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orleans

(33,986 posts)
Sun Mar 15, 2015, 11:00 PM Mar 2015

it's better/easier than it was

when it comes to dealing with my grief, my sadness

it's as if there is a part of me that has hardened, or resigned; a part that is so tired from the sadness, so exhausted, that i have -- finally -- become numb.

and that numbness carries over into my days, an indifference, an odd preoccupation or distraction, an inability to truly focus on so many things.

but today was one of those days when i forgot, momentarily, what was lost. those sacred moments have become so few & far between for me. they are so amazingly joyous--those precious few moments when i can actually believe that the person i have grieved for has not died; that her absence in my life is temporary and her return is imminent. (almost as if she has gone on vacation and is expected home very soon.)

today, for a few moments, my brain allowed me that bliss.



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it's better/easier than it was (Original Post) orleans Mar 2015 OP
... DeadLetterOffice Mar 2015 #1
... orleans Mar 2015 #2
That pic of the cemetery reminded me.... Uben Mar 2015 #3
nice idea. nice title. n/t orleans Mar 2015 #4
Hang on to those few and far between moments of bliss. auntAgonist Mar 2015 #5
i know... i know.... orleans Mar 2015 #6

Uben

(7,719 posts)
3. That pic of the cemetery reminded me....
Mon Mar 16, 2015, 10:27 PM
Mar 2015

...Carol wanted to tour the country and visit old cemeteries, take photos, and make a book out of it. It was to be called "Remains To Be Seen".

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