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sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:30 PM Jan 2022

My mom passed away Thursday evening.

For the most part it was peaceful. We were with her all day and the moment she died. We were there.

There is a hole in my heart. Four years of home care and she slipped away. Not easy at all, physically or mentally however I don't regret the time we spent together, I am glad for it. I miss her and feel so lost. Past two nights I did not sleep with a baby monitor in the bed or my phone in my hand, it feels strange.



I am not a religious person, she was. The Angel is for her.

Goodnight, mom. I love you and I miss you.

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My mom passed away Thursday evening. (Original Post) sheshe2 Jan 2022 OP
Oh sheshe2, I am so sorry to hear this. greatauntoftriplets Jan 2022 #1
Dear sheshe2, madaboutharry Jan 2022 #2
I'm so very sorry. revmclaren Jan 2022 #3
Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved mom, my dear sheshe2. CaliforniaPeggy Jan 2022 #4
Oh, sheshe!!! I wish I was there to put an arm around you. I know you have Scrivener7 Jan 2022 #5
Beautful Tribute to remember Cha Jan 2022 #6
Thank you, Cha. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #12
Our deepest condolences. Rest in peace MerryHolidays Jan 2022 #7
((((( she she)))))) FalloutShelter Jan 2022 #8
Condolences, sheshe2 PJMcK Jan 2022 #9
Me too, PJMcK. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #22
We know we can't keep them forever, but the pain... Frustratedlady Jan 2022 #10
Of course, there are no words I could say that would take away the pain I know you Atticus Jan 2022 #11
so Sorry for your loss Groundhawg Jan 2022 #13
What you did for her was more than I could do for my parents. AndyS Jan 2022 #14
I'm so sorry, sheshe2. Solly Mack Jan 2022 #15
My condolences snowybirdie Jan 2022 #16
I'm sorry, sheshe. brer cat Jan 2022 #17
Love you, brer and your kind words. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #37
Sheshe2, my deepest condolences to you. Nt spooky3 Jan 2022 #18
My deepest condolences. My mom died 30 years ago she was only 70. Walleye Jan 2022 #19
Mind if I give you a huge hug? sheshe2 Jan 2022 #38
Thanks. I've been severely lacking in hugs lately. Walleye Jan 2022 #50
You can have as many as you want from me. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #52
I'm very sorry for mzmolly Jan 2022 #20
I am saddened to hear of your loss mercuryblues Jan 2022 #21
That is beautiful, thank you. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #188
My deepest condolences. sinkingfeeling Jan 2022 #23
Sincere condolences to you and your family. babylonsister Jan 2022 #24
I am so sorry for your deep loss Dr. Shepper Jan 2022 #25
So sorry, sweetie. ❤ littlemissmartypants Jan 2022 #26
I'm very sorry. LisaM Jan 2022 #27
My condolences, sheshe2 nuxvomica Jan 2022 #28
So very sorry Sheshe applegrove Jan 2022 #29
My deepest sympathies to you & your family, she. dixiechiken1 Jan 2022 #30
Love to you and yours. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #189
Deepest Sympathy. NNadir Jan 2022 #31
So sorry for your loss kimbutgar Jan 2022 #32
Oh, my dear sheshe UpInArms Jan 2022 #33
I have no words adequate to give you consolation. Having been a care-giver for my own alwaysinasnit Jan 2022 #34
I am very sorry. Please accept my sincere condolences. onecaliberal Jan 2022 #35
May her memory Mme. Defarge Jan 2022 #36
I'm so very sorry. luvs2sing Jan 2022 #39
You're lucky that you were with her when it happened. BigmanPigman Jan 2022 #40
I am so sorry swimboy Jan 2022 #41
Heartfelt sympathy to you sheshe . Your post brought tears to my eyes. The love and tenderness skylucy Jan 2022 #42
I am sorry, sheshe. tblue37 Jan 2022 #43
Been there. I pray the void you feel will soon be filled with wonderful memories Raven123 Jan 2022 #44
May you all have some peace. Your love for your mom was very clear. Condolences. BoomaofBandM Jan 2022 #45
((my she)) blm Jan 2022 #46
Losing the presence of a parent is a special sorrow... TygrBright Jan 2022 #47
Beautiful. Simply beautiful. dixiechiken1 Jan 2022 #63
What a beautiful post, Bright. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #107
I am so sorry. CottonBear Jan 2022 #48
(((((((((((((she))))))))))))) I am so very sorry for the loss of your mom. niyad Jan 2022 #49
Love you. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #58
Take care... bluboid Jan 2022 #51
I lost my mother last March bluecollar2 Jan 2022 #53
So sorry for your loss. woodsprite Jan 2022 #54
I'm so very sorry cate94 Jan 2022 #55
I'm sorry for your loss Sheshe2 Bluethroughu Jan 2022 #56
I'm so very sorry for your loss. StarryNite Jan 2022 #57
Deepest condolences, sheshe2 Glorfindel Jan 2022 #59
I'm so sorry sheshe BumRushDaShow Jan 2022 #60
It is the time spent and the memories. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #62
Deepest sympathy orangecrush Jan 2022 #61
Love to you, sheshe Budi Jan 2022 #64
Love you back, Budi. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #65
My condolences sheshe. OldBaldy1701E Jan 2022 #66
I hear you and Patrick. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #74
Deepest Condolences SheltieLover Jan 2022 #67
I'm sorry for your loss. it's tough to lose your mom. essaynnc Jan 2022 #68
Sending peace and strength to you, sheshe ((((and loving hugs)))) n/t slumcamper Jan 2022 #69
Oh, I am so very sorry. May the strength of her faith carry you through. LoisB Jan 2022 #70
I want to wrap you in love and peace. MLAA Jan 2022 #71
Much love and solace to you, dear sheshe2. calimary Jan 2022 #72
This is the DU I love. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #81
She's lucky she had you. Joinfortmill Jan 2022 #73
She told me she was ready. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #75
She's with you. Joinfortmill Jan 2022 #133
She'll always be with you, I know mine is Pas-de-Calais Jan 2022 #76
Deepest sympathy malaise Jan 2022 #77
TY sheshe2 Jan 2022 #90
This message was self-deleted by its author malaise Jan 2022 #78
Deepest condolensces to you. It's never easy losing a parent, but take heart in knowing all your Evolve Dammit Jan 2022 #79
Oh sheshe2, I am so sorry. AllyCat Jan 2022 #80
Condolences, sheshe gademocrat7 Jan 2022 #82
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. The Polack MSgt Jan 2022 #83
TY, MSgt. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #86
I am so sorry. PoindexterOglethorpe Jan 2022 #84
I'm so sorry. My mother away two years ago. Dial H For Hero Jan 2022 #85
Oh, SheShe-- evolves Jan 2022 #87
I am so sorry for you. bronxiteforever Jan 2022 #88
I am very sorry Danmel Jan 2022 #89
Sincerest condolences MsLeopard Jan 2022 #91
Oh, honey. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #92
Oh sheshe2, I am so sorry the loss of your mother Wicked Blue Jan 2022 #93
Sorry to hear bucolic_frolic Jan 2022 #94
I'm very sorry for your loss. I have no doubt the love she felt for you, in the bullwinkle428 Jan 2022 #95
So sorry stage left Jan 2022 #96
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢 live love laugh Jan 2022 #97
Sheshe, I believe you shared recently here cilla4progress Jan 2022 #98
Such a kind thing to say, cilla. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #103
... cilla4progress Jan 2022 #150
So sorry. paleotn Jan 2022 #99
I'm so sorry, sheshe2. It's such a painful loss, especially after so many highplainsdem Jan 2022 #100
Wow. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #127
So sad to hear Deuxcents Jan 2022 #101
Sending my condolences to you sheshe2 Tumbulu Jan 2022 #102
my condolances to u . AllaN01Bear Jan 2022 #104
I'm so sorry to hear this, sheshe2 ailsagirl Jan 2022 #105
I'm so sorry for your loss. area51 Jan 2022 #106
I'm sorry your lost your Mom FakeNoose Jan 2022 #108
I feel your pain... William Gustafson Jan 2022 #109
William. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #119
thank you William Gustafson Jan 2022 #122
So sorry for your loss sheshe2. May your mom Rest in Peace iluvtennis Jan 2022 #110
I'm so sorry dflprincess Jan 2022 #111
I'm so sorry for your loss sdfernando Jan 2022 #112
((((sheshe2)))!! 2naSalit Jan 2022 #113
I'm so sorry for your loss wendyb-NC Jan 2022 #114
So sorry for your loss... jaysunb Jan 2022 #115
Oh my gosh. I am so sorry for your loss. MontanaMama Jan 2022 #116
I love you , MM. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #121
My deepest sympathies, sheshe2 Backseat Driver Jan 2022 #117
Sincere condolences SilasSouleII Jan 2022 #118
I am so sorry, this is so hard. TNNurse Jan 2022 #120
Oh sheshe2 Me. Jan 2022 #123
Blessed Be Her Memory Eternal. sprinkleeninow Jan 2022 #124
I'm sorry that had to happen. Rizen Jan 2022 #125
Try to take care of you as well. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #130
I am so sorry sheshe. Maraya1969 Jan 2022 #126
Sorry for your loss, hang in there n/t hibbing Jan 2022 #128
I am so so sorry for your great loss sheshe irisblue Jan 2022 #129
Thank you Iris sheshe2 Jan 2022 #132
Oh, sheshe my dear one, I am so sorry for your loss Hekate Jan 2022 #131
Blessings for you... pazzyanne Jan 2022 #134
Your heart has always seemed so large and empathetic here to fellow DUers... FailureToCommunicate Jan 2022 #135
What a kind post, FTC. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #136
... FailureToCommunicate Jan 2022 #140
Keep your phone next to your pillow. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #147
My father was a minister, and my mom a social worker and "wife of a minister" so I know THEY... FailureToCommunicate Jan 2022 #174
Condolences, sheshe2 catrose Jan 2022 #137
Thank you, catrose. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #139
... mcar Jan 2022 #138
I'm so sorry, sheshe Bayard Jan 2022 #141
I'm so sorry to hear this, she! Nixie Jan 2022 #142
So sorry for your loss minstrel76 Jan 2022 #143
I am so sorry KT2000 Jan 2022 #144
I am so sorry, sheshe. crickets Jan 2022 #145
She was very fortunate to have you care for her grantcart Jan 2022 #146
I'm sorry for your loss vercetti2021 Jan 2022 #148
Comforting hugs, She radical noodle Jan 2022 #149
Oh my dear sheshe. William769 Jan 2022 #151
Bill, my dear friend. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #191
I'm very sorry for your loss..nt helpisontheway Jan 2022 #152
My heart goes out to you... JudyM Jan 2022 #153
I am so sorry. I know this pain well. Silver Gaia Jan 2022 #154
I am so sorry for your loss LetMyPeopleVote Jan 2022 #155
Sheshe, I am sorry. murielm99 Jan 2022 #156
Sheshe2..so sorry ..Moms are special and she will always be with you...my mom passed asiliveandbreathe Jan 2022 #157
I'm so very sad for you She. lamp_shade Jan 2022 #158
Oh, my friend, I am so terribly sorry. Rhiannon12866 Jan 2022 #159
I'm sorry, she. I hope you can find some peace, and get some rest now. SunSeeker Jan 2022 #160
I am so sorry. AmBlue Jan 2022 #161
So sorry samplegirl Jan 2022 #162
My deepest sympathies BlueMTexpat Jan 2022 #163
Condolences sheshe2 sarge43 Jan 2022 #164
I'm sorry for your loss. Nt raccoon Jan 2022 #165
So very sorry for your loss, sheshe... Trueblue Texan Jan 2022 #166
So sorry for the loss of your mom Meowmee Jan 2022 #167
My deepest condolences, sheshe2! You are a wonderful person for being there for your mom for those LaMouffette Jan 2022 #168
I'm so sorry, sheshe. yardwork Jan 2022 #169
How comforting to know that you were there for your mom to the end. Lonestarblue Jan 2022 #170
My heartfelt sympathy Siwsan Jan 2022 #171
Oh Sheshe2, so sad for your loss. lark Jan 2022 #172
I am so sorry for your loss, sheshe2 CousinIT Jan 2022 #173
I'm so sorry for your loss, sheshe2. mia Jan 2022 #175
I'm so sorry for you loss, sheshe2. Yorkie Mom Jan 2022 #176
So so sorry for your loss sheshe2 Peacetrain Jan 2022 #177
What an amazing gift you gave her, caring for her and having her pass with loved ones. 58Sunliner Jan 2022 #178
I'm sorry for your loss. KS Toronado Jan 2022 #179
So sorry for your loss. Glad she passed peacefully with her family surrounding her with love. Fla Dem Jan 2022 #180
I'm so sorry for your loss, sheshe2. SalmonChantedEvening Jan 2022 #181
I'm sorry. May she rest in peace and be surrounded by the perpetual light of PatrickforB Jan 2022 #182
I am so sad for you pandr32 Jan 2022 #183
You have my condolences. cstanleytech Jan 2022 #184
....... marmar Jan 2022 #185
That's horrible. I'm so sorry to hear that. TheBlackAdder Jan 2022 #186
My condolences to you and your family on a difficult loss. Moostache Jan 2022 #187
RIP sheshe2's mom. This takes me back to yrs ago, my dad. uppityperson Jan 2022 #190
Hugs, dear she. 2 Meow Momma Jan 2022 #192
Sorry for your loss. We lost my mom Dec 31st. it really stinks oldsoftie Jan 2022 #193
I am so sorry for your loss, oldsoftie. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #194
Hugs to you and all the family lunatica Jan 2022 #195
I'm sorry Lifelong Protester Jan 2022 #196
condolences with sorrowful llashram Jan 2022 #197
Thank you, llashram. sheshe2 Jan 2022 #198
So sorry for your loss, She tishaLA Jan 2022 #199
I still cant get over MFM008 Jan 2022 #200
So sorry for your loss wryter2000 Jan 2022 #201
I'm very sorry for your loss dlk Jan 2022 #202
So Sorry Sheshe Oldtimeralso Jan 2022 #203
It is never easy, My sympathies. DFW Jan 2022 #204
Still thinking of you this night Hekate Feb 2022 #205
I love you...Thank you. sheshe2 Feb 2022 #206

greatauntoftriplets

(175,728 posts)
1. Oh sheshe2, I am so sorry to hear this.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:33 PM
Jan 2022

You were a wonderful daughter to her. It takes time to get over a big loss like this.

madaboutharry

(40,183 posts)
2. Dear sheshe2,
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:34 PM
Jan 2022

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is terribly painful. I wish peace and love to you and all your family.

May your mother Rest In Peace and may her memory be a blessing.

CaliforniaPeggy

(149,516 posts)
4. Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved mom, my dear sheshe2.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:36 PM
Jan 2022

Mothers give us life and then they are gone from ours. Incomprehensible.

Be good to yourself as you pass through this time of sorrow.

You are not alone; you will recover.



Scrivener7

(50,901 posts)
5. Oh, sheshe!!! I wish I was there to put an arm around you. I know you have
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:36 PM
Jan 2022

given so much to her for so long. I am so sorry for the pain you must be feeling. I hold you in my heart, and I hope you know what a good daughter you were to do what you did.

Peace and strength, my dear. I wish them for you, but I know you are already a person of much peace and strength.

Much love to you.

FalloutShelter

(11,828 posts)
8. ((((( she she))))))
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:40 PM
Jan 2022

So very sorry for your profound loss. Went through a similar scenario with my mom before she passed in 2017. I truly understand and am holding you in my heart.

PJMcK

(21,988 posts)
9. Condolences, sheshe2
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:41 PM
Jan 2022

I'm glad you were with her when she passed. I'm confident that you and your family's presence made her transition peaceful.

My dad passed away last May and I was with him, holding his hand when the moment came. It's a very complex experience and I hope you're at peace.

Frustratedlady

(16,254 posts)
10. We know we can't keep them forever, but the pain...
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:41 PM
Jan 2022

May sweet memories help you through your time of sorrow.

Atticus

(15,124 posts)
11. Of course, there are no words I could say that would take away the pain I know you
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:42 PM
Jan 2022

are now feeling. My Mom died in 1998 at only 74 and her loss is still a hole in my heart.

I eventually realized that my loss was so great because I had had such a great mother who loved me even more than I loved her.

Your mother was blessed to have you for her child. Take care of yourself.

AndyS

(14,559 posts)
14. What you did for her was more than I could do for my parents.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:44 PM
Jan 2022

They did finish their lives in the home they raised 7 children in but I wasn't there. 500 miles away.

It's hard and it should be but saying good bye is something I didn't, get so hold your grief close and know what you did was noble.

There will come a day . . .

brer cat

(24,515 posts)
17. I'm sorry, sheshe.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:45 PM
Jan 2022

May you find comfort in knowing that her pain and suffering are over. You were a devoted daughter for years, and you deserve rest also. Take care of yourself.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
37. Love you, brer and your kind words.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:57 PM
Jan 2022

Haven't had a chance to respond to all, everywhere. Takes time.

What I do know, is she will be buried with her son. It was what she wanted, I talked her into it. She wanted it but it was my dads family plot. I said we would place her in the same grave far from my dad. I also promised I would go there as well.

Walleye

(30,935 posts)
19. My deepest condolences. My mom died 30 years ago she was only 70.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:47 PM
Jan 2022

I know what a horrible and confusing experience it is. Now I’ve lived to be older than she was when she died it’s a strange feeling. Still makes me cry.You will have some comfort knowing you did everything you could.

dixiechiken1

(2,113 posts)
30. My deepest sympathies to you & your family, she.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:52 PM
Jan 2022

It's been a little over a year since my mom passed. I miss her every day. That will never change. But, over time, my memories of her make me smile more than they make me cry.

May your grief be short and your memories long, she. Take care of yourself.

kimbutgar

(21,040 posts)
32. So sorry for your loss
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:56 PM
Jan 2022

You were with her when she passed. Did you feel her spirit when she passed? I was with my Mom when she passed and it was so peaceful. I felt her hug when she left me and felt relieved she was with my father, her mother and her siblings who died years previously.

The dream when they come to you after they passed happens.

alwaysinasnit

(5,059 posts)
34. I have no words adequate to give you consolation. Having been a care-giver for my own
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 08:56 PM
Jan 2022

mother, I can empathize with your loss and feelings of disorientation.

BigmanPigman

(51,564 posts)
40. You're lucky that you were with her when it happened.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:01 PM
Jan 2022

My dad was healthy but died in his sleep almost 3 years ago. It was a huge shock. I heard him the night he died and I knew he was trying to tell me something, maybe he wanted me to know he is still with me after life.

skylucy

(3,737 posts)
42. Heartfelt sympathy to you sheshe . Your post brought tears to my eyes. The love and tenderness
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:02 PM
Jan 2022

shine so brightly in your words.

Raven123

(4,781 posts)
44. Been there. I pray the void you feel will soon be filled with wonderful memories
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:02 PM
Jan 2022

For me, it was tumultuous, but gradually i realized the 24 hour a day concern was replaced with the relief of knowing the circle of life had closed. Memories that I had no space for could now surface and be embraced. I wish you peace.

TygrBright

(20,753 posts)
47. Losing the presence of a parent is a special sorrow...
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:06 PM
Jan 2022

...it's a kind of uprooting, a cutting-loose from the generation that gave you existence. An unbalancing. The longest set of shared memory and experience in your life is no longer there. Memory must take the place of presence, and memory feels like such an inadequate thing...

Her presence is gone but stay strong, she...

Stay strong and miss her.

Stay strong and grieve your loss.

Stay strong and say all the farewells.

Stay strong, and cherish the shared connections that will be offered as her life is acknowledged and her loss mourned.

Stay strong, and let yourself be weak.

Stay strong, and ask for help.

Stay strong, and don't be afraid to cry. Or to laugh.

Stay strong, and she will stay with you.

The empty place where her presence was will be as a well... and slowly it will fill with your sorrow, and your love, and your memories, and her love, which will never, ever leave you, even in the echoing emptiness of that place-where-presence-was.

I wish I could give you more than words, she.

May comfort find you, and consolation fold around you.

respectfully,
Bright

dixiechiken1

(2,113 posts)
63. Beautiful. Simply beautiful.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:23 PM
Jan 2022

"Memory must take the place of presence, and memory feels like such an inadequate thing..."

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
107. What a beautiful post, Bright.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:22 PM
Jan 2022

You posted so many beautiful words. You gave me all that I needed.

Thank you. It means a lot to me.

niyad

(113,029 posts)
49. (((((((((((((she))))))))))))) I am so very sorry for the loss of your mom.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:07 PM
Jan 2022

I know that there really are no words that can help, but know that we are all here for you in this great loss. Please take very good care of yourself, be gentle with yourself.

May your mom be at peace.

woodsprite

(11,902 posts)
54. So sorry for your loss.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:16 PM
Jan 2022

Glad you were able to be there with her when she passed. For me ,that made the world of difference in my ability to settle and have closure after my mom passed vs when my dad passed. I hope it helps you as well.

Bluethroughu

(5,140 posts)
56. I'm sorry for your loss Sheshe2
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:17 PM
Jan 2022

You were there when she needed you most, that kind of love transcends the universe.

BumRushDaShow

(128,374 posts)
60. I'm so sorry sheshe
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:19 PM
Jan 2022
I weep with you and know the feeling (it's been 7 years this month since mine passed). All I can do is cherish that time I spent with mine and try to recall all the little sayings and nuggets of wisdom that she would impart to us over the years. Those types of memories are what will help to sustain you.

OldBaldy1701E

(5,082 posts)
66. My condolences sheshe.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:30 PM
Jan 2022

Losing a parent creates a big hole indeed. As Patrick Stewart once said, "When I lost my second parent, I felt like, 'who will look after me now?'." I know that feeling.

calimary

(81,085 posts)
72. Much love and solace to you, dear sheshe2.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:33 PM
Jan 2022

I’m glad you had that time to be with her while you had the chance.

Much much love and safe hugs. Remember what our own Skittles once said if you need some company while you shoulder this heavy weight: “someone’s always here.”

Joinfortmill

(14,378 posts)
73. She's lucky she had you.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:34 PM
Jan 2022

I'm 72 and coming to terms with dying. I have no fear and feel at peace with myself. If it's any comfort, she may have done the same.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
75. She told me she was ready.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:39 PM
Jan 2022

That was around Christmas.

I asked her to stay a longer so I could say goodbye.

Response to sheshe2 (Original post)

Evolve Dammit

(16,694 posts)
79. Deepest condolensces to you. It's never easy losing a parent, but take heart in knowing all your
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:45 PM
Jan 2022

care and love was appreciated. It there is an after-life, you've got some bonus points! I took care of my Mom for the last 30 years of her life. The last 15 and particularly the last 5 were tough. But I knew what she wanted (and didn't want), and in the end, it helped so much. Still painful, but hope she is free of earthly pain and suffering. I wish the same for your Mom. Take care.

PoindexterOglethorpe

(25,811 posts)
84. I am so sorry.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:50 PM
Jan 2022

Losing your parents is hard, and in a way disconcerting. Now you are the older generation.

My mother died in 1999 at the age of 82. My father died in 1973, age 59.

I'm one of six children, and my older sister died in 2017 at the age of 70, my younger brother just over a year ago at age 71. Even though there are still four of us left, the family feels diminished. The odds are the other two brothers will leave somewhat sooner than later, because they both have various health issues. Eventually only one of us will be left, and that will be quite odd.

Mom was one of five children, and she was the last surviving.

And how kind of you to honor her with the angel.

Danmel

(4,907 posts)
89. I am very sorry
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 09:52 PM
Jan 2022

It's so hard. Wishing you sweet memories of your beloved mom. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that you were there for her.

Wicked Blue

(5,813 posts)
93. Oh sheshe2, I am so sorry the loss of your mother
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:00 PM
Jan 2022

Losing a mother hurts. I'm sorry for what you must be going through.
Wishing you healing and peace.

bucolic_frolic

(43,027 posts)
94. Sorry to hear
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:01 PM
Jan 2022

You did your duty and performed at a high level. You must rest and recuperate. Caregiving is pure saintliness and exhaustion.

bullwinkle428

(20,628 posts)
95. I'm very sorry for your loss. I have no doubt the love she felt for you, in the
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:01 PM
Jan 2022

way you cared for her in her final years was immeasurable.

cilla4progress

(24,714 posts)
98. Sheshe, I believe you shared recently here
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:05 PM
Jan 2022

that you and your sister have cared for your elderly mom at home for some time, as you say in your OP.

I think the angel is also you. ❤

highplainsdem

(48,892 posts)
100. I'm so sorry, sheshe2. It's such a painful loss, especially after so many
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:09 PM
Jan 2022

years of caregiving, but she was blessed to have your care and love, as you were blessed to have hers.

I'm not a religious person, either. I left the only church I ever belonged to over 50 years ago.

But I believe with all my heart, based on my own experiences and the experiences of many other people I know who've lost loved ones, that your mother is still very much alive (and healthy and young again) on the other side...and she'll be watching over you now as carefully and lovingly as you watched over her.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
127. Wow.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:05 PM
Jan 2022
she'll be watching over you now as carefully and lovingly as you watched over her.


Um. Powerful thought. Never looked at this way. You may be right. The past few weeks, she kept telling me that i did everything right, gave her the best showers and calmed her breathing by rubbing her back and doing breathing exercises at night.

Thank you, highplainsdem.

Deuxcents

(16,069 posts)
101. So sad to hear
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:10 PM
Jan 2022

Sometimes there are no words but I hope this outpouring of love n respect for you from us helps. I, too, send my condolences 🌺

FakeNoose

(32,556 posts)
108. I'm sorry your lost your Mom
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:24 PM
Jan 2022


We can believe and hope that your dear mother is in a better place. Her trials are over.
May you find solace in the memories of your Mom in a happier time.

William Gustafson

(292 posts)
109. I feel your pain...
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:24 PM
Jan 2022

I lost my wife last February 14. She fought a brain tumor for 17 years and in the end, she passed away from a blood clot in the brain.
I know how you are feeling and can relate to the empty feeling inside, but it will get better. I have spent the last year getting to know myself again, connecting with friends I haven't seen in decades, and just being able to get back to normal, if that is possible.
Best advice I can give you is to be kind to yourself.
As long as you hold them in your mind and heart, they will never be gone. I pray that you find peace with yourself and take care of yourself through this hard time. Hang in there and remember that they would want you to move forward and be happy, and it will come, in its own time.
May the Lord hold you in his arms and bring comfort to you. I am sorry that you have to go through this. Prayers to you and the family...

MontanaMama

(23,294 posts)
116. Oh my gosh. I am so sorry for your loss.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:39 PM
Jan 2022

The gift you gave your mother…keeping her safe at home…it can’t be overstated. It’s so awful to lose a parent. Hugs, my friend.

Backseat Driver

(4,379 posts)
117. My deepest sympathies, sheshe2
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:39 PM
Jan 2022

The angels will guide her and bring comfort to those who loved her; she is among them.

TNNurse

(6,924 posts)
120. I am so sorry, this is so hard.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 10:49 PM
Jan 2022

Last edited Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:51 PM - Edit history (1)

My mother died 31 years ago. In some way she is still with me. You may understand that some day. I hope you will.

I truly believe we can tolerate grief so that a loved one does not suffer.

Rizen

(707 posts)
125. I'm sorry that had to happen.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:02 PM
Jan 2022

I'm taking care of my mom who has stage 4 cancer so I know how hard it is to take care of a dying person.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
130. Try to take care of you as well.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:14 PM
Jan 2022

It is so hard, be good to you. Take care of you. It is so hard.

Love to you and yours.

Hekate

(90,538 posts)
131. Oh, sheshe my dear one, I am so sorry for your loss
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:14 PM
Jan 2022

May you be happy
May you be peaceful
May you be free from suffering

pazzyanne

(6,543 posts)
134. Blessings for you...
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:21 PM
Jan 2022

...and a gentle passage for your mother, sheshe2. May your memories sustain you into the future.

FailureToCommunicate

(14,006 posts)
135. Your heart has always seemed so large and empathetic here to fellow DUers...
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:23 PM
Jan 2022

I can only imagine the size of your heartbreak with your mom's passing.

My mom passed a few years ago, but I still keep the phone next to the pillow.

Maybe she'll text from heaven?

(I guess I just assume everyone in Heaven is given the latest iPhone...and an unlimited data plan.)

Wishing you peace, and solice, in the coming days and years.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
136. What a kind post, FTC.
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:50 PM
Jan 2022

Ha, mom couldn't handle an iPhone...not dementia yet definitely not computer or iPhone savvy.

I love your post and I thank you for your kind words.

FailureToCommunicate

(14,006 posts)
174. My father was a minister, and my mom a social worker and "wife of a minister" so I know THEY...
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 10:24 AM
Jan 2022

are in Heaven. I on the other hand, am not convinced I'll end up "up there". (It might be the warmer place.)

If my folks try to call of text me from the Afterlife, it **might** be a Long Distance Call.

-FTC

P.S. I will keep my phone next to my pillow (and the ringer on) because, as you said you never know.

catrose

(5,059 posts)
137. Condolences, sheshe2
Sat Jan 22, 2022, 11:51 PM
Jan 2022

I’ve seen your heroic struggles to take care of her. May you find peace, and soon.

Bayard

(22,004 posts)
141. I'm so sorry, sheshe
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:16 AM
Jan 2022

I've lost both my parents, my older brother, and two sisters now. I understand having a big hole in your heart, that can sometimes make it hard to even breathe. There's so many terrific memories that my younger brother and I share though. I hope for you, at some point, there will be smiles when you remember your mom, instead of tears (as Joe Biden says).

Take care of yourself. Sending hugs.



Nixie

(16,950 posts)
142. I'm so sorry to hear this, she!
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:21 AM
Jan 2022

Your post is so beautiful and has brought tears to my eyes. Such beautiful sentiments.

Love and peace. I will be in touch. ❤️

KT2000

(20,567 posts)
144. I am so sorry
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:42 AM
Jan 2022

It is not easy but it will get better with time. So wonderful you had that precious time together.

grantcart

(53,061 posts)
146. She was very fortunate to have you care for her
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:55 AM
Jan 2022

Whenever you spoke of her you could feel great compassion and love radiate through every thought.

As you go through the sensation of the loosening of the physical bond as it becomes the bond of memory and reflection you should always bear in mind the great thing you have given your mother, a passage that was in a cocoon of love.

How great you are.

vercetti2021

(10,156 posts)
148. I'm sorry for your loss
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 01:01 AM
Jan 2022

I can't imagine losing a mother. That's my own greatest fear. I really hope the best for you.

sheshe2

(83,637 posts)
191. Bill, my dear friend.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:57 PM
Jan 2022

It has been ages since we talked, TY.

I hope everything is well with you and yours.

JudyM

(29,185 posts)
153. My heart goes out to you...
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:05 AM
Jan 2022

with a genuine depth of compassion…

Wishing you comfort and soft moments of peace as you deal with this heartbreaking time.

Silver Gaia

(4,539 posts)
154. I am so sorry. I know this pain well.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:20 AM
Jan 2022

May you find comfort as you gave to her, and may peace find your heart. Blessings.

asiliveandbreathe

(8,203 posts)
157. Sheshe2..so sorry ..Moms are special and she will always be with you...my mom passed
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:33 AM
Jan 2022

Many years ago..she is with me when I least expect it..May a memory of mom bring a smile to you when you least expect it..

Rhiannon12866

(204,679 posts)
159. Oh, my friend, I am so terribly sorry.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 03:07 AM
Jan 2022

You should hsave no regrets since you went above and beyond to care for and keep her at home. That must have made everything so much easier and comfortable for her. But I know that it's going to be tough, you were so used to having her care as such a big part of your life. Try and remember that you stepped up when it really counted and your mother must know how fortunate she was to have you.

SunSeeker

(51,504 posts)
160. I'm sorry, she. I hope you can find some peace, and get some rest now.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 04:26 AM
Jan 2022

You have been through so much. You really need a change of scenery and some rest.

AmBlue

(3,103 posts)
161. I am so sorry.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 04:33 AM
Jan 2022

I've had my Mom with me for 4 years and 3 months now, and I understand sleeping with a phone or baby monitor. All of it is so hard... but I'm sure losing her is the hardest.

My dear, YOU were her angel.

samplegirl

(11,461 posts)
162. So sorry
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 05:20 AM
Jan 2022

Losing your mom is the hardest. I think about my mom everyday and it’s been 15 years.
She lived with us. I hope you can’t find peace in the memories.
Sending you hugs.

BlueMTexpat

(15,365 posts)
163. My deepest sympathies
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 05:49 AM
Jan 2022

to you, ss2!

It is never easy to lose a loved one. The hole is always there. I still dream about my parents and wake thinking that there is something that I want/need to say to/ask them. Mom went in 2002 and Dad in 2004.

The only bright spot is that they missed the Era of Insanity we now experience daily. They would have loved the Obama Era and would have been heartbroken about Hillary. But they also would be happy about Biden today.

May your love and good memories help to warm you now and forever!

Trueblue Texan

(2,417 posts)
166. So very sorry for your loss, sheshe...
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 08:50 AM
Jan 2022

What people don't know about caregiving until they do it is, it opens your heart to love more fully. Hard as it is, you are definitely changed by the thousands of tasks you perform to care and protect your loved one. It gives you the heart of an angel. Maybe the angel is you--your mom certainly experienced that when she was on this plane. There is no more difficult job than caring for one's parent. I know you are exhausted and probably numb. Get some rest, grieve gently, and know your efforts made a huge difference for your mom.

Peace.

LaMouffette

(2,017 posts)
168. My deepest condolences, sheshe2! You are a wonderful person for being there for your mom for those
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 09:26 AM
Jan 2022

four years, and I imagine you were helping out for many more years before the home care started. Both you and your mom are so fortunate to have had that time together.

One of my biggest regrets is living 1,000 miles away from my mom in her final years, but thankfully, I was able to be with her for her final weeks, which is time that I will always cherish.

Lonestarblue

(9,958 posts)
170. How comforting to know that you were there for your mom to the end.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 09:36 AM
Jan 2022

And that she knew you were there to be with her, to love her, and to see her through to the end of her life. I’m so sorry for your loss. May good memories help you through mourning.

Siwsan

(26,241 posts)
171. My heartfelt sympathy
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 09:42 AM
Jan 2022

Losing a parent is such a world shaking experience. I wasn't with my mom, when she passed, but I was with my dad.

After dealing with several years of health issues with my mom, sister and aunt, it took me a long time for me to stop jumping every time the phone rang. But peace will come.

lark

(23,059 posts)
172. Oh Sheshe2, so sad for your loss.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 09:57 AM
Jan 2022

Losing a mother is so hard, I still grieve and cry every Christmas when I first hear any of the songs mom loved so much. It's easier than it was 9 years ago, but there is still a hole in my heart. Hope yours heals so it's not so raw over time.

CousinIT

(9,217 posts)
173. I am so sorry for your loss, sheshe2
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 10:16 AM
Jan 2022

She was lucky to have you and you, her. Wishing you peace and strength right now.

Fla Dem

(23,573 posts)
180. So sorry for your loss. Glad she passed peacefully with her family surrounding her with love.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:03 PM
Jan 2022

We were there when my mom passed as well. Those moments are still etched in my thoughts. I was only 28 at the time. Wish I had more time with her.

PatrickforB

(14,558 posts)
182. I'm sorry. May she rest in peace and be surrounded by the perpetual light of
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:45 PM
Jan 2022

Divine love.

In the meantime, take care of yourself. Lots of people on here care about you. Remember that. You are not alone.

pandr32

(11,548 posts)
183. I am so sad for you
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 12:49 PM
Jan 2022

It was a similar story with our mother. My sister had her in home care for years, too.
I wish you strength and wonderful memories.

TheBlackAdder

(28,163 posts)
186. That's horrible. I'm so sorry to hear that.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:00 PM
Jan 2022

.

This is a double-edged sword.

You gave selfishly for four years to care for her, and those will be memories that you will look fondly back upon as the years go onward. My mother was in a similar situation and my nearby sister became her steward in the ending years. While I would pop in a couple of times a week, it is like the grandparents who play with the grandkids, amp them up with sugar and send them home to their daughter or son's home. My other sibs and I had it much easier, as my one sister could not have a free day. It was difficult, tiresome, sometimes stressful and often she felt it was thankless. But after my mom passed, it hit her as to how much it impacted her life, when she now had time to occupy.

What you did was so wonderful. You spoke so fondly of her when she was alive and that will continue afterwards. I no doubt see you as the matriarch of your family's generation as my one sister became to ours. Bless you for being such a nice and kindhearted person.

.

Moostache

(9,895 posts)
187. My condolences to you and your family on a difficult loss.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 02:11 PM
Jan 2022

It is never easy or something we 'get over'.
Hold on to the specific personal memories and moments from the past, it is the only thing I have found to help deaden my own grief.

May peace and loving support be with you always.

oldsoftie

(12,486 posts)
193. Sorry for your loss. We lost my mom Dec 31st. it really stinks
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 04:30 PM
Jan 2022

Don't know how long it'll take for me to get used to it. I'm sure you feel the same way

lunatica

(53,410 posts)
195. Hugs to you and all the family
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 05:22 PM
Jan 2022

I miss my mother who passed in 2010. She was in home hospice so I know she was treated very well, but they’re very good about preparing surviving relatives for the end too.

Oldtimeralso

(1,935 posts)
203. So Sorry Sheshe
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 07:24 PM
Jan 2022

I lost my mother 30+ years ago. She was the glue that held our family together. Please honor her memory. I know you will. The feelings never go away, but the hurt eases.
Know that you have support here!!!

DFW

(54,268 posts)
204. It is never easy, My sympathies.
Sun Jan 23, 2022, 08:23 PM
Jan 2022

No matter how much you prepare for it, you never are. I hope you have people you can talk to.
No matter how much you might think you don't, you really do. Take it from one who has been there.

Hekate

(90,538 posts)
205. Still thinking of you this night
Tue Feb 8, 2022, 06:01 AM
Feb 2022

She has gone where all hurts are healed, but the love between you is shared still.


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