I don't care if someone is a socialist, I don't care if banks have given more money to someone.

My dad died just over three years ago. He was getting SS disability to the tune of about $1100 a month. His rent for a one bedroom apt was $700, average price for a place around here. In the state I live in that was too much to qualify for medicare. He was a proud and stubborn man. He was getting sicker and would not go to the hospital because of the bills. He and his girlfriend hid his sickness from me or I would have taken him to the hospital. He died on memorial day, they were shooting fireworks in the sky. I sat there outside the hospital that night after he died watching the fireworks. I didn't grow up with him. He lived in a different state than I did growing up. I visited him probably less than 10 times from age 4 to about 2010, my late 30's. He moved up to my state in 2010. He lived with me for about a year, then his buddies, then had a heart attack. He was in a nursing home for a while, I went to visit him about every other day. Then he got out and got his apartment. Then he died. I sat out there that memorial night right after he died, I felt an immense sorrow and loss. I also felt immense anger, towards myself for not seeing his sickness and doing anything about it, for a state that made a man choose dignity over life. For a public and a government that was saying that a man like that, my dad, did not deserve treatment. The ACA passed too late to help him.I lost a lot of friends who thought it was a hand out while to me it would have saved my dad's life. I decided to do what I could to help my family, I worked hard, moved up, moved up again, and again. I have another promotion coming in about a month. Decent money. Enough to help some of my family. My mom is now on SS disability. She is raising my brothers 2 kids. Last year she worked so she qualified for ACA, this year she doesn't make enough to qualify for the ACA subsidy and makes too much for medicaid. $700 a month is too much. Her insurance is over $700 a month. If I get my promotion I might be able to afford that. If my car with a blown head gasket lasts, if I don't get sick. If I get that promotion. If the food stamps keep going to her, if my brother doesn't get hurt at his job with no insurance. I thought the ACA was supposed to fix this? I know it has helped a lot of people and that is great. I'm glad for that. I don't care if someone is a socialist, I don't care if banks have given more money to someone, I don't care about their age or husbands or emails or if they will break up wall street or any of that bullshit that really isn't going to make our lives better. I care about my mom and my family. I will vote for the person who will fix that. Who will fix that goddamn one thing so I don't loose my other parent to bullshit politics. I know who I will vote for, and I don't feel a bern or whatever Clinton supporters feel. I feel desperation.