how would you feel if

[DesertFlower]

33. the reason i don't get out much or have

many friends here is because i have health issues, CFS/ME, IBS, herniated discs, osteoarthritis and scoliosis. i seem to get worse every year.

it's strange, but the friends we had got sick. one developed CFS/ME and agoraphobia. her SO died of cancer in '07. another developed mental problems after his mom died and his SO came down with CFS/ME and several other illnesses and had to give up his career as a meteriologist.

another couple we were friends with broke up. she moved away and even though we promised to stay in touch with the husband, things just happen and you don't. we were both in the process of selling our houses.

for some reason many of our friends are gay or lesbian.

my dear friend michael who lived in NYC came out to visit with his SO every year and stayed for a few weeks. my health was better then. he died on 9/12/01 at age 42 from a heart attack.

i'm friendly with a woman who works in the grocery store. she's my age and her husband passed about a month ago, but she still works. we are going to get together for an early dinner one night.