Is It Acceptable To Test Chronic Pain Sufferers

[daredtowork]

63. I wasn't in a position to do that

The thing I was depressed over was a professor switching my name for a fellowship so it would go to his student. I found out at the last minute, leaving me without funding at a time when it was too late to apply for more. So going back to grad school to experiment with more anti-depressants would have involved a lot of huge loans that I was unwilling to take out.

Perhaps I would have made the same decision if I had been on the right drugs, but it's all hindsight now.

The reason I suspect I was on the wrong ones is that I have essential tremor (dopamine side of the spectrum), and things like topiramate and gabapentin proved to be strong mood boosters as well as useful for other neurological problems I have. This changed my whole outlook on whether psych drugs actually "work". This is also what made me suspicious (I know - I'm not a doctor...) that when I got stressed out over the grad school fellowship, the depression actually fell on the dopamine side because of my undiagnosed medical problems. Just a speculation in lieu of any House-like medical providers to actually discuss these things with...!