Kind People Are Suffering From Cruelty Sickness

[IngridsLittleAngel]

57. Cruelty sickness...

Do I even want to get started?

Decades of bigotry. Decades of loss. Even before TRE45ON, even before COVID-45, I felt like I've seen five lifetimes worth of death, and fifteen lifetimes worth of hatred and bigotry. But where things have gone over the last 5~ years are more horrifying than anything Wes Craven or Stephen King could've come up with.

I've watched over the years as stupidity has become applauded, and cruelty has been rewarded. That things have become twisted into a reality where kindness is seen as weakness, and nastiness is seen as strength. Maybe that would be manageable without all the loss, but.. Handling both?

"Leave them alone." "Get tough." "They'll grow out of it." "Quit being an elitist. You were the same way when you were their age!"

But it seems like all the shit accelerated to warp 9 after Baron von Fatfuck rode down the escalator in 2015. "Fuck your safe space" went beyond a catchphrase and became a way of life for... too many people. Where nothing is a safe space.

9 years and 7 days ago, in the process of volunteering for a charitable cause to raise funds for a high-profile nonprofit, I wound up being sexually harassed. We're talking sexual harassment that would make MF45 proud. That bad. Well, that wasn't the kind of shit I was there for. I was there trying to help make a difference. I was there in memory of someone. I was there to try to do the right thing. To this day, I don't know what my biggest mistake was... Being silent for 7 years, or waiting 7 years to speak up?

Over the years, I paid the price for rebuffing that sexual harassment. I went from being sexually harassed privately to being bullied publicly. Why? Because how dare we say "no" to the powerful and rich and famous. They have the gold, they make the rules. Conform or be castouts.

So, yes. Stupid me. Stupid, self-entitled me. Stupid, self-entitled, wanting special rights me. After 7 years of hell, I took a stand. I spoke out. I opened up about what I endured... What others endured. I couldn't take it anymore, and, I thought "Hey, I doubt *insert organization here* would want to be associated with this kind of shit."

Yeah, right. Anyone really believe that? You all want to doubt cancel culture exists?

Why clean up your house and deal with your shit when you just cancel a nonconformist, turd in the punch bowl like me? What's better for the bottom line - putting a stop to your very own Harvey Weinstein, or getting rid of a nobody like me? You think me taking a stand did a fucking thing? Right, and Rose McGowan is going to find real work again in Hollywood. And if my grandmother had wheels, she'd be a Ferrari.

So forget erasing us... Let's destroy us. Why stop at canceling, when we can go right into retaliation? Drumpf, or Weinstein, or Sandusky, or Moonves, or Epstein aren't the monsters... Us bitches who didn't lay back and enjoy it are! How dare we deny the chosen ones their "right" to grab us by the pussy? Let's just add more hurt to the harassment and assaults by destroying our reputations and turning people against us.

Here's your cancel culture. It's real. And the fucking QOP loves it. Speak out against pussy-grabbers with power and YOU (or ME) get canceled! Canceled by society. Canceled by friends. Canceled by family.

Cruelty sickness. Yeah. You got that right. Many of us have been made sick by the cruelty of these monsters. Try to do the right thing. Try to help others. Fuck our safe space. It's only natural to be worn out and beaten down and sick from all this cruelty. I'm fucking tired of this kind of insane-ass shit being treated as the new normal. I'm fucking tired of "both sidesism" and being expected to give equal time to people choosing to be assholes. I'm tired of hate being given equal time against equality. And I'm fucking tired of coddling the thugs while punching down on victims.

I'm sure this post comes across as insane rambling. It probably is rambling and at this point, I'm probably insane. This is the epitome of cruelty sickness. 21 months and counting of being canceled and being in a prison behind bars for the crime of speaking up.

America is sick. Trumpism is a disease. I'm tired of this prison beyond bars. And I truly hope Bidenism is the cure, because, we can't take much more of this shit.

Fuck the American Chemical Society.