I had the most humiliating experience of my life today at work. [View all]

[Drunken Irishman]

It sucked. I'm sure this isn't the right place for this, but I need to vent. I don't know if it'll help with what I felt, but eh...

So, I was actually doing well. I felt well. It was Friday. Work had just ended. I couldn't be more happier. I'm walking with this guy I work with, who's a couple years younger than me, and a pretty decent looking dude. I can say it - I know it - he's not a bad looking guy at all. Anywhoo, we're walking down the hall, laughing about something, when I drop my badge. These girls, who were attractive as well, walk by, grab the badge and ask if anyone lost their badge. So, we both turn around, and he starts walking toward 'em, with me tailing a bit behind. She then flips the badge over, looks at the photo, looks at my coworker, and says, "this is definitely not yours" - with an exaggerated definitely. She then laughs and gives off a total repulsive look until she realizes that, no, it wasn't him - it was me.

I felt so low. I never thought I was an Adonis. But I never thought I was repulsive looking. I know I've HATED my work photo because, when I got it, I was heavier than I am now (and somehow, I look gigantic in the photo, which I never really was), and I feel I've certainly lost weight since then (especially in the face, which is only visible), but it crushed me. I wanted to die. I've never been so humiliated in my life. The look she gave me was of complete repulsion - like I was some hideous troll.

Needless to say, I've lost any confidence I found going to the gym nearly every day. My hope, and it's a small bit of it, is that I look hardly anything like my photo.

Anyway, sorry to vent. I just hit rock bottom on something that maybe you'll all find trivial, but really wrecked my self-esteem.