wall of midlife crisis. when did you hit it and how did you make it thru. edited...

[pnwest]

48. wow. you stopped me in my tracks this morning

and really got me to thinking and remembering. Way too much to 'splain here, but I could talk about it for hours. Mine was slightly earlier than 47, lasted about 2 yrs, and while there was an element of the woman's version you describe above (careful! Aaaalllmost stereotyping there!), it really was more about lost dreams, hopes that crashed and burned, realization that the idea that I have any control over anything in my life is just a sad, sorry illusion, and mortality. And it was a wall. 6ft thick, brick, concrete and lead-lined.

The turning point - not the end, but the turning point, the return of hope - was when I decided to stop. Just stop. Stop thinking, fighting, controlling...and just start listening. I made a conscious decision to just stop thinking for a week, and just listen for that still, small inner voice, and let it direct me. I asked God to quiet my mind and help me to hear that voice, and to give me insight as to what HE is trying to tell me with every roadblock He threw in my path.

Fast forward - my life looks NOTHING like it did 2 yrs ago, that wall became a psychic membrane of sorts, and when I pushed through it, I came through a leaner, lighter, more purely distilled version of me. Less tolerant of bullshit and other people wasting my time. And I am crazy happy today.