Has anyone here ever witnessed a shooting?

[nadinbrzezinski]

2. Tom, what you experienced is worst

That the bullet that went through my rig at a shootout with the Arellanos. (It missed me by three inches, and the Oxygen regulator by a mere inch)

I expected that. It's a shootout with the army, in a civilian neighborhood. Both sides are using M-16s and Ak47 weapons...thankfully nobody used the 50cal.

Being bothered by it is very normal. Having talked to many survivors (relative was shot and killed or injured), at times near them...this is perfectly normal now talking about it is extremely healthy, and what you need to do.

As to wrapping your head around it...you might, someday. But processing the fact that a human being killed another is not easy, and that goes even for military personnel. This is why war indelibly changes them. And why never deployed troops are tough talking, never bother me, and returned troops are changed forever.

All I can tell you is talk about it, and believe it or not, now you share a little with combat vets.