All alone in a hotel in Philadelphia.

[barbtries]

there for work. losing my shit, calling my children, running downstairs to smoke frantically, having shock take over, having to work the next day.

Thursday i called in sick and cried at my computer.

All this without DU. I was online and that video started up and i was in the hotel room looking at fb instead tabbing back and forth and then it was gone, it was gone, I had no one and not even DU and

The sky FELL.

A week out and I'm day to day. How are you?

Need to double and triple my activities for justice. Need to donate more and more and more. Going to march in DC on the 21st, who's with me?

[duhneece]

1. I'm so sad for your being alone

Please consider running, too. DU provided me with incredible support in my race in a fundamentalist, republican county that hasn't elected a Dem in over 22 years. Attend your local Dem party, if you can.
I lost the race, but am stronger than I dreamed I'd be...even now!

[barbtries]

2. i know i won't run for office.

but i do hope to get more active locally. I work a lot.
good on you for running. I wish you had won.

[handmade34]

3. no one should have been alone

last Tues/Wed... I was alone in a hotel in Northern Maryland... (at least it was Maryland and not Florida ) I didn't sleep all night... and I skipped out on work to drive 9 hours back home just to feel some safety for a few days. I'm back at work now but still sad, angry, frustrated, etc... so much is so wrong with what happened.

[barbtries]

4. it was awful, wasn't it?

i really think that having been alone while that played out has complicated the aftermath for me to a degree.

[randome]

5. Stop smoking.

[hr][font color="blue"][center]Stop looking for heroes. BE one.[/center][/font][hr]

[barbtries]

8. aargh

i vape sometimes instead now.

[KingCharlemagne]

6. I'm in California, so probably am not going to be able to

make DC on the 21st. I am so sorry you were bereft.

[barbtries]

9. thanks.

you cannot imagine how much i would rather be in CA (home)

[MyNameIsKhan]

7. Not good and feel lonely ... Quite depressed ...

I get what you are feeling

[barbtries]

10. we need to keep each other going.

never forget this is not normal. it won't be for a long time if ever.

[rainbow4321]

11. I went to an Election Watch party in L.A.

I live elsewhere but am working in LA for 6 months and didn't wanna just sit in my hotel and watch..wanted to be around a like minded crowd...it was at a movie theater with a cable channel on the big screen in downtown.
As the night unfolded and our country was crashing before our eyes (big screen makes it so much worse) at what seemed like critical times the damn people in charge brought on a group of local college singers for entertainment. Needless to say the crowd was not amused and the groans were obvious..we all buried our faces in our phones.
Nothing like the world ending on the big screen behind a mini choir cheerfully singing some pop songs.
I left before the "party ended", went back to a hotel room that I had gotten near the theater (didn't wanna drive back to my hotel room in the suburbs so late).

Stayed up all night, chainsmoked. Laid wake on the bed in my clothes, was surprised to see the sun actually come up at dawn.
Drove back to my hotel room n the 'burbs, went grocery shopping for comfort food and found myself really feeling angry at the shoppers around me who looked like nothing happened the night before..going about their business....they didn't look like a disheveled, unshowered hot emotional mess like I was.
Pulled myself together 2 days later, showered and forced myself to go do something besides mourn my days/nights away holed up in the hotel room. Still, after s week, it is taking an effort to get out and do "fun" stuff on my days off.

[MyNameIsKhan]

12. Same here ... I am in home though

[barbtries]

13. even at this late date

it's a comfort to know that i really wasn't as alone as i felt.

[Ken Burch]

14. I can relate.

Felt like there was a knife through my soul that first week.

[barbtries]

15. yep.

how can this be my country??