Tired man....just so tired [View all]

[BigOleDummy]

I watched my loving sweet caring mother turn into a raging hate filled person I didn't know anymore after her last marriage and subsequent fox filled misinformation filled last 10 years of her life.

I've said for years now that I would NOT turn out like that.

I was standing on the porch a few minutes ago just drinking coffee watching the sun rise. Its early and my thoughts just flitted from one thought to another when it hit me. I HAVE turned out like that. I am filled with as much hate and rage and bitterness as my mother ended up being filled with. I'm ....... well, tears came to me with this realization but I don't think there's anything that can change it. I hate what I've become.

The source of my rage and hate came from the same place my mothers did too. fox and rush and hannity et al. (no, I will NOT capitalize those names!) Only difference is her animosity was from agreement with them and mine..... mine is for what they have done to us as a nation and as individuals.

They are good at what they do .... rush and hannity and carlson and fox and trump. They exist and profit from and because of lies and hate.

I'm very sad this morning to come to grips that they won, even with me. I am tired man, just so freaking tired.