Well, it was a nice high while it lasted.

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24. I'm sorry. People are so all over the place about this.

I think people who really are bound together are seeing those bonds stretched badly and sometimes broken by things that lie outside the foundations of the relationship. There’s so much anxiety, fear, rage, all tangled up with the potential shame of accepting they’ve been used and abused by someone who is actually laughing at them. Having that in front of them is hard on people, whether it’s utterly vital for us to hold on to our own fight against the madness of this whole thing or not.

I don’t have answers, just support. I have relatives who don’t know I’m not talking to them because if I did I’d tell them what I think, and that would hurt others I don’t want to hurt. I have relatives I’ve never FB friended and wouldn’t on a bet, because they’re both deluded and condescending, and I’m not going to take that crap. And there are the ones I do love and we mince around one another.

It’s lonely. But I try to be patient and hold out hope that once he’s gone they’ll eventually realize their lives are better.

Hang in there. The only thing that’s certain is change.