Ok, I have to admit something.

[GiveMeFreedom]

43. Hey!

I quit drinking.

A couple of things I learned.

I am not 6' 2" (just 5'7&quot

I am not the best looking man in the room. (Just your average long term smoker-heavy drinker-heavy drug user face, with a few scars and a lot of gray hair now)

I am not the smartest guy in the room. (ask me anything back then and I had the answer. If you were smarter than me, fuck you! How dare anyone correct me! Especially in public)

I knew, for a fact back then, that every girl I met wanted to have sex with me. (It was pointed out to me, by a group of men I knew, that some men wanted to have sex with me too. That was a shock to my psych, narrow minded views. Basically homophobic back then)

I was afraid things would not get better if I quit drinking. To much shit from the past to try to overcome. (A dude told me that if I quit drinking, my life will not get better, however, it's going to be a lot more fucking different than anything I have ever known)

I know some folks who have quit drinking. I have met people who quit, then start again and lead normal lives. I met some nice people who did not have to die because of drinking or drug abuse, but decided, fuck it, nobody understands me. (I have tried two out of three of those approaches. I like the middle.)

I cannot make another person like me, no matter what I do. (Kinda sucks when I found out there are some people in this world who will not acknowledge my existence, no matter what I look like, talk like, think like, spend like, save like, walk like, smell like, ad infinitum. (It hurts sometimes, but life sucks and that's the way it is)

I cannot make another human being do what I want them to do without their consent. (I have tried, believe me I have tried. Guns work best I hear, however I find that being polite and suggestive only, leaves a smaller mark on my own skin)

There is much more bullshit I could say, but another thing I have learned is that most people don't care.

Good luck with your drinking. May it bring you joy, happiness, and many years of blissful living.

If not...

I think you know the answer, sorry~