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davidthegnome

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11. I hope I have enough strength...

Tue Jan 14, 2014, 02:10 PM

Jan 2014

to keep turning those feelings inward, instead of unleashing them in anger. I've never been a violent or angry person - I'm normally the quiet, reserved type - and I have this insatiable need to make people like me. Insecure, perhaps, but generally a nice enough guy. There are a few people I'd love to rage at, but I manage to keep those feelings bottled up, as I do need my job.

Your words are wise, it's good advise to be kind to yourself. I'm struggling with that right now because I have this anger and depression inside that I need to keep bottled up in order to function - I'm ashamed of them, as I feel I should be more grateful, more positive, more determined. Being able to talk about it here is one of the few things keeping me sane right now.

Fifty years from now, perhaps we will have a drink and laugh about how miserable things once were. Right now though, too many of us are living that misery, and barely holding on.

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That will probably be my solution, in the end. davidthegnome Jan 2014 #31

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You put it quite well, more people than you are probably aware Stargazer99 Jan 2014 #16

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I hope you're right. davidthegnome Jan 2014 #33

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