Oscar awards make me sick.

[TexasTowelie]

100. As someone who supports the LGBT community in every possible way,

I apologize for taking the remark out of context to make a point that hatred still exists towards the LGBT community. In hindsight, it may have been appropriate to include the tag with my post.

I know what it feels like to be the subject of hatred and ridicule since I've been dealing with it virtually every day over the past year or so. I'm currently living with my brother in the home of my deceased father and have been dealing with depression and the ravages of diabetes since I'm having difficulty dealing with the red-tape of trying to obtain my prescription to control neuropathy. In addition, I am also dealing with other changes in my medication regimen such as being switched to a cheaper anti-depressant and returning to insulin injections since I can no longer afford to purchase the second component of the insulin pump (it's an Omnipod and that component costs $38 and lasts for 72 hours).

My unemployment compensation ended at the end of 2012 and my brother has attacked me for not taking any job--even those that earn 25% or less of my previous salary. I used to work as a analyst/programmer for an insurance company and I never worked as a general laborer since I was not physically fit for those vocations. I'm dealing with shortness of breath and chest pains related to keto-acidosis along with light-headedness from blood pressure medications. The only other social services that I qualify for in this screwed-up state are food stamps and I would have to travel nearly 50 miles (one-way) with my psychotic asshole brother who despises me to apply for benefits since I no longer own a vehicle. Up to the time that I became unemployed I was independent and I've tried hard not to burden others with my problems.

DU has been a community where I've found people of similar political philosophy and a sense of belonging. I have no other human contacts in this right-wing town since I wasn't from here originally and don't have the funds to enjoy any social activities. I have to ride the bus nearly 90 miles to Austin to interact with any of my other friends which I haven't done in nearly two months. I drifted into a nocturnal lifestyle while I was a caregiver for my father and haven't been successful changing back to daytime hours since it would mean having to put up with my brother's hatred and abuse for even longer during the day. The only "family" that I have are my cats (one of the two disappeared earlier this month) and the people that I interact with on DU.

Once again, I'll conclude with an apology to anyone that I may have offended since my remarks were not meant to be an attack on anyone else or to be insensitive to others. I'm trying hard to get out of this fucked up situation where I've been subject to verbal and physical abuse while also trying to keep a positive attitude so please cut me some slack.

Thank you,

TexasTowelie