Serious question

[skip fox]

76. malaise, I was just thinking of an adjacent issue.

At almost 76 with a bad heart I'll be dead soon enough. Doesn't bother me. I may have already died one: my first heart attack. If so, I'm here to report I saw nothing. Not a damned thing. And I was not dissatisfied. Of course I might have just passed out or somehow came to before the flames began, as I joked with my students. But, seriously, nothing was just alright with me. And it remains so.

The issue I was thinking about, however, is how the word "death" is just a tad deceptive. "Death" implies a state. But if death is not a state, if it's the purest absence, nothing squared, wouldn't it be more accurate to call it "post-existence"? Or when there's no time, how can there be a "post"? So even that's deceptive. Maybe "outside-existence"? But if there's nothing, how can there be . . . etc.

(This is was an undergraduate philosophy minor will get you.)