What depresses me more than anything.

[Mike 03]

5. I hear you

It can be depressing. A few years ago I reluctantly gave away a bunch of theoretical physics and math textbooks. One of my goals had always been to learn enough calculus and differential equations to be able to at least read and understand the math of String Theory and quantum mechanics. At some point I realized that it was beyond my capabilities.

There are so many books I want to read and re-read. I wanted to master World War II and study the Vietnam War. I've temporarily put aside writing, music and painting, things I really miss.

Now my whole day is devoted to keeping up with what's going on in the world even though it doesn't increase my sense of control.

I'm just hoping we get a break in November so at least we don't have to be in flight-or-fight mode 24 hours a day and then maybe some of these other things can come back into our lives and we can pursue some of these other goals.