Has anyone else here been having feelings of complete dread lately?

[luvs2sing]

56. Since November 2016..

I have high-functioning complex PTSD from a very chaotic childhood. I swear these past five years have pulled every trigger in my psyche over and over again, and my functioning has slowly decreased to where, when things shut down again in July, Hubster got really afraid for my mental health. I listen to this man, so I found a therapist who specializes in trauma.

I started EMDR last week, and I already see improvement in my mental state. I still have a ways to go, but I’m feeling more hopeful about my ability to recover.

We also miss going out to both perform and hear live music and eat out, two of our biggest pleasures. We did a little bit of that in June, but not now. Luckily, we have a group of close friends who are just as careful as we are and have big patios and porches, so we have been able to socialize throughout the pandemic. But no hugging, and that sucks.

Medical care is kinda wonky right now, but I have good communication with my docs and know they are doing their best, as we all are.