Is anyone else feeling guilt over having your stuff delivered?

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

3. Yes, kind of, because I am able to stay safely in my house

while other people are out and about, exposed to the virus so they can deliver my stuff. I don't have any serious health conditions but I'm in the older, more vulnerable age group, so I'm staying home. I tell myself that it's the right thing to do, not because I'm saving my wrinkly old ass for myself - nobody else cares; I have no spouse anymore and no kids, so if I croak for whatever reason the cats will eat me before anyone notices I'm not emptying my mailbox or picking up the newspaper - but because if I don't get sick I won't be a burden on the health care system and I won't spread it to anyone else. This fact assuages the guilt somewhat, but I am enormously grateful to all those people who make my own lockdown possible.

And yes, although the virus would have come here no matter who was president, it wouldn't have been this bad. So much of the chaos and disruption and death could have been avoided if someone normal had been president. George Bush would have done a better job and he's a nitwit. But Trump is in a whole different category of nitwits. Everything he's done has been first to pretend there wasn't a problem and then, when it became obvious that there was a problem, to find someone to blame, all the while making the situation exponentially worse. Sitting alone in my house, brooding and stewing over the whole mess, knowing that it didn't have to be like this, is tremendously stressful. We are all going to be half-crazy when this is over. If it ever is.