A thank you and a update.... [View all]

[sunwyn]

One week ago my life was in a kind turmoil, a constant state of stress, wondering how we would do without the electric and the water that is tied into it. This was a more worrying stress than the normal, " Do I eat today or tomorrow?" or "How do I hide the fact my Lyme is flaring up today at the job interview or the food pantry".

I have never been one to ask for help. I tend to hide such things, often hoping to just blend in and move along my way without too much fuss. Increasingly over the last few years of unemployment, I have lost my laid back nature and am often nervous and tend to deal with life with sarcasm and jadedness. I had lost my mechinism to deal with such worries with my usual flair of a good dose of yoga and a larger dose of laughter. Sometimes it's hard to laugh when all you see is gloom due to a clearly unimproving circumstance.

And then I decided to vent on DU....I was amazed at the support I recieved. The donations kept my lights on and has allowed me to eat a few real meals in the last few days. What is more important was the fact that my faith in my fellow humans has been restored. My whole outlook has changed. I notice a pronouced bounce to my step when I go to work in the garden or cook my Mom a meal. I catch myself smiling at silly things again and I often laugh for no reason. And that huge bit of kindness and generosity has started a windfall in my life in many regards....

A friend of my Mom's, hearing I used to sew regularly making medieval and renaissance clothing for sale, asked why I no longer did that. "I sold my sewing machine and fabric sometime ago", I told. She promptly gave me and old, but working sewing maching and two boxes of fabric. So I know have the means to restart an old business that will allow me to work out of my home while taking care of Mom. My only real obstacle at this point is my pain in the butt computer though only works when it wants. But even DU may be helping that regard - I had a wonderful offer from a person here who offered my an older but well working Mac. I just have to find some shipping money...I figure I can do that with the first piece I have been commisioned to work on, a Viking era tunic. I even broke out my old inlke loom to make homemade trim for the piece.

And all this just because I knew I could safely vent on DU without the ridicule and derision that often greets this country's poor nowdays. And I think that venting started a windfall for me in many ways. It changed my outlook and brought me out of a deepening dispair that had begun to permeate every inch of my soul. The generousity and words of support changed my attitude in ways that are really tangible to the people around me. I often hear them say that how I seem to be more my old self. I really missed that person...And I want to thank every last one of you for helping me find my way back.