I want to apologize for lashing out at fellow DUers a lot recently [View all]

[ck4829]

Especially in the past few days. I know I compared the video to child pornography and I'm not going to apologize for that comparison, but the full anger of that comment is directed at people who seek out the thing for giggles and entertainment or people who watch it and can say "I watched it..." and the next thing not be absolute horror.

It's just on top of seeing my personal values, political beliefs, and my philosophy which has developed over years and is still developing get turned into ad hominem attacks, smears, and conspiracy theories by the 'other side of the aisle', by this alt-right, by the very administration which is supposed to represent all Americans; it's boiling over and I know I am getting angry at people, the wrong people.

And the other thing is, Muslims aren't just some abstract thing to me, as silly and obvious as that sounds. What I am saying is, it's personal. I've practically adopted a young woman from Somalia, she's my protege. And I've loved a Muslim woman a long time ago, almost married her, and she still holds the biggest place in my heart, I don't think I will ever be truly romantically involved with anyone else ever again and it's been almost a decade since we were last together. They are two of the most beautiful, sweetest, smartest, and strongest women in my life... and then to see their religion, them, get called 'other', called 'invasive'. It's bad enough my political beliefs and philosophical values be used as fodder for gaslighting and psychological manipulation, now it's done to my love and my heart?

All this combined, it's making me do and say vile and terrible things. I'm truly sorry about that and I shouldn't be directing that to a community I've been a member of since 2004.