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Showing Original Post only (View all)I am dying. [View all]
Sorry but I don't know how to sugar coat that.
I hope the mods will allow this to stay since most of my post are in this forum.
A rare cancer with a dismal survival rate. Even with aggressive treatment the majority don't make it 2 yrs. I'm electing to use whatever holistic measures I can to slow it down and let nature take it's course. We barely make it as it is. I can't leave my disabled husband with that kind of medical debt that at best will buy me months..... miserable months. Who knows, maybe I'll find the magic herbal blend..... After a few days of wallowing in obscene grief, I'm OK at this particular moment.
I may stop in a few times while I can but probably not much. A lot to mentally and spiritually process... a lot to do to get my husband set up as good as I can. And there's my bucket list. While I'm still thinking reasonably straight, I wanted to take a few very selfish moments to thank all of you with all my heart for what you've given me over the years. A few of you are especially coming to mind.
California Peggy - My dear - I've lost count of how many times your posts (to other people and to me) have made me feel warm all over.
pnwmom - you are a source of kindness and food for a tired soul more times than I can count - among so many other things.
Cali - let me count the ways you've touched my life. I thank you. The most recent was when someone called you a liar and it seemed like half of the registered users of the DU showed up to give a newbie a quick lesson in respect for your well earned reputation of honor and truth. That was beautiful on many levels....
Warpy - about 3 years ago you posted down thread about medical stuff and for whatever reason it made it click in my head that my husband's neurological issues might be his neck. We had been from one doctor to the next for 2 years with no help and he was steadily losing his mobility. I asked his doctor and ultimately I was right. That post is part of the reason my husband is not in a wheelchair full time. I never told you that and I think you should know. Thank you seems too small a thing to say.
DainBramaged - A couple of your pro-UAW posts during the time GM was falling apart helped me get my husband's disability retirement business straight with GM. A measurable financial benefit that I could never thank you enough for.
The Straight Story - WHERE do you find your stories? Oh thank you thank you thank you thank you. I love you for them. The entertainment has saved my sanity so many times when I was completely burnt out from the many stresses of life.
Robb - I don't know if you liked being the dingbat option in all the polls but rest assured you are about as far from dingbat as a body can get. But I want you to know "Robb is a dingbat" as a poll option.... I picked that one every single time it was offered because I just really kinda like you.
I could never post a whole list of all of you who mean something to me - there are just too many and I am not thinking straight. I hope the few of you I mentioned by name aren't offended, nor those I didn't mention who've shared so much with me.
This community we have here is the most amazing thing. I have come here to laugh, to vent, to learn, to care, to cry, to goof off, to kill time, to escape, to reach out, many other reasons .... sometimes all at once. I want to thank each of you for the support you've given me in low moments, information you've shared that measurably improved my daily life, goofing off with me and yes sometimes fighting with me in shared diversion.
I love this place. I thank all of you.... Skinner and you other bums...... thank you for letting me come here in spite of the fact I could never afford to financially support it. Thank you for continuing the fight for the little people.
