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(7,182 posts)4 years ago I was you. My thoughts are with you, and hope you have someone to talk to in these early days after her death.
I was so grateful to be able to be there with my Mom and talk with her when she was in hospice care - some of the most pure moments of my life.
It never goes away, losing your mom. You will spontaneously tear up or even sob. But you will also smile when you think of her.
In the end, I am angry with the cancer that took her from us - too soon. She was an angel to all of us. But I didn't want her to suffer any longer.
Edited to add this story. I recently came across a complete set of china for sale which is the pattern my parents picked out for their wedding. They had 2 place settings only and always planned to add more. They never did because life got in the way. I was happy to find it and immediately arranged to buy the china, not needing it myself. But I cried over how happy I knew my mom would have been to receive it. I texted my little sister and offered it to her - she immediately said yes, and also shared that she had cried at the news. I only tell this story to show that you can be crying and smiling at the same time.