October 19, 2019

sharon van etten - seventeen (studio-2019) song you didn't know you need to hear right now ...

But then you find out you did need to hear it right now, in fact.

Really loud ... as per usual

Edit: As noted downthread, this is on the Obama's playlist ... cause they're cool as f*** ...

October 2, 2019

carole king - you've got a friend (live) a shout out to friends ... esp. the DU kind :)

October 2, 2019

steve earle - willin' (studio 2000-ish) for my old man the trucker in hospital w/stage 4 pancreatic

c-word ... hoping to make it home to CA in time to see him tomorrow before he leaves us ...

He loves this Lowell George classic trucking song ... but since I love Steve too, well ... compromise.

October 2, 2019

Hoping to make it home (to CA from AZ) to see my dad before he passes ...

EDIT: This post is from October 1 originally. I did make it home and got to spend time with him Wed-Sun ... though he was too out of it to have a conversation with. He did say my name a couple times, so I know he knew I was there. He passed peacefully on 10/8 after being put on straight morphine on Sunday 10/6 (no forced feeding, increasing doses every few hours, basically it was doctor assisted death ... all of us in the family agreed this was best after having spent the last week watching him suffer and become less and less responsive).

Thanks to everyone for your well wishes back when I posted this.

Also I made sure to tell him impeachment had started, and that 'Nancy has him, Dad, he's going down!' ... I know he heard, even if he didn't respond ...


This has all gone down so quick ... Friday, my beloved 75 year old dad fell at home, luckily his phone nearby, he called 911, they took him to hospital. He was anemic with whacky high calcium ... Saturday, they gave him a CAT scan and discovered the worst ... lump on the pancreas, dark spots on the liver.

For some odd reason they don't do biopsy's on weekends, so yesterday they took him in for a liver biopsy, assuming that if the spots were cancer, they came from the pancreas.

But then, it's 72 hours to get the biopsy results back. Ridiculous. Apparently the docs told my brothers (who are local to him and been at the hospital daily) that it's really unlikely it's benign, and in all likelihood (about 80% chance) he has stage 3 or 4 pancreatic cancer

I spoke to him ... I guess you could call it that ... today ... was hard for him to hold anything like a conversation, kept having to say 'Dad ... DAD!', he could only say a few words at a time. I cannot BELIEVE the situation is THIS BAD, THIS QUICK?!?

Anyways I asked him (2 or 3 times) if he wanted me to come home, and he finally said 'yeah son I would like that' ... so I went into my boss and told him I had to go. Earliest semi-reasonable flight was tomorrow at 4pm. I really really hope I'm not too late. I missed saying goodbye in person to my grandmother 9 years ago ... by 2 hours.

Wish me luck, and though I'm not a praying sort myself, I know my dad would appreciate them if you have any to spare ...

EDIT: Maybe worst of all, I'm not entirely sure he knows that the official impeachment had begun ... he HATES Trump like all the rest of us, and everytime we've spoke in the past 2 years, he was SURE (whatever was the latest news) was "THE END for this motherf****r, son!"

I definitely have to get home to tell him Trump is GOING DOWN ... for real ... before he goes.

October 2, 2019

Congrats Nationals!

What a CRITICAL error in right field ... finally some good luck for those guys ...

(Okay, maybe I'm saying this as good karma for my A's tomorrow )