I don't do many OP's, but considering

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145. I am so sorry, and I know how you're feeling...

I lost my mother, suddenly to a heart attack, at 71. It will be 20 years on Dec. 4 of this year. Sometimes its like it was yesterday, and sometimes it seems as if its been forever. If you were close, as my mom and I were, you never really ' get over it' - you just become accustomed to it; you get used to being without that person. The hole in your heart and your psyche scabs over. It will rip off sometimes, leaving the pain as raw as if it was new injury, but eventually it heals and becomes a scar that only lays bare your anguish when you dwell on your loss. My wish for you is that this happens sooner rather than later; and I send you love and healing.