too uphill).

I live in an undisclosed location in the global south - a shitty, communist run state. It is a cool place mostly but the specific shit I am dealing with is unambigously creepy and corrupt and cannot be normalized in a place where gangrapes, acid attacks, routine sexual harassment are common. These are dishonest, archaic, ugly and creepy ideas and worldviews.

I would like to remain obscure and anonymous as I can. I am dealing with a “Straw Dogs” situation since I am not very entitled and I know was an outlier in the extent to which I find other humans unrelatable.

For all that, some things I am a stickler about - such as what you owe to other humans - would be universal if people (except creeps, sleazebags, grifters, polluters, billionaires etc.) understood. My preferred mode of communication is plain text. So I have to convey what can be conveyed without continuous media which I eschew.


I apologize for talking about myself so much, but it is unavoidable, not narcissism. When a human has a lens on society and is trying to communicate something vague enough as it lies in these gray areas of what is meum v tuum, who they are becomes important if they want to get traction wrt a minimally decent social contract for the type of people who increasingly seem to be sidelined by a type of left and the right, because we don’t have large communities nor socialise. These are ridiculous expectations that except billionaires with bunkers - that people should just endure having disgusting technologies forced on them or be intimidated by the kinds of vile large crowds of unknown and unwanted humans swarm their streets coercing them with displays of assholery not anything else. I am filing criminal harassment charges locally.

I am beyond disgusted by what I have seen.
Btw I have never studied Latin, but I picked that up from Richmal Crompton’s “William” books.

I have rarely communicated willingly I can now see. But then people make decisions for you and I don’t want the isolated, solitary civilized woman to go the way of the Dodo. Oddly that would not serve even most men. Not even conservative ones. Unless you want an endless inquisition for every innocuous triviality or to have some “activists” etc forced on you rather than have the state do its goddamn duty by the average human.

One of my favorite writers/journalists is Yasha Levine. I love the guy. I don’t know him, but he rescued my humanity at a time when I was embittered. Yasha is who I consider elite, not some professor in some shitty Stanford or MIT humanities dept who makes everything unrelatable to anyone outside some sort of cult. The constant policing of language, jokes and censorship that liability obsessed cultures shill as “safe” is bullshit. Now with constant bs about ai used to enforce it. If your shitty agents and llms scrape the web, that is on you not on people who have to now conform.
This isn’t that “free speech” shit in its most bullshitty form. This is common sense.


All that other crap did help the modern right. Lucien Greaves gets it. It cannot be wished away however much people who like that stuff want to. Because it shows a genuine lack of connection with anyone outside a goddamn cult. I will be expanding on some of these themes because it affected me directly and this warped perception of reality the net leads to is damaging to everyone.
Left or feminist (a misunderstood and maligned word associated with a type of internet left I avoid ffs) doesn’t mean perpetually offended and obnoxious. At its core all it means is that don’t treat women as second class citizens. Which is what this was and is about. I never policed anyone. But now I am going to the police about all the people local to me in this shitty communist state in the global south where misogynists and creeps have swarmed my street.

Excessive use of jargon in the humanities misses the point.
You cannot avoid it in the hard sciences. In fact I have the opposite issue with the hard sciences where a form of communication I detest is “communicating with the lay person” that seems to assume the lay person is a daft child. “Think of a cupcake. What are the physics of a cupcake?” No I won’t think of a cupcake damn you. Get to the bloody point.

You have to have more faith in the intelligence of your fellow humans or it is a self-fulfilling prophecy - the Idiocracy. It is true that in this society people are afraid to display intelligence as anything could set off some nutjob on the net and the right gets that and games it.

I am not conservative so I don’t really pay attention to the right beyond - yeah that looks crazy.

But society should not be a vapid monoculture of only one type of person. I don’t have a problem with conservatives. I just wish they would be less crazy sometimes.

Way back in the day, DU had an “Ask Auntie Pinko” column and in the FAQ, one of the questions was along the lines of do you hate conservatives or something like that.

And the answer was very reasonable. It was along the lines that differences of opinion will exist, but the current GOP is too crazy. Which is true.
My dad is kinda conservative. But he is also pretty feminist without knowing it. He is shocked at the thought of any maltreatment of women. Yeah his language and jokes etc would get him ..I am glad he doesn’t use social media.
But he is a decent man in every way and the material parts of being decent to other people he has always done.

It is from him that left as I am, I get my penchant for swearing like a sailor. I don’t do it in front of him and he usually catches himself if he is too foul-mouthed around me.

I am careful in my position as I am not American. I will never be American, though I have friendly feelings towards a more traditional and classical type of Americanism that was common prior to Facebook and Google where the average person had this unassailable expectation of democracy (which was also the norm in India where I grew up).

The type of left I find most counter productive chimes in usually there with “But you were privileged!” That’s fucking stupid. Reducing everyone to the shittiest circumstances is not the path to equality. It savors more of envy and of misery loving company.
I could not have said these things without the “permission” I got from Yasha Levine to say things this idiotic society considers controversial. Because it is not saying controversial things or swearing that define something. It is the person as a whole.

Sometimes the “privileged” are friends of the worse off.

I see so much parroting of truisms left or right.
It is not surprising to me that in this environment a poisonous right that blends political incorrectness with deeply malicious worldviews prevails against a left that keeps reaching for the Dictionary of Language that Will Not Offend the Dumbest and Most Disingenuous Dickheads on the Net.
If it is about hurting feelings, what hurts people’s feelings is mostly being treated contemptuously or like a child.

Sure politicians, celebrities, public figures - that is a different class of human. Who knows what those people are like. They are not you or I.

This is a political forum and I wouldn’t post except in a left forum, but it is mainly Dave. He is the reason I post here because I trust Dave (and elad) at a time when I don’t trust a lot. And it makes me uneasy sometimes as I trust Dave because he is one of us and even those of us who are surviving are embattled. It is kind of DU to have me around.
But by now I have become socialized to think that unless it is polite nothings or kayfabe, unpopular people who are unscripted are a drain on society. That cannot possibly be right.

I don’t understand this tendency to have a fully formed stale prediction about the future and at increasingly insane times.
That was a gift from my creepy former workplace and the types of people and things since.
I am fortunately not financially embattled, but if I don’t have any mental issues and never did, the constant strain of the life I was forced to lead and continue to lead has strained me to the hilt.

But this shocking, invasive and encroaching way of life that for-profit, industrial corporations (one of Prof David Golumbia’s pieces of writing reminded me that the word corporations can apply to other entities) have forced in without any real counter from the state in the U.S., India or where I currently reside (which is undisclosed - I am going to the police and the courts because this is not an open world game or the internet - my street or home. And I don’t want a bogus sop. The people who agree to turn our homes and streets into slums do not exclusively represent all of society. This is a tipping point and I won’t be forced anymore).

I am not suing for money. But this is unviable and I am taking it to court. I am young enough, healthy enough that at least wrt my home and street in India I can expect to win. Because if I don’t that would be dire. This should never have happened.

It was grooming to get socialized to accept a creepy Panopticon and it is shameful that with all the stories of sexual harassment out there, a woman cannot make a simple point about how creepy it is that all sorts of unknown men have access who claim it is all bots and not human creeps and invasive unwanted tech, without so called educated people calling her paranoid and testing her etc. And the solution is not more heavy surveillance, but never anything I could consider honest oversight.
Most of this will have to be trashed and taken to the police and courts.
They overtly ban the “two-finger test” for rape. But find this backdoor route to assailing female complainants and invalidating simple points.

I don’t hate men. I don’t file false allegations. But I reserve the right to be creeped out and not have a blatantly regressive culture of creepiness forced by people who are not even exclusively conservative.
Locally it is some unknown creeps, some of whom are certainly communists (given the geographic location) and the others who knows what.

These people were “libs” and some kind of ..whatever Google considers an an academic. With some hardcore (!!!!) brainless industrial corporatist assholes rounding out the creep and spook faction for balance I guess. Yeah that sounds representative of society as a whole once you throw in influencers, gamers, celebrities etc.

Totally fucking stupid and out of touch ways of being sleazy. If your goal is to be some kind of creepy sleazebag (which was what I mostly picked up on and it can’t be the eye of the beholder because I didn’t see that prior to 2011. I was obliviously happy the difficulties of science aside).
This is and was creepy and I am going to the police. I am a marijuana user and DIY my mental health with modafinil because the services where I live are not particularly good.

I will now in this rewrite much that I deleted. But carefully enough that I specifically cannot be found by anyone who doesn’t have expertise or access in legitimate ways.
So far this looks creepy and shady and I will need to see who was involved to make the call regarding who to file stalking and harassment allegations against locally versus the people working in a shitty environment.

I have to do the shitty, unpaid legwork of compensating for the laziest assholes ever.

I will have to work out what details to share that make one largely unidentifiable except to trusted colleagues or doctors or officials who are responsible, but not the crowd I am filing complaints against. Locally I would be shocked if it was not entirely creepy and it was the same at my last workplace in the U.S. with a few exceptions. I hated that place - a creepy grooming cult plus corporatist assholes. The latter were better. Choices!!!
No decent woman would work there. I am sure the few decent women who have hated it (I saw one girl in this corporatist prick’s lab which had this other male scientist who I knew for two weeks, who seemed like an honest scientist and not some sort of cult member. Or tortured Calvinism fan. Abductee etc. A shithole to end all shitholes. I was a huge fan. The corporatist asshole was the better choice! He wasn’t a creep. Merely an asshole. That is how low I have fallen. That as long as it is an asshole that’s still better! But that was a one-off. Most of these guys are assholes and creeps. No decent man would work in this without serious misgivings about the implicit maltreatment of women. It is not a mental illness to be creeped out by this archaic and corrupt trash. ).

I won’t put these up on my journal anymore. It is not that most people locally are not decent, but this crowd that swarmed that street is a crowd of creepy harassers and the whole thing has to be stopped and a police complaint filed.
Again you have to be backward, regressive and beyond corrupt and creepy to try to normalize these methods in a place with very serious violence against women. Someone like Deepak Chopra or V.S.Ramachandran or that creep with a holography firm who sexually harassed me in 2014 would be balanced out by callous jerks who consider the whole thing a joke.

I will continue to swear, joke and lead a normal life as a woman who has never been a sleazy girlboss or someone who is so insecure they veil themselves and are neurotic or a tradwife afraid of men and the outside. But that works when you also have the sense and sanity to report actual creeps and pushback hard against systems truly laying waste to women’s rights.
That’s the distinction between being a girlboss who normalizes creepy male behavior vs a woman who doesn’t need the world childproofed but won’t be forced. It is the crowds that really mess with my head as someone who feels like an outlier in this barbaric society as is. I am going to the police and not accepting that each new creepy wave of normalizing a further descent into madness is okay.

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1. Had a slight injury in 2011-2012

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I had a stupid job (Sept 5, 2011 - April 18, 2012) that broke my brain.

I am pretty introverted.

Not socially awkward nor oblivious though.

It is outright counter-intuitive to post on social media that you are introverted.

If you post on social media how are you an introvert? But it gets complicated.

If you are silent, what if some people like these think you are a silent supporter of the community of creeps which is ruining science for everyone:
https://www.nature.com/articles/d41586-026-00388-0

I got scrambled in the Fall of 2011. Had I had my wits about me I would have communicated more succinctly.

When I was knocked out (I suppose that is the best way to put it), my brain would associate a concept like “a game theoretic approach” with other obscure concepts such as “something the creeps do” and “something the annoying people would respond to in a way calculated to assist the creeps”.

Adding explanatory comments to signal when, where, with whom and in what types of contexts one applies gane theory seriously in ways that are not a waste of your time and mine.

Hey calm down! I am on whatever team is a fan of EarlG, Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham and Ed Zitron. Sometimes the home team can seem like one with which it would take a while to establish communication. It is not my fault!
Look at this (did I need to add this to my own previous worries about these methods)?

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/2023/05/can-the-love-of-menswear-be-justified-in-a-time-of-global-crisis

I really hope Sam has a sense of humor. I really appreciate his work. Or I would not cite it.
I picked that as a joke example of “purity” because it is not that serious. I am not kidding around here. At the same time I don’t think life has to be torture.
I would be most comfortable with a lot of the lefter worldviews if - or that was why I was behaving weirdly. I do care what scientists, lefties and feminists who are entire people so I can go “okay this whole person whom I do not know is still acceptable.”

You have to be careful and clear concisely but I was out of it after that. That was totally a dick move! Wtf! Why would anyone do that?
g is not constrained by..God those guys are really no fun. I cannot believe this much collateral damage was planned nor casually inflicted.
This Is why everyone hates Type As from Stanford. You cannot unilaterally devalue or reassign value to someone else’s assets and force these ridiculous scripts.
I mean you can. But you are going to lose.

That is handing me a handicap but at a penalty that makes it usable but at the same time shows why for game theory to work some baseline shared understanding of reality that is not clearly tilted towards people across the board who devalue both the planet and other humans.

I had been trying to communicate that though I am not a gamer or far worse an influencer (a person who is an attention seeker is the worst “ally”. Otoh being overly crytic is a recipe for ending up in teams I don’t want to be in. The left I like is edgy the way I like it. And if you are nonwhite and or female and in America, my strategy going forward is to be clear. Saves everyone time.

I gave white males as examples because that is who I associate gaming with. And I have never found gaming interesting and continue to not.

Game theory on the other hand is different.

In the American context, I tend to default to seeing a larger percentage of women and non-white men as likelier to choose “go to Human Resources with a complaint” as an option for access to things like “a livelihood that is not a bullshit job.”

Absent that clear comments can convey information as I would choose to. I can communicate fast once I recover, which I am finally en route to.

Come on, I am not..anti-men or something. I like this person - I never played D and D, but this sounds more like something I would be up flr


Than these people trying to be edgy or whatever this lame crap is:


You have to be clear on what “games” you are playing. Not chuckling at jokes like some old creeps at Harvard etc finding a trafficker of children and women being associated with program whose acronym is PED.

Otoh my fellow travellers on the left who are feminist, broadly anti-war or egalitarian in ways that I can comprehend quickly (it is why I provide lists of diverse humans who are people one would not file complaints against such as Bishop Marian Budde or Jeffrey Dale of


Finally if you are in the news as a feminist, lefty etc, I would post so mutual selection becomes easier.

I am not slow! That was totally a dirty trick and I was not sure I could reach the hometeam fast.

Which includes unlikely people if you are averse to thinking. I like Herman Wouk and Prof Hennessy! And my dad! He is my default for decent conservative male.

He could totally grasp this situation now. I like Jack Schafer (in all probability), Chuck Palahniuk, Nicholas Carr!
And in CS Prof Ryan Williams, Prof Lecun and Prof Hennessy (the latter two are less a choice than slim pickings. I am saving people time here.)


Let be draft something more succinct. That was. I like Evgenia Kovda, Marina Bolotnikova, Briahna Joy Gray, Nandita Bajaj, Lyta Gold (minus Vox. Sorry..my communication skills were off).
And Emily Bender and Timnit Gebru are decent (minus Fei Fei Li and Joy Buolamwini) and I like Sunny in Philadelphia and Sarah Silverman.

Was horrified back in 2012 re: the impossibility of fast communication. I have to go delete some rude posts where no meaningful information went through.

I dislike: Brian Keegan, Martin Nowak, Yasmin Nair, Musa Al Gharbi, Lyman Stone, Stephen Pinker, Yasha Mounck, the IDW in general, Tristan Harris (I have rights! These people may all be very nice etc. But they give me a pain in the keester).

At least now I finally get what I was trying to do with these lists of people and articles.


I hate influencers and gamers as such.
I will draft it better now and the past stuff will all be usable in the context of a serious application of presumably game theory.


I was trying to find an overarching framework that has no - whatever people mean when they say “cringe” without wasting everyone’s time on a pointless exercise filled with large crowds.

And if you need tonnes of security and cryptography that defeats the purpose.
Phew .thank goodness I am back to normal.


That was totally unfair! I could have gotten here way sooner. Let’s see who the suckers are now.
This is the dumbest con I ever saw!

Why would you think all those things are useless imaginary vestiges? Things like empathy. This is the dumbest thing I ever saw.
This is child’s play.

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2. Rate of Change

Probably petty vanities or idiosyncrasies on display recursively. But I think those exist to optimise one’s survival.

You see that sounds so much like those nails on chalkboard guys, if such exist. Hey, stop!

I am not bothering any nails on chalkboard guys in any way. It is just mutually better to avoid each other - The Cleaning Station analogy if you accept a streamlined Rule List for these waters.

And yes I think it is an evolutionary advantage for you and for me when you are not people I use in my output as examples of people to avoid.
You cannot have seriously expected there to emerge no left, feminist pushback that was not bound for survival in the long run and Green is even more confounding as - no one is any good there and ..

That is why my last mentor sabotaged me. Not deliberately. But he is team Brian Keegan and Julian Simon (what as asshole he is) rather than team Paul Ehrlich. I am a staunch Ehrlich supporter.


And we Greens can be pretty efficient where you don’t buy lame shit like “ecofascism” or let randos exclusively define what Left Feminist or anything mean.
And the same applies in Science.


Wtf. That was a dick move. That was total sabotage.

Yeesh. I look like a total idiot. I am not slow. I had not explicitly-

That better pay off! Or its really bad. Sorry.
This was too expensive for me and to date has not had one damn point!

Yes there is real science here, but I didn’t mean to do this and it is lame and tacky to miss the point and destroy stuffof value for this lame shit.

But when you do you cannot then expect to keep exploiting that and stereotype - I do it too. But that is when you habe superficial knowledge of how say a specific human female works.

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3. Some old drafts (well yesterday)

Wrote all that yesterday. Probably has a inverse sabotage purpose built in.
I remember this time of each month when I get my medical marijuana presc refilled.
My brain is returning to its defaults in leaps and bounds now.

But now I am knee deep in conflicts and complaints whose lines I will spell out more efficiently.
There is proabably some info in there.
I should force myself to read it and set a formal strategy direction wise.
There are dull but essential communications to make it easier to proceed accepting the existence of ..you know..people.

Hey I am a lover not a fighter! I am not a foul web comic. Just trying to defuse tension since I am filing complaints but they don’t apply to anyone but some specifuc people and if you pick sides at least please let it be for the more accurate reasons than potentially blatantly use arguments I would never use or try to “exploit” things in ways thaf waste your time and mine.

You know what I mean.
I agreed with Josh Hawley that a TikTok ban is a good idea! I did not shed one tear for Gawker!
I don’t like any celebrities! Neither Hulk Hogan nor Taylor Swift! Yes I think it would be funny if it ended up with Swifties doxxing me not Meninists!

Lol..
I am not clunky! Prof Hennessy is! I am separating out worlds and frowning over a bunch of links
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I am drafting a last series of posts and going offline. I am unhappy when I socialize even online.

I barely started working and already feel better. Barely. But still.

I wanted to turn in a final set of recriminations, vague legal threats and defensive remarks (and a not inconsiderable amount of humanist support and genuine apologies where the first land on people who are not Priscilla Chan, Clare Wu, Brian Keegan and other such people).

The things I say are not meant to be taken literally by anyone except the few public figures I have bashed. I would never be mean or inconsiderate where people truly tried to help with no real agenda..none of us are that self aware. Someone honest that is. And then since everything is finite, blame and credit allotment fairly is a factor etc. I am idiosyncratic but fair.


I saw a picture of this cat a few years ago. It had fallen inside a well and needed to be fished out by many genuinely nice people.

I can relate to it I suppose. People are often nice. But without getting cynical the web is mess - it is not even scams. It is not just ai. It is also influencers. A few may be decent, but in no way is influencing community. It is like politicians.
And some sort of Stepford community versus Barbarian. I keep imagining a model of a world imagined by the douches who have landed us in this world, factoring in my early brush with the type.

I keep looking for real life adjusted for new annoyances to not disrupt while being pretty unfriendly wrt the rest. Like minded people in different contexts get it, but it is ..it really makes you appreciate your own human brain.

Lately I have been figuring out how to avoid Ubik.


You just cannot aim things right anymore. If you want to help someone, a creep may think you are gullible. If I want to thank some little old lady who is the sort of person who is usually most sympathetic to me, then a whole slew of creeps looking for “Fenn’s Treasure” show up. I generally get along better with older people, but not an Epstein for 40 yos..see..it is impossible.

I meant people like my parents’ friends. People around whom it is not somehow creepy or childish. But you know normal life with no agenda. South Park’s “Cancelled” got it.
Why would you throw away something of far more value for a loathesome counterfeit.
That isn’t anti technology or anti web.

It is that each thing has its own context.

I am not gullible but like DU’s own duppers, usually a type of older woman is sympathetic.
I hate it when people become cynical because of the tech creeps.

Losing my mom-in-law was the hardest part of my divorce. I get along far better with moms than their sons.

This extended period trying to guess the thought process of some male-driven system that has thus far successfully gamed the left and feminists in every material sense was the most grueling thing I ever did.

You default to trying to seem stupid and non-threatening, but not to the extent that you are seen as an easy target for groping while at the same time being careful to not have a meninist start squawking about “false allegations!!!!”

Yeah that was fun. And I seriously don’t want to clapback etc. That is not really my style. I keep doing male outreach to the extent that reality gets a lot scarier when men go politically insane.
It is not that I don’t get it. I feel disenfranchised a lot as well. Most people do with these many damn people whose lives and movements are clearly configured so as to optmize

It is a nightmarish social equation to try to weight assessing safety (i.e. heading off needless conflicts while stemming needless extensive conversations and bad punchlines), being genuinely grateful ot humble as needed.

The law of the jungle stuff with the outright creeps/sleazebags is so much easier.

This is all math humans carry around inside our heads. It is just not typically explicitly available.

Today I thought of this article in Quanta as very useful to keep in mind
So yeah the web is for people who know what they are doing.


I just hate that something like a very innocuous dynamic is not monetized snd filmed and charmless.

It loses its meaning on camera with a TikTok channel and influencers etc. These tech companies ruin everything. They are disgusting.

I am degrowing this tumor but on my way out offering my support to EarlG and DU and the subset of people I consider acceptable adjusted for context.

I feel for this cat.
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This has to be a survival advantage on some time and information scale to hage never bought much into the world which is where it is at today

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4. I have g!

I like this person:

https://www.theguardian.com/games/2022/dec/13/first-time-as-a-d-and-d-dungeon-master-dungeons-and-dragons

That looks useful. Dungeons and Dragons.



Yeah this was all really stupid. It is always going to be difficult to get material action.
But they mucked up my model of the world and my default mode network is just coming back, but it has changed.
I want to minimize needless human interaction and unwanted tech, but where the scientific use of this lies is very tied to Yasha Levine. I take him as seriously as I take scientists I take seriously, because he isn’t Lina Khan but still serious. You know what I mean.
I love Yasha. He reminds me a lot of the first grad student I met in my postdoc lab whom we (the rest of the lab) all loved. He was also a stably married man. My pi as well. I am used to getting into elevators with a specific type of male (a post by TexasTowelie). But it is really boring, but well..I assume as a default that there is never any unsaid sociopolitical or sexual tension. But also not let these guys mock one ponderously in what a blatantly asymmetrical “conflict”, where one coexists wo complaints, but some people hog (you know who you are! Don’t attack the messenger!
And after 15 damn years that lead here, wtf do you mean I should shut up about it (presumably!)

You turned my existence literally into a punchline - at least I can’t let you think I would not use this advantage as a non-joke human female scientist would!
Wow!
That is fascinating..hey these guys gave me a hellish life that ended with the death of my mom and that is usable!
No..i was just very close to my mom and I do not accept Idiocratic forward movement.

But the things that are inaccurately assumed to not exist non superficially totally exist!
I was distrait.

George Orwell was brilliant. I don’t think everyone who is well regarded is necessarily..I mean look at Knaasgaard

Why can he write that and get shutdown

You gotta stop “competing” with me inadvertently from all over the left
I don’t want attention or power etc

But things have to make sense. You are all crazy ..on the left. Why are we here else?
I may exist at a tail but i do exist in a non-joke form.
And I totally get along with lots of people

But you can’t process me as anything but a scientist-okay fine!
Yes i am being lazy and cheating!
I didn’t want to do any of this in the first place!

An open world game system is unimaginative framing. I don’t have a framework yet.
But I want to “win”

Why would I stereotype anyone inaccurately and uselessly? That’s you guys.
You may have noticed a certain coldness in my posts towards Mayor Mamdani for a lefty, but thay is only because I consider Mira Nair the type of Indian person, unlike say Hemant Kappana, Priya Ramani or Tejas Thackeray, the type of person to avoid.



I can’t fumble the “diversity” component so I am considering cooperative strategies as a non-moron would.
How are you not seeing why Jamie Dimon would subconsciously if not consciously want to thwart BLM.

You guys seem to keep falling for shit imo that in long run hobble BLM, MeToo, anti war etc. I am on the same team!
Don’t expect me to throw away a real advantage that comes from not hating.
Put more thought into things!
Sorry 🤭.
We could totally use this on the left.


Current Affairs is awesome. Can’t stand the Jacobin.
And EarlG and DU are awesome.

Cross section of politics -centre left to left that I fall in.

And as far as the larger world goes, I totally liked Josh Hawley’s TikTok ban and Google lawsuit. I feel that totally counts as bipartisan.
The other “syncretic” mix in town : Richard Branson, Steve Bannon, Ralph Nader and Susan Rice.


I do want to get traction like Lina Khan, not the Unabomber. He had the worst strategies.
And goals! And goals!
See..sabotage!

I will draft something I would label “what Prof Hennessy apparently needs explained”
A lot of people would sue that guy!

Ellen Pao sued Kleiner Perkins. But she did go and work there.
Set aside other stuff. Stuff that fails cannot help women.

The goal is to, as Prof Hennessy would put it “win”.
Survive is better.

I have to come with a new word myself for what I would define as: “Not be as painful as Prof Hennessy’s default managerial strategy.”



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A long KISS (keep it simple stupid) Goodbye Part 3

The problem is that while I am very introverted, I am from India - a very overpopulated country. I am socialized to hide it some.
Not to some douchebag. But to not be snooty or a jerk in contexts that are not insane.


This happened at my old workplace where my troubles started because I ended up staying with a sort of more conservative, larger family that was Christian. I thought they were really nice at first and they are.
But they are very different. When I say earth is overpopulated, I don’t mean it like a brainless churl.

In fact across the
Uriah Heep

But I am middleclass and sort of average and most conservatives are not reflexively suspicious and I default to my knowledge of my dad and at arm’s length it is fine. I know all my dad’s triggers and when we have to work together I know the limits and where one can manage and lead a not cat and dog life.
Where it starts fraying is where I feel a lot of comservatives weight things a bit differently.

It is the whole King Lear thing, where in serious things, superficial pleasantry is seen as more important than honesty.

And a tendency to be pennywise but pound foolish. Like a lot of policing of triviality and then giving the keys to some douchey billionaires.


But then I do find a lot of similar fallacies on some of what passes for the left. Generational loyalties. Being bound by when you were born seems like the most arbitrary grouping ever, unless you factor in how education is deteriorating.

But assholes and creeps, those are things I am sensitive to. There is being edgy like many people like and being bullying jerk with a mob in tow.

I am okay with police like Brian Driscoll or local police. Whether this Facebook/Google or something else, I am filing complaints against the humans and the tech.

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How could you couple me to something like a gaming or any product or specific narrow thing rather than undefined potential for not making all of our realities less shit where one exists with “first do no harm” as the foundational principle.
Why would I do what I would consider overt damage to the image of what I actually am irl when I don’t exist except irl.

But like you should not sabotage people. I support TikTok Bans!
I am all those things lefty feminist -a visitor not an immigrant. That unfortunately specific to my context, which is atypical in the extreme, has connotations of powerlessness which is just giving Prof Hennessy a way to help CS and economics at the expense of the public sector.


https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/let-their-words-do-the-talking/201712/looped-linear-thinking

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5. I am sorry I was so long-winded!

You see if - I don’t know how to convey my inner personality - the purpose of which information is to do various things without throwing away cheap and easy survival gambits in favor of the brainless stuff that resulted in the reality we are in in 2026.

I have a very unclear picture (left or right; male or female; white or nonwhite; religious or non religious) what your individual and collective intelligence is in this society where you are not a player but an actor I suppose.

Whatever nominal caricatures I fit, it isn’t just external rot or this foul experience. It broke me that badly because I didn’t 15 years to grasp some stuff that now is grudgingly acknowledged. And I don’t want to wait another 15 years to flex muscle in viable ways throwing away useful info or misusing it with lousy non-options as that sacrifice my survival strategies for those of the types of people who are rare but make up the kinds of opportunists I came across in the last 15 years.

It is okay. I keep things impersonal. Normally I avoid people. All people. But well - this happened and finally as of April 18, 2026, I am adapting to the circumstances.


I rarely fight! Sorry I mocked some people! I am more..I avoid people but except with the creeps and sleazebags, no doubt you have universes in your eyes and such. It just would be a waste of time to fight or cooperate where it won’t happen and I will make sure not to hog.

It is often not virtue signalling - my opthalmologist is Christian and he is one of my favorite people locally. I always think he is a role model as a much older Indian man who is a thoroughly doctor and a gentleman.

I don’t understand why only the creeps represent men. But whatever. I don’t want pointless fights.

I avoid people to except in abstract public cases etc avoid getting close to people where some type of conflcit may result.
It is about heading off an annoyance before it starts not judgement of people who didn’t nor saying that if I assess something as creepy overall or non-viable, there is any in built smearing.
I will be very clear where I outright do not consider somepne worth dealing with. E.g.: Walter Lewin, Lawrence Krauss, Girdhar Madrass.

Life is too short. I am very careful with allegatiojs I formally file or even informally post and I am cut and dry and clear.
That saves everyone time

I am not going to downplay the creepiness. But if one can get through to the merely doltish male (genuinely doltish not like that Dave Agus guy. If Epstein contacted someone at all, I am not smearing anyone, that is not someone worth wasting time being near).

It is not you. It is me. I already have that Sam Macdonald type of purity issues to contend with. I dont eant to add creep issues.
It doesn’t mean yoy are a creep and past redemption etc. It does mean I cannot know and there is enough friction with non creepy people that i dont want that stuff
Not that anyone is creepy when they are not.

Oh ffs

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6. Something I was driveling on about yesterday

I am drafting a last series of posts and going offline. I am unhappy when I socialize even online.

I barely started working and already feel better. Barely. But still.

I wanted to turn in a final set of recriminations, vague legal threats and defensive remarks (and a not inconsiderable amount of humanist support and genuine apologies where the first land on people who are not Priscilla Chan, Clare Wu, Brian Keegan and other such people).

The things I say are not meant to be taken literally by anyone except the few public figures I have bashed. I would never be mean or inconsiderate where people truly tried to help with no real agenda..none of us are that self aware. Someone honest that is. And then since everything is finite, blame and credit allotment fairly is a factor etc. I am idiosyncratic but fair.
I saw a picture of this cat a few years ago. It had fallen inside a well and needed to be fished out by many genuinely nice people.

I can relate to it I suppose. People are often nice. But without getting cynical the web is mess - it is not even scams. It is not just ai. It is also influencers. A few may be decent, but in no way is influencing community. It is like politicians.
And some sort of Stepford community versus Barbarian. I keep imagining a model of a world imagined by the douches who have landed us in this world, factoring in my early brush with the type.

I keep looking for real life adjusted for new annoyances to not disrupt while being pretty unfriendly wrt the rest. Like minded people in different contexts get it, but it is ..it really makes you appreciate your own human brain.

Lately I have been figuring out how to avoid Ubik.


You just cannot aim things right anymore. If you want to help someone, a creep may think you are gullible. If I want to thank some little old lady who is the sort of person who is usually most sympathetic to me, then a whole slew of creeps looking for “Fenn’s Treasure” show up. I generally get along better with older people, but not an Epstein for 40 yos..see..it is impossible.

I meant people like my parents’ friends. People around whom it is not somehow creepy or childish. But you know normal life with no agenda. South Park’s “Cancelled” got it.
Why would you throw away something of far more value for a loathesome counterfeit.
That isn’t anti technology or anti web.

It is that each thing has its own context.

I am not gullible but like DU’s own duppers, usually a type of older woman is sympathetic.
I hate it when people become cynical because of the tech creeps.

Losing my mom-in-law was the hardest part of my divorce. I get along far better with moms than their sons.

This extended period trying to guess the thought process of some male-driven system that has thus far successfully gamed the left and feminists in every material sense was the most grueling thing I ever did.

You default to trying to seem stupid and non-threatening, but not to the extent that you are seen as an easy target for groping while at the same time being careful to not have a meninist start squawking about “false allegations!!!!”

Yeah that was fun. And I seriously don’t want to clapback etc. That is not really my style. I keep doing male outreach to the extent that reality gets a lot scarier when men go politically insane.
It is not that I don’t get it. I feel disenfranchised a lot as well. Most people do with these many damn people whose lives and movements are clearly configured so as to optmize

It is a nightmarish social equation to try to weight assessing safety (i.e. heading off needless conflicts while stemming needless extensive conversations and bad punchlines), being genuinely grateful ot humble as needed.

The law of the jungle stuff with the outright creeps/sleazebags is so much easier.

This is all math humans carry around inside our heads. It is just not typically explicitly available.

Today I thought of this article in Quanta as very useful to keep in mind
So yeah the web is for people who know what they are doing.


I just hate that something like a very innocuous dynamic is not monetized snd filmed and charmless.

It loses its meaning on camera with a TikTok channel and influencers etc. These tech companies ruin everything. They are disgusting.

I am degrowing this tumor but on my way out offering my support to EarlG and DU and the subset of people I consider acceptable adjusted for context.

I feel for this cat.
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It is all drivel because I am trying to adjjst my “model pf the world” and “defaukt mode network” etc for a new

This conflict i was in was rarely personal directly and that is one of its pluses for me and anyone I am not filing complaints against. Which is few people overall and few people in tbe broader world where it doesn’t get politicised in ways I consider meaningless and missing the point.

It is already political re contemporary tech being sleazy and public sector versus private/


And yes many quibbles about communication


And some complaintsZ

Let me get it right.

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7. I started this neverending and awful draft yesterday

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I don’t like communication! I have to get better at it to reduce the volume because this exercise is grating on me not the Uber creep who thinks women are garrulous or some such drivel.

And stave off influencers and sleuths while still using the functionality of the open web without absurdist demands like “learn to code! Everything is an ai deep fake or influencer sleuth or gamer or hacker or other ghastly internet type..”

Game theory not gamification or args or games






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Goodbye (A final series of at most 10 posts)

Hey don’t mock me! Idiots! I barely started working and I am getting the fuck out!
Screw you all! Don’t pick on is-she-crazy-or-a-bot-or-not lady. It gets old damn you.
I am high and honest and I hate Richard Gadd.
Why is everything ruined by some really annoying person

This is seriously a total waste of your time and mine. And the more it becomes self-aware cringe the farther it gets away from the ideal solution (there is totally one! Or at least its way closer than anywhere we are and that simply cannot all be me!
How is the literally true and a series of punchline and in such poor taste unless it is a degrowth factor shutting oneself down, without being a loathesome enviousness thing, while we figure out where we set limits in going and dragging a total random female into some foul crap.
That is such a mediocre and stupid use of a real opportunity these creeps who film way too much.
You know my brain is coming back to life adjusted for this and this isn’t that hard.

It was 2011 when I was shoved into a world much like the one most people online or in science or tech are in today in 2026 with Trump and the tech guys very not jocularly have pulled off the masks.

And you guys are all genuinely terrible.

I saw a genuinely nongushy piece on how most people don’t actually hate people that much.

But thanks to the web in no crises can any of you left or right, old or young, male or female be relied on at all. You guys are really terrible because it is not superficial cooperation, but the real thing..
You guys all totally screw everything up.

You will make like tacky movie or weep but not actually think about it without animosity.

It is not lack of prejudice that is unconnected from other deep sympathies like animal rights and no one says people have to vegan.
I do many things as a thing I do in my life that in no way do I think is universalz
But if you get that tail of the spectrum in all its debt correctly you should get that both cooperation and conflict can go easier than this.
I am socialized to not expect any of you at the level of a conversation get many things faster than this/

And nowI have to file complaints because that is jow realiyy works in real tome to check more worthles growth at yhe expense
All i was trying to say was none of you…
And yes YOU can be relied on to be more universally honest about what actually fits most people over a strait jackets versus the dumbest damn conversations
How could i know that off hand why exactly, weighted correctly I don’t trust any group of humans..

I wasn’t planning on gettjng tk know these many ppeppe this intimately because it is confusing ans vannot be intertwined woth that dynamic in my normal lifr which yhis g genuinely annoying school has blurred.
That was all torture.
And it - a very small probability of it being…that would be such terrible science.
This Epstein thing started after Ibfell into this hell.

I will get out while retaining my exact human life as it was and after this last series of posts..this should not be an example of “confent creatikn”
This was harassment to the max -I just heard a bike ay 6:44 pm and that’s what I am filing a complaint about.

But this isn’t a Tamil movie and Boys vs Girls. It may even often not have anything to do with girls

i would not post this if I was not high enough to be disinhibited enough due to having tuned out the existence of any possible audience entirely rather than surveying this hellscape for a final time in a way I would post outside my computer.


My instincts are all non-profit, but not so utopian that I hand over my resources to these guys taking totally valid penalties for being as I am.
But a lot of this was pushing it from the outside ans I am going to the police

But please at least be fair enough to me to not claim that this bs: Hindu vs Muslim vs Christian or Men vs Women.
First of all it is not just about ..it is not about being nice etc

You are all trying to make me settle for low rent rot and left or right from my position you are always all wrong.


See jusr
None of


That is all my way of saying gruffly that none of any of this applies to you.
I have objected this strenuously to privacy violations not becauss of misconduct etc.

I am not an imposter or a fraud (seriously fuck you all)- have none of you ever met any people?
What lousy experiment did I fall into? Some home schooled types who never came across the net and are straight edge and want to spread the misery around? I hate the tech industry but that would totally make them sympathetic.
If this is an experiment every idea I can conceive of that isn’t creepy-its not that its offensive.

It is that I like Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Nicholas Carr,


You seem incapable of distinguishing. That is why that douchebag Tristan Harris etc are shilled. And he is respectable compared to those creepy Edge Magazine (Nicholas Carr has weird tastes

I didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye EarlG.

It is not ai or politics. My relationship witb society has changed and I am a complainant, but I don’t muck with influencers etc. I can’t blend in quite as much as I used to unless I keep a low profile.

If I was the type of person who “stands their ground” in online spaces, I would be a different type of person. It is surprising looking back that I even had a DU account.
I will always keep it active and maybe after the next name change quietly follow hatrack which was why I originally joined 🙄.

Well more seriously this crap needs to ve ended without penalizing me with doxing. You know the human memory is bad and getting worse.

This would not be a good look as a leak for anyone or at most temporarily. That’s lame and shouldn’t happen because of what it says about our security systems.
I have shared my identity with next to no one here or anywhere. Only EarlG.

I am well to the left, but I am an outlier statistically to the extent that I am an only child (which I think is cool unless one ends up working at annoying schools -I hate my last school so much.

They are this awful flashy tacky school out in California of the type that thinks any attention is good attention. I think the proximity of Hollywood out there must rot their brains faster.
Well we have
Any ffs don’t dox me given my views on pop culture, religion etc.

It is outright scurrilous to say people like me are Thatcherite, atomized or most spitefully fraudulently “ecofascist”.
These Ezra Kleins and Josh Barros etc are not very nice people. And they are stupid. But it is a full blown Idiocracy.

It is just that society keeps doing stupid things and then hogging more and more of what is unambiguously my space and then misrepresenting me, when all I am saying is I can account for my solo stupidity not for that of an evergrowing and consistently maniacally stupid population that really is herded and managed.

That is not my role in society. It was positive to find Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham and keep my membership here active as I will as long as at least one of the original three EarlG/elad and skinner are around.

I am quite mentally healthy but i do get more and more gloomy around crowds. And it strains my humanism which is fairly considerable if I don’t have to keep saying “awwww that is so predictably daft..I am moved.”


I am not mocking people. I am mocking Nadella, Pichai etc and the reality that with these many damn people, by the time one set of humans anywhere is barely emancipated, another crowd comes in with our parasitic oligarchs insisting that the same mistakes that enriched their parasitic pseudoelite rears the first time should be repeated ad nauseum into infinity. Screw these guys..

“It is development!!!! Who cares if it mostly resembles a tumor’s growth!!!!”

Madhav Gadgil got it. Warren Hern (who is very cool) gets it:


This is shameful:

https://www.statnews.com/2015/12/04/abortion-doctor-violence/

An abortion doctor speaks out about decades of threats and violence
By Warren M. HernDec. 4, 2015
The first death threats came at 3 a.m. It was November 1973 and I had just started performing abortions at a small nonprofit clinic in Colorado. Now the phone was ringing at my home in the dead of night. I had built my small house deep in the mountains, in a place of solitude and beauty, where I could see the stars at night.

How did they find me here? I was terrified. I started sleeping with a rifle by my bed. I expected to be shot as I walked out the door in the morning or as I came home at night.

The terror of those days came back to me last week when a gunman — disconnected from society but bathed in anti-abortion propaganda — attacked the Planned Parenthood clinic in Colorado Springs, killing three and wounding nine others. Early news of this attack reached me as my son and I were about to start skiing down a mountain slope with fresh snow. A beautiful day began with horror in the pit of my stomach, and it was not the first time.
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Performing safe abortions in a humane, dignified, and caring atmosphere matters for the health and safety of the women. It matters for the health of their families. It matters for the health of our society. And now, it matters for freedom. If women are not free to make decisions about their own lives and health, they are not free. And if women are not free, none of us are free.

It is hard to remember that one has a valid case here. No

Importantly as someone who would never make other women uncomfortable (yes I am profane and a substance user etc in my room alone. Or was..), this has strained me as there was never any easy way to file a complaint.

I would never betray women’s rights and I consider many compromises ghastly.
But while I don’t manipulate people (low rent survival tactic for morons), handling interactions with people different from oneself where you don’t need to collide and can function in separate lanes cooperatively enough..

And I am not going to attack my last mentor. For what he is, he is even the best of a type of scientist I think should not keep favoring a sleazy private sectot while screwing over the public sector as lazy and inefficient.

I don’t embrace any cliche. It is what makes dealing with dishonest people so hard. It is why I like you EarlG. You are honest.

We all deal with the porcupine’s dilemma, but honesty is the best policy imo.

I will forgive my former mentor some day if he gives me an honest explanation for why with all his intelligence and skills he cannot see his school for what it is.
This is not a desperate person. If I had to guess, I would say it is a miscalculation about what is decreed acceptable collateral damage using the wisdpm pf crowds and psuedopopulism as predictive with a very misguided sheen of left.

The left I like is pretty savvy and I only split from them on language and messaging, rarely policy. Nathan Robinson is savvy. And he has a heart.
If Chomsky etc have a heart I never saw it. Anyone who totally ignores nonhuman life probably does like attention and flattery.
Animals don’t vote and will never have a say.
Spare me the bs when ventilation shutdown (burning animals alive) and factory farming pass. And stfu about Beaglegate. A collection of Epstein humping predators who stuff themselves with MacDonalds attacking Dr Fauci.


My main mentor was one of the coolest scientists I knew. He was an actual humanist and that doesn’t mean bursting into tears and having hug sessions in lab. We were never touchy feely. I rarely had non work interactions with him.

But he would not prop up blatantly bs that exploits the grey area of psychiatry to overcrowd people and force non-options.
Way too many asparagus have been cast on my sanity and credibility.

Still I support my last mentor. His wife was having a baby. She is much nicer. They all work for institutions that I don’t trust. It is that older Rand corporation style of national security which this guy who raped E Jeanne and probably a teen calls “deep state!!!!!!”


Nothing has strained me so much as feeling dinged for an inability to adopt language that is not mine and reeks of liability PMC culture than a genuine understanding of how women feel.

It would be so easy to game this. I had really had my self image take a beating because I wasn’t going to go into rehab or well anything.

Because I cannot. I really don’t understand mob or cult mood. It seems to have no consistently universal time-tested things.

What does worry me is “diversity” being exploited by Musk to destroy the black middle class and the chronically annoying attacking the wrong people..

Lucien Greaves, Yasha, Ketcham etc get it.
It is what makes people afraid to ever weigh in. By the time you make something so inoffensive that it cannot be misrepresented by the most disingenuous person around, it has lost all its human meaning. And human experience of a hell you cannot imagine is not the same as

I tend to feel reflexively guilty if people know that I consider socializing torture and I ..I am not depressed or socially awkward.

I am just very introverted. I don’t say it if that means I get hustled into some awful program to socialize me. And besides it is the kind of thing the type of person I cannot stand says on Facebook.
“I am in an introvert! Then why the fuck are you on Facebook???!! It is an emergency!!! Why the fuck is it always an emergency?!!! “

More birth control after two kids..at least here in the global south because I don’t want a gig job where a Creep pretends to be “ai” to be labeled “development” by creepy local tech cos with a parasitic VR mental healthcare bs model for Reefer Madness shilling frauds. A chipmunk started alarm calling at around 11:27 am.

I am filing complaints about most of the last 14 years and 8 months but most especially what lead to my mom’s death in 2021 and the disgraceful greed and harassment on my street.

My shrink and therapist in 2012 were decent and I am eternally grateful to them for making me even less susceptible to anti-psychiatry spiels.

I like Lucien Greaves. I do find it torture as well to see text where there are so many fallacies loaded into a para that your brain reels over which one is most nonsensical and how and why etc. I am not angling for a career in most efficient sloganeering.


But I mainly like non interactive internet. The only information being which humans and what I follow. By its nature not even a message board is presently ideal because these collective soups of voices may or may not be hideous. I can follow specific people still whose personalities I have such an intuitive feel for that even without gang signs and insignia I can tell what they mean.

I don’t really like doing this and so it is the last. I am socialized to seem superficially agreeable, probably as that is less conspicuous.

My mom was the only person who saw this side of me. The few times I mimic behaviors like all humans do which I would shed as counterproductive.


But some of these technologies have strained my temper to the hilt and now one person-my mom- is dead.

I have recovered and I will carry on, file complaints, stay on the path I am on solo

All these gushing posthumous endorsements of Madhav Gadgil anger and disgust me. When he was alive, he was pretty much ignored or thwarted by sleazy assholes in the govt and by corrupt business interests.
The same types who have made my life hell with clueless mobs that turn malicious fast piling on, most shockingly in places like hospitals or my street:

Thiruvananthapuram: “Things are getting worse in Western Ghats”, says eminent ecologist Madhav Gadgil as he urged the people on the “grassroots” to “sufficiently pressure” the elected representatives to take measures to end disasters in areas along its traverse including Kerala. Gadgil and the report prepared by the Western Ghats Ecology Expert Panel (WGEEP) headed by him are back in news after over two dozen people lost their lives in landslides and flash floods occurred in the past few days in the hilly regions of Western Ghats in central Kerala districts of Kottayam and Idukki. “It is most unfortunate that things have to come to this kind of dire situation,” he said. The report, popularly known as Gadgil committee report submitted to the Union Environment Ministry in 2011, suggested steps to preserve the ecologically frail Ghats, a treasure trove of wildlife containing more than 30 per cent of all species of plant, fish, reptile, amphibian, bird and mammal found in the whole country. “The way forward is to actually implement (the WGEEP report) through proper democratic process. The way forward is that the communities living in Western Ghats should assert their constitutional democratic rights,” the ecologist told

And now at least I no longer carry the shame of feeling like a type of woman I consider a burden on women’s rights, like these Nowak etc associated. I am silent or speak based on my calculation about how that would further anything I support sanely.
Technically I think I can be considered not mainstream. But I try to be understated enough to sort of even out this unbalanced landscape as I see it.

This is so lame. What this Megyn Kelly type tries and it flies in societies this superficial.

It is everything and I try to ensure that I don’t have to be grateful.
And I am not clunky. Why should i keep adjusting to some clunkiness that I had no say in.

Because on one hand you have this less inanely sleazy transactional PMC female who will endorse creepy faux edgy methods with sexist men ponderously preaching to them (and worse me) and liken women like me who are in private “edgy” with the kinds of men I would talk to - well my two friends that is. That is as many people as one knows. I like Sunny in Philadelphia or Sarah Silverman okay.
That is different from a series of pervert adjacent types coming up with ghastly and obvious forms of Self justification that you should not be programming into a lot of people

Context. And I have zero sympathy for people who make these messes. They can suck it up.


But I have no sympathy for people like these. Otoh yeah one should be civil to a large number of potentially dimwitted types who may turn sane or go crazier. Seems easier to just stay away but then you have to wait out these Darwin Awards candidates.

I really don’t like what is ongoing.

Sorry. I am separating out real and imagined worlds carefully.

I am not combative! I just don’t -you know - cede ground easily even when you are honest, but someone I disagree with non-trivially, which has to be the case some. But it doesn’t have to be personal. I think that is most people. The exclamation points denote my enthusiasm!

Edgy like Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham, Lucien Greaves is different from joking with pedophiles and they are not parasitic like bored people.


This used to keep confusing me as I couldn’t imagine a life where on the one hand you accept the logic of a managerial class that never checked Epstein and now has these inane “”messages about harmful language” (my brand!!!! The harmful part).

Otoh these IDW whiners who misappropriate edginess. Edginess is not about punching down. The core of the edginess is the anger sans a media corporation and attacking every form of stupidity rather than “I am like that too!

I waited for this really stupid shit to make sense.

I owe Matt Cerami.

How did we end up in a world that polices the wrong things and gives a pass to the wrong things.

Seriously this is your friend and a mean that doesn’t complicate things self servingly failing to notice how in an Idiocracy you are outnumbering saner people. Otoh too many jerks where absent a context it would in no way be clear that this person stands for anything. How can one tell? Personality I suppose. There are kindly, honest and low key conservatives and jerks who vote left for unclear reasons. In the thicket of these messes it would be impossible to tell


Environmentalists have to be so cautious in talking to a population programmed by creeps.
Madhav Gadgil go it. I get it but I do think that if you just say “people”, a creepy Yimby project that Ambani and Adani sell will be rushed through.




This really was torture. Yeah sure except my new friend Prof Hennessy..He is my friend!!! No as with Prof Lecun, I was relieved to see someone whom I assess as not dead from the neck up. He should flattered. I was relieved to see one of those guys who looks safe for women. Clunky and hogging is tolerable. It was a relief to me to see an option to going scorched earth.

Anyway unlike my new imaginary friend (the best kind!!) Prof Hennessy, I cannot snoop on everyone and be sure that they are not creeps.

That is the system of trust. And it is better than collective snooping plus ghastly collective decisions/


I was infected with the hasty PMC sleazebag behavior of the type of person who presents the appearance of respectability without the depth to understand what drives behaviour.

Why do I trust some men whose emails I have not hacked, fourth amendment rights I have not violated? I don’t know/
And it isn’t a 100%


But especially with uncomfortable areas like that you have to keep your head and find a mean path between not diluting anything and prioritizing but never this insecure scrambling


I am not insecure. But I don’t enjoy being around people and it is real strain to be considered Thatcherite or an asshole or tough and strict and various things I consider the other side of okay flood the place with morons


What is this disease? And projecting and lecturing after forcing lots of ott shit through. That was whay annoyed me about my last lab. Representing me (it is a metaphor) as an anti-vaxxer rather than someone who says, “whatever your “culture” ban the damn wet markets and factory farms or don’t but don’t be expect me to not report this and to accept these moronic permacrisis things and worse to sell them as “actually more humanist!””

The fuck they are. I don’t caricature them and I don’t mean this in the stupidest way imaginable.
I do caricature their politics as they are pretty generic and these solutions disproportionately screw over not the vocal whiners, but people like me, even if I don’t fit your stereotype of what forebearing looks like. I instinctively humanize people. But expecting the politics to not repel me…And no I don’t have a solution (*mutters* except at the other tail of the distribution-one I avoid as an extra bad fit - some birth control over coercing me would be nice. This has all definitely been a huge strain on me, my mom and dad, my ex, my best friend and his wife and my main mentor who was nothing like this. And my oncologist).

These methods are garbage. I never justified my numerous deficiencies. And you need not expect to get away with yours except in some transactional nightmare. I will be around when you are less awful. Yeah I am not holding my breath.





I did want to thank these people:
Dear Yasha Levine who has preserved my humanism, Christopher Ketcham (who is very much the home team as well - the thing about Yasha is he consistently works more against a tendencey I have to thankfully exit society, whereas I feel Ketcham gives me more permission to leave). The two of them represent to me a conflict between my protest that I have every right to leave wrt accelerating stupidity I have no say in and I refuse to pick mob populism that throws women’s rights when convenient using some non-existent girlboss as an excuse. Or marketplace driven “democracy” you purchase at unknown costs downstream (sadly that is what people-even humanists with some resources choose if I am honest over denial of reality). I don’t know which is worse.
The state has screwed me over both in the US and India. But I love Yasha. Because I agree with Madhav Gadgil but I know how Yimbies exploit shit.
Matt Cerami for resolving a consistent struggle I have had with bafflement at how much you can be a humanist and still hate people, without it strictly being only acceptable to bash group.
Lucien Greaves.

I don’t actually hate any group. But communication is fastest with people most like you politically and personality wise.
Ed Zitron .
Nathan Robinson & team . I am very fond of Current Affairs.
And I have followed many people (including many DUers. Even when I was away from DU I would remember things DUers whose handles I couldn’t even remember had said over the years).
I owe Malaise and PCIntern for a couple of insights. And many others-lmsp, rhiannon12866,

Adam Becker, Clayton Dalton, Troy Farah (who reminds me of a labmate I actually like as long as my mentor stays away..people you can trust. I actually like my last lab. I am just reflexively wary that I will end up sinking my resources into reputable causes like buying gold underwear for Richard Branson, Reid Hoffman, Mark Zuckerberg and Elon Musk and I don’t know. That just doesn’t strike me as necessarily the most important non-profit to back at the moment.

I understand. But I am reliably anti-fascistic only when alone. I made this final post to be clear that you can count on me. But not wrt a bunch of depressingly stupid shit.

It really wears me down. It was the attacks on Dr.Fauci that worried me the most. He is my role model. He is the type of person one doesn’t have to defend.

This was a nightmare. This managerial style that protects creeps followed by mob dynamics that are so antithetical to sanity.

I felt sleazy while being outside the system for not wanting to be in mobs either. They don’t invest in people in any way that makes sense and then they sell a bunch of bs.

I did want to as a lefty feminist kinda say a bit gruffly but not unsympathetically (don’t hound me. That is missing yhe point. I am not an influencer)- you don’t actually know any lefty, feminists. You know a diseased world.
It makes you unhappy as well. I was in that headspace and I understand it. But if you are angry, many of us are and self destructiveness is not good. Hang in there and things may get better or not. One of those two for sure.

I like being alone. Even solitary phone use, solitary nature, books, science.
Advertising makes women seem more sexual on average (Evgenia Kovda wrote about it) and while religion is no answer, maybe if you do feel lonely,
In my experience most women don’t want to have sex with anyone including whatever a “Chad” is. At least it is all equal. This is a diseased society.



This is the most nightmarish PMC class that protects predators and screws everyone else over.
I can tell you from the feminist left that I find a lot of the “left” writing I see hack like.

But while I have yet to find anyone to the right of Chuck Palahniuk or Nicholas Carr readable, I do select every article or oped I pay attention to on the left.
As I recover from hell, one thing has stood out more and more. Selection and not a soup of collective pap. Individual human writer.
The Catcher in the Rye



I have learnt not to “support” people thr wrong way. I don’t know what any of these people want from me
I am not delusional about the difficulty of science



Yeah sure I did think that even for these repellent type A’s who don’t seem to find a mean path between insane austerity and whatever that atrocius type’s..lol.. nightmarish predictions for “humanist”

Seriously..it is terrifying to think of those guys trying to be humanist. Seems like a formula designed to destroy humanism and put all sorts of much nicer people on edge and portrayed as harsh as opposed to this lunatic Harvard Stanford MIT type that everyone hates


Do you think maybe the shitty world we live in enthusiastically and gratefully may have something to do with administerial talents of these assholes?


Good god this awful and abrasive guy with whom no one sane would want to do any kind of science is ..

It is evident that even minus the perverts/racists/generic creeps/supercreeps/sleazevags rtc there is no one at Stanford, Harvard, MIT etc thst any normal human scientist would even talk to.

I don’t mean they are bullies etc. They are pushy. They promote their survival at the cost of much nicer people in science.

I have not known how to respond. In science and life they probably think being not torture to be around is collaring random people and telling never ending tales about oneself or being witty and clapbacky or like that awful Richard Gadd.


Maybe I don’t disgree but if I couldn’t articulate it without selecting from my increasingly suspicious internet feed, my sensitivity is far from this.

I have done many things I now mock other people for when they never stop doing them. But I learned faster.

I guess this makes a lot of sense about


Out of pure spite against Keith Anderson (an awful person), I am putting this up just as it is -warts and all!
I just wanted to add a few more comments in supportof people who I do value
None of whom are doing that well in this milieu


I like supporting DU, but I am noy this asshple wgk js all “i cannot understand how anyone Indivisible takes money from Reid Hoffman 😤”.
“I cannot understand how the Humane League takes money from EA 😤”
“I cannot understand how pretty much every writer or journalist I like is on Substack 😤”

I can understand all that. And I use WhatsApp

I like supporting people but I don’t like being conspicuous. That attracts attention seekers. The most tiresome people.
I follow people with talent. I am goaded by morons.

I am going away forever and ever and ever..


I am not this incredibly difficult person but I saw this 15 years ago. People are never honest a lot.
I want what is commensurate and honest without on autopilot endlessly selecting the worst penalties as likeliest to be farthest away from these Stanford Harvard types and their mobs. The same choice they make themselves,

And all for the convenience of some creepy wealthy douchebags none of us know..


These

This influencer idea is garbage
It scares people off from weighing in even in sloq direness when they are affected

Becayse youe brains seem fo process it incorrectly as

My brain is increasingly starting to more explicitly return to its old mode

I just realized today how useful this is
https://www.quantamagazine.org/the-math-that-explains-why-bell-curves-are-everywhere-20260316/



This is just lame and ghastly- it reduces the use of the web as an actual tool for combat as a normal rando actor not player sees it:

https://www.npr.org/2026/04/14/nx-s1-5776842/ai-chatbot-comedy-ben-palmer-chatgpt



The education and political influencer known as Mrs. Frazzled has 1.4 million followers on TikTok, 760,000 on Instagram and 84,000 on X. With reach like that, the California-based content creator was well-positioned to shine a spotlight on former Rep. Eric Swalwell’s multiple sexual misconduct allegations. So she did.

(i am sure they are a perfectly nice person but I try to avoid crowds everywhere beyond 2026 being better than the earlier years in there being some good fits out there with their eyes on this. Yeah I don’t have a tech sugar daddy’s bunker nor a mob or tribe. Those are good things!

Anything Richard Gadd sucks.

I like Yasha, Zitron, Matt Stoller and Lucien Greaves, Troy Farah, Nathan Robinson etc because they are serious in simar ways

And I like Alec Karakatsanis but I am a bit wary sometimes

My point is this isn’t joke and sometimes-there is no point in eschewing sophistication.
These are people one can work with to swop info about reality seriously and I like TikTok bans! The exclamation mark is about enthusiasm about working productively across the aisle potentially! Google lawsuits and TikTok bans!


Hey no! It is not personal! Maybe those are all nice people but it is cringe or something!


I will totally get stuff through. This didn’t make physics, chem or bio easier.

And you cannot just go aroind labelibg the world an “open game system” and throwing away the spirit of all kinds of laws that protected you and me.
Hey you male type.. don’t you prefer due process to mobs?
I do as well. Like sexual harassment and civil rights laws etc protect you and me.
And there is no future in just trying to pull shit like this. I am not just declaring things like Google and Musk do.

I am just saying that a lot of tge stuff these creeps thew away was already working out and was popular

[jfz9580m]

8. The last old profile I made

Short-tempered Nimby. Go pollute someone else’s street and home.

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I shall draft or perhaps craft is the better term, a succinct profile with information necessary for: conflict/complaints ; cooperation for truly symbiotic survival outside the routine /coexistence only (very little the entire time. My medical mj co and the lefties I follow are the only examples so far plus anyone known whom I consider my doctor or colleague adjusted to this new reality); routine stuff that need not be dragged. The noise polluting people who deliberately used my street between 2023 and the present and similar people throughout I will unfortunately unambiguously file complaints against.

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I report creeps and harassers (whatever the field or industry). Do not make “art”. Do not treat my street or home as if they were part of an “open world game system”.

[ I wasn’t myself between Sept 5, 2011 and April 17, 2026. I am preparing to file complaints about the entire period as my old self starting April 18, 2026. I reboot with marijuana once a month and I am filing stalking, harassment, malpractice and misconduct allegations in India against any and all tech companies, portions of the state, any hospitals, educational institutions and individuals involved.
I am sorry I came off wrong. My brain was recovering from a shock and unfortunately now I have to file many serious complaints. The rest of this profile was written earlier. I was somewhat distrait.]

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That too in a country where cyberstalking, acid attacks, gangrapes and violence against women are not unheard of. It’s mostly cool (these creeps aside). Regardless, these opaque things with no accountability or oversight are creep magnets.

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And they are a huge strain on all the decent people locally and non-locally (male or female). And I can tell which is which. They exist far from each other - creepiness and anything remotely acceptable. Don’t get cute again.
You picked the wrong woman for this bullshit.

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I was disoriented between 2011 and March 2026 for personal reasons (that are my own damn business). Don’t bother with trying to get away with this.
Mainly because I was shocked at the state of privacy BTS. See, I never would have expected anything else from Facebook. One reason I can never quite guage the exact level of lunacy of this society is because I could never get how anyone is shocked if they go and give a sleazy guy like Zuckerberg all their data. Who buys “Facebook will change the world!!!” “Omg Zuckerberg turned out to be as creepy as is glaringly obvious!!! I am outraged!!”


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I mean I would sympathise if it weren’t like wandering around with a “kick me” sign when you are not even under-privileged or obviously lobotomized. This is why I avoid groups as they are socialized to repeat drivel.


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Google did shock me. A tacky social network one can live without. A search engine otoh is a very useful tool and unless you are sending out death threats or violent messages, should you not have had normal expectations of email privacy in 2011?


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I am not a moron or crazy. I understand what is going on here. What is confusing me is how you expect to best me. That is myopic. A lot of the left itself is in stasis and Three-Body Problem’s aliens are probably not the best fictional archetypes whose methods you borrow expecting the left, Greens like me, mawali feminists like me etc to never catch up and to not outwit you without tacky hacking classes, mobs, cults etc.

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You are not getting away with this. I have many faults. But I am not a fool. You often are and my condolences. It honestly looks like a difficult life.
And I underwent this which was torture, most of all when well-intentioned. But it is less so now when societies I never agreed with much have descended this overtly into Idiocracy.

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Don’t expect to get away with this. I am not a conventional feminist who follows a safely scripted and curated narrative in concert with douchebags or falls prey to a collection of dim-witted Indian male creeps desperate for attention and without an ounce of common sense.


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I am..a..a…female ”mawali”. Which apparently means “low class street ruffian”.


https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=mawali


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Which is the only type of person who could take on this rogue’s gallery of dim-witted Darwin Awards candidates.


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Seriously don’t mess with me. I try to have a sense of humor up to a point, but not about inane parasitic industries sucking away peace and quiet. If you really anger me further (creepiness, exploitation of loopholes and deregulation or splitting my eardrums with your loathsome vehicles) I will see that you do hard time in a real prison cell. Last warning.
Don’t come here. This is an entrapment zone you idiots. This was never viable and many complaints are guaranteed as is. Don’t escalate this further.

In recognition of your deficient intellect I am putting this as nicely as I can. Stay away. I am going to the local police who are generally decent.


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https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2024/9/23/whats-behind-indias-latest-metoo-movement-in-malayalam-cinema


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What’s behind India’s latest #MeToo movement in Malayalam cinema?
A probe panel’s report has lifted the veil on widespread sex abuse in the industry, with more women coming forward with allegations too.


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And fuck off if you are one of these perverts who go around claiming they are “scientists”. You will do hard time if you mess with me ever again:


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https://thelifeofscience.com/2018/11/05/will-take-science-india-metoo-movement/

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Cool People and Groups:


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The Freedom from Religion Foundation

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https://ffrf.org/about/welcome-to-the-freedom-from-religion-foundation/


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Whistleblowed VW’s Dieselgate Was Just Laid-Off by General Motors
Hemanth Kappanna was on a small team of three grad students who discovered VW's fraud, but now he's back in India looking for work.

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https://www.thedrive.com/news/27916/engineer-who-whistleblowed-vws-dieselgate-was-just-laid-off-by-general-motors

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I support the India marijuana industry. Not an ad. I am a scientist not an influencer. But I am also a complainant and proud to openly support marijuana legalization so don’t bother with extortion attempts. It is sexual and other forms of harassment and unwanted, invasive, parasitic technologies that are a threat to sanity here:

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I don’t try to ger rubberstamps from Blackstone Inc or other creepy admin run hospitals. The doctors here are cool as is the norm. Hospital administrators are corrupt and greedy. A DIY regimen of Mj and OTC modafinil helped me recover from my mom’s death which was preventable and the result of a ramping up of greed and avarice.———————————————————————————————-

Very cool. I support their mission and am very grateful to them/my doctors.
I support the Indian MJ industry and doctors supporting it and helping me like my doctor does. Minus Yimbyism, VR, ai, rubberstamps, gaming, entertainment etc. forced on me anyway.
Reefer Madness is bullshit.
I use WhatsApp as Prof Lecun is one of the rare ai scientists I trust to be honest. He left Zuckerberg’s shady suckerverse. But still it is a convenient app. Matt Stoller has covered the anti-trust case involved in depth. I miss Lina Khan.

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https://theorganicmagazine.com/wellness-and-nutrition/holistic/cure-by-design/

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A cool wildlife group. Madhav Gadgil will be missed. Tejas Thackeray is cool.

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https://www.theweek.in/theweek/specials/2024/05/04/tejas-thackeray-shares-his-passion-for-wildlife-conservation-and-photography.html

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A neat, plant-based sweet shop run by a very cool person and a weak-tie friend who helped a solitary loner like me recover my confidence with distant but real support. Not an ad. She’s a friend.

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https://meethikahani.com/

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A cool person who started a privacy rights group I have followed over the years -The Internet Freedom Foundation. Specific humans are more important than ever in the age of rubbishware fraudulently labeled superintelligent:


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apar_Gupta


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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Internet_Freedom_Foundation


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The sole online community I am a part of loosely. Very decent of Dave (EarlG)/elad to put up with me. Same wrt DU/MiRT. Have been a bit wacky in the last 14 years. But am back to normal. Owe all my friends, my family, colleagues and doctors. And I hate the creeps. Damn them to hell.
Won’t someone think about the creeps? That is all anyone thinks about! The creeps own everything! Damn near gave me Stockholm Syndrome!

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https://www.democraticunderground.com/

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I will work apolitically with the parts of the Indian state that are honest and democratic (and low key/professional. No spectacles or theatre . I have to communicate as humanly as I can. But I do not accept our homes and streets being lent to this nor hospitals or educational institutions adapting such depraved trash as acceptable. It throws off work and learning in context and exploits crises to ensure permacrises). As an anon, female, marijuana user who has been exploited and sexually harassed and DIYs her health with medical mj (THC and CBD), OTC Modafinil, I support my med mj co/doctor as they helped me recover from my mom’s death despite incessant harassment, stalking, testing.
My emails and devices are and always were private.

I am on the left, but I am a scientist and never step outside familiar territory (publicly funded science, right to be an anonymous complainant not influencer adjacent, a political plant etc). I think it is unlikely that this descent into barbaric accelerationist chaos will be viable. But even were it viable, I don’t want to be a part of all the crap that best I consider pointless drivel. And I am not mechanical and cultish. Stupid and self serving stuff angers me.


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And creepiness is just non optional. And I won’t have my jokes and language etc policed anymore by anyone. That is why I like privacy - Not because I am diddling kids unlike the Darwin Awards candidates who not only do that, but then hijack society with the help of surveillance capitalists because it is always an emergency! No way! Maybe stop diddling kids!
Don’t destroy information to cover for perverts. Don’t destroy privacy rights to cover for perverts.

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I go on the system of trust and do not open up my devices without proper oversight, regulation.
There isn’t any misconduct or kiddie pics.
There are tonnes of rants similar to this one.
Those are private!

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It is a matter of principle. I should be open to all this because of a bunch of perverts and male creeps? Oh now you want diversity is it?
Lol. Not happening. Bugger off.

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Privacy International:

https://privacyinternational.org/


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Privacy like a normal human female used to democracies and repelled by attention seeking swarms creeping on one’s street. Not like an autocrat with a bunker underground and a rubber stamp above. Hey, I call ‘em like I see ‘em. Not even my original issue which was dull environmentalism not spectacular dreck (hat tip to one of my two favorite journalists - Yasha Levine).

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I have not engaged in misconduct or anything shady and have never had any mental ailment beyond the strain of all this. I never agreed with blase attitudes about employers who read emails and normalize utterly needless privacy violations for no reason at all.

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I have views that are absurdly considered controversial. I like Paul Ehrlich and Warren Hern, neither of whom btw are in the Epstein Files unlike Noam Chomsky, probably because they don’t see women’s rights as inconsequential unlike Ben Wray of the Jacobin, who considers women’s rights “popular”, i.e. optional.
I am well to the left, but I am a scientist and the global south is unambiguously suffering from out of control population explosion. I know this limits-to-growth denying bullshit model of growth is cruelest to the worst of, who end up (as Andy Nikiforuk correctly put it) as legos for the greedy and corrupt. I am not even that badly off but I am okay with the level of “privilege” that allows one the freedom to say yes or no, even when a fallen woman!

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I am not laughing with the creeps or dear god, at the creeps. I am not laughing at all!
I have a disease! Or 20! Can a nice sleazy Blackstone affiliate please get me a nice rubber stamp.

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Look if you want to sign up for lame and hideous shit (whatever the confused and lame pitch), you can do it. That is your prerogative. I don’t tell you what to do and you cannot make free with my resources and person and get away with it. I avoid most people and most things and I shall continue to do that. I subscribe to George Carlin’s “brand” of humanist misathropy not your pile of drivel (hat tip to Matt Cerami).
I am not at all depressed etc. See that’s wishful thinking and a chestnut.

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I find you depressing and imagine that listening to most of you must be a form of torture as my brain autogenerates what you must think based on what many of you say openly. I have heard the non contraversial things many of you say and going by that it is bound to be alienating torture to listen to you. Does it make it better that except for the people/groups I list on my profile (10-20 people and scientists and doctors I know that is my guess about almost everyone else. That is kind of unbiased. I think Oscar Wilde’s quote applies to at least 60% of the whole. Probably closer to 85%. Its okay! I am a bore too!!! Weeeeee!!!!

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Sorry. My apologies to anyone decent. I do try sporadically to be polite. But it ends up sounding like severe Stockholm Syndrome and is on the whole more insulting than the truth! I thought more people were like that than seems to be the case. And no. You can be that way. I won’t.
It looks pointlessly painful, which was my take on most of what flies in this society.

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Science and worthwhile work are hard by nature. I don’t understand pointless hustle culture to purvey Graeber’s bullshit jobs, without apparently any awareness and to make life more strenuous for people doing worthwhile things.

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Roe v Wade:

A very cool doctor, Dr Caitlin Bernard

https://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/indiana-doctor-gave-10-year-old-girl-abortion-disciplinary-hearing-rcna86214

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Planned Parenthood

https://www.plannedparenthood.org/

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A selective abortion would be nice here. Intelligent Design and Creationism are not science and probably suck even as metaphors. Natural selection would be cool.


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Animal Rights Groups I support (Still wary of EA, Yimbies and anything attacking Dr.Fauci or similar scientists):

Humane League via ACE:

https://animalcharityevaluators.org/charity-review/the-humane-league/


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A decent AI safety group (though they would probably disapprove of me. Well they can get in line! Behind all the meninists, Swifties, Reefer Madness types etc. No queue jumping! Men first! Creep rights are human rights!):


https://www.dair-institute.org/

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One of very few journalists I trust completely - Yasha Levine.

Yasha on Noam Chomsky (never liked the guy and “MeToo Hysteria” is a major red flag):

https://www.truthdig.com/articles/noam-chomskys-split-personality/



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I have never met Yasha, but my ex and I are supporters and consider him one of the very few honest journalists out there. I am very fond of Yasha just from reading his work. He rescued from cynicism and despair and repaired my humanism:

http://yashalevine.com/



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Evgenia Kovda is cool and pretty much the only artist I follow who is not exclusively a writer:


https://kovda.org/about/



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The sole decent chatbot out there, Rollo Carpenter’s cleverbot:

https://www.cleverbot.com/


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I am a card carrying supporter of the MeToo movement:

https://metoomvmt.org/