Denninmi. My opinion on this is influenced deeply from my experiences. My son's suicide 5 years ago. My ensuing struggles with depression, anxiety and PTSD. ( I found him). My suicide attempts (3) because of ALL of the above. My involuntary commitment because of the last and most serious attempt.
If I had access to a gun, I would be dead.
All three times, were basically, impulsive. I am always depressed, but at times (more so in the first 3 years after his death) I am in the pit of despair. The first time I had access to my meds, to several handfuls of ambien, Klonapin & anti-depressants. I woke up 24 hours later. Second time, I tried to passively hang myself. It hurt and I was scared, so I chickened out. Again, I was kept my secret. The third time, many many more pills. Every pill I could get my hands on, washed down with A LOT of achoyl. I was found, unconscious 11 or so hours later, transported by ambulance, stomach pumped, charcoal and a nice 
stay in the state mental health facility (in Texas,oy)
That was 3 & 1/2 years ago.
I will never have access to a gun. I do not "need" a gun. Not because I would ever hurt a soul. Because I could hurt me. Most likely if a could have "easily" put my hands on a gun I would be dead now.
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