So totally depressed today---not sure if I can continue going on in my sad and lonely life.

[betsuni]

115. I get no respect.

I told my psychiatrist everybody hates me and she said "Don't be silly. Not everyone has met you yet." She told me I had some serious issues and I said I needed another opinion. "All right," she said, "you're ugly, too." She'd told me to watch my drinking, so now I drink in front of a mirror. I told her I've been watching my drinking like she said, but every time I see myself in the mirror I feel nauseated. "What's wrong with me?" She answered, "I don't know, but your eyesight's perfect." Well, that's true. I don't need glasses, I drink right out of the bottle. The last time I gave a urine sample at the doctor's there was an olive in it. And I'm getting old. Last year my birthday cake had so many candles it looked like a prairie fire. Yesterday when I walked past a cemetery two guys came running after me with shovels. I'm getting to the point where food has taken the place of sex in my life. I'm thinking about putting in a mirror over the dining room table. If it weren't for pickpockets I'd have no sex life at all. I'm not even a very good cook. The flies got together and fixed the screen door. The cockroaches order in a pizza every night. I get no respect.