What about the weak makes the strong hate them?

[undergroundpanther]

30. I have gobne through

religious sexual abuse.also church abuse.Assemblies of god.


I don't think there is a god.

If there was and he let the innocent,the goodhearted,the gentle in this world suffer like this I would want to kill it. I don't want to think there is a god because the only god I see is a fucking asshole who put me in this body prison and did nothing to help me,nothing to tell me he was there,nothing to give me hope for a future or stop the abusers,nothing to stop anything bad from happening all over this planet . I am too cynical to hope for things unseen.Because the reason it's unseen bothers me.

I feel this not only for myself but for every suffering creature made to suffer here because of bad lazy cowardly evil people. I actually hate the concept of a god.

Because I am not bowing down to a monster that created this horrible world just so the good within it could be abused.I don't care about heavens or hells.I want to be out of this fucking body cage ,crammed on this rock with so many assholes and too few good people around. I don't want this body,don't want this life,don't want to compete,fight,struggle stress and hurt and pay the rich to exist.I am so tired and so sad,and so alone,so frustrated,There is no justice because people are scared to use thier own power.They let the assholes take over.

And I have a very hard time existing in this world to be honest.