I think I might be going through a midlife crisis

[backtoblue]

That sounds so melodramatic, but DAMN.

For the last two years I have been on trial.

Not because I broke the law. Because I had to deal with an assault trial and nowl it feels like an insurance company trial. A few days after a headon collision, I got back a positive test for cervical cancer. Gotta wait til Dec 11 to see my doctor for a colposcopy and cone biopsy.

My body hurts from literally being hit by a truck. I'm now feeling the emotional chaos like a truck.

I'm so tired. So beaten down. I'm 38. Is this what they call a midlife crisis?

ETA my best friend (he's 70) is having heart surgery today. I don't have many friends, but he has been a mentor and life teacher. He taught me to play the guitar and cuss in five languages. Please send DU magic dust his way.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. Anyone going through what you're going through would be in a crisis...

midlife or otherwise.

What you're dealing with would be enough to knock anyone over.

I'm really sorry, and I wish I could offer more assistance than words on a message board, my dear backtoblue.

[backtoblue]

3. Thank you Peggy

I know people in the world are suffering so much worse, but I'm barely functioning. I have a teenage son to raise and my doggie and cat. They're being very supportive, but I'm finding it difficult to communicate with any of them right now.

[lunasun]

2. Just crisis, that is a lot . I am so sorry . Hope you get through the crisis soon

[backtoblue]

7. Thanks luna

[TEB]

4. I hope it gets better

[backtoblue]

14. Thanks TEB

I've been picking my guitar on and off today. It's like every song I play reminds me of someone or something.

As the old text says "this too shall pass"

[TEB]

18. That's a lot of insane shit

Your dealing with

Our son is jamming in front room I’m making dinner

What have you been jamming friend

[backtoblue]

19. Mostly just running a 12 bar

Ironic I should love the blues. Comforting, raw, and truthful.

[TEB]

20. Oh yea

Some fills and trills

[Ohiogal]

5. What you are going through

would be an ordeal for anyone. I am so sorry. I hope things improve soon.

[backtoblue]

8. It's got to get better

Girl, I don't know how much I can overcome.

[usrbs]

6. You are just going through a really bad period

which hopefully will end soon. I men a stream of bad luck has to obey the law of averages if nothing else. Know that We're rooting for you.

[backtoblue]

9. I like averages!

I can take into my chaotic account that numbers don't lie and good luck should happen soon.

[More_Cowbell]

10. I'm sorry! And this is a hard time of year anyway

Lots of emotional stuff happens during the holidays. Sending good thoughts your way, and for your friend.

[irisblue]

11. Magic dust coming!!

And some sparkles too.

[backtoblue]

16. You always come through iris!

UPS said your sparkles will arrive in an hour!

[cpamomfromtexas]

12. I want to say it is going to get better. We are facing

Similar situation.

Bought house. “Repair” before sale done badly. Black mold in house. Everyone got sick. Had to demo first floor.

Son 1 went to concert, someone flung bottle hit him. Brain damage. Went to ER and ended up in jail. Hospital wont release scans.

My 80 yr old parents stole money committed fraud (i was victim). When company they defrauded found out parents did so, parents called and threatened me to cover for them (they are rich narcissists). Got call on recording. Then while Im trying to deal with an all out assault from parents the old sob pulls a gun on my son with witnesses there on property my grandparents left me. Multiple felony issues.

Meanwhile husband diagnosed with a scary form of the c word.

Juggling multiple lawsuits as a result of all of the above.

There better be a heaven cause things suck here.

[backtoblue]

17. Holy moly!

Much love coming to you and your family!

I'm betting on heaven right now. Just in case..

[cpamomfromtexas]

21. thank you prayers for you too.

[marble falls]

13. Dust enough for the both of you. Prayers do work and I'm sending up mine for you and your friend.

[MLAA]

22. Sending your dear friend plenty of DU magic and enough left over for you!

🧞?♀️🧜🏾?♀️🧚🏾?♂️🧚🏾?♀️💕🌷😻💋💃🏼🐶🐬🐠🦋☘️🍀🌼🌟✨💥💫🌸👑🧚🏾?♂️🧝🏽?♀️😽😘🤪🤩🧚🏾?♀️🐣🐥🐳🐉🍁💐🌺🦔🕊⚡️✨❄️🍬🧘🏾?♀️🏵🎰🏖🎡💡💸💰🎉🎀💞💝💚💙🧡❤️🍭🍀☘️🌞🌝💥🕊🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦋🐞🐬💃🏼🤝🤗

[flying rabbit]

23. Just...

[JudyM]

24. ((Hugs))

Wishing you strength now and more smiles soon.

[littlemissmartypants]

25. Hugs and healthy mind and body vibes heading your way now!

Hang in there!

[handmade34]

26. coming your way...

[no_hypocrisy]

27. Hang in there. It's temporary.

I know it sounds blithe, but you're getting advice from a loner and a survivor.

You got this.