to my mom on this five year anniversary
of which she physically departed this world.
the past couple of days have been so hard--today was a terribly hard day too. i haven't had days like these for awhile.
it is amazing to think that i have been without her in this world for five years. i wonder how i have even managed.
(i love you marmie)
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i hope you are doing okay--i don't know what's going on with you but you know i wish you all the best. i don't know if you're out of the hospital yet (i can only hope) -- i haven't checked in here for a few days because i've been busy with the stupid flu!
anniversaries can be hard--i know they really seem to hit me. at least a few of them do.
sending much love your way with hope of a speedy recovery.
please take good care.
I was in hospital from the 4th - 15th of this month. 12 whole days. CT scan, MRI, EGD, Colonoscopy etc.
My hemoglobin had fallen to 5.1 and I received 6 units of blood. I had a GI bleed as a result of taking Xarelto for a pulmonary embolism.
Almost did me in. The Dr said had my heart not been as strong as it is I might not have survived.
I couldn't stand and walk across the room without feeling faint or actually passing out.
So anyway . ..
I was just diagnosed and I'm in the early stages of finding out what all this means.
My MRI failed to show any pancreatic cancer and the pancreatic tail looked good (said the Dr)
I'm currently on anti-coagulant med. Lovenox 2x a day injected subcutaneously.
I have a Pulmonary Embolism, a DVT in my left arm and multiple superficial clots in both arms.
Swollen lymph nodes on the left side of my chest.
sorry to hijack your thread <hugs>
I think of you often and honestly wish only the best for you
i realize when we are ill or don't feel good it can be all-consuming as we zero in on all our internal workings and let the outside world turn without our help for awhile.
i'm glad you are out of the hospital. and i'm so glad that you are still with us. your empathy and kind words are always welcome treasures to me.
take good care, my friend. take good care. 
