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FLyellowdog

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41. Well, I'm not very far into this thing yet but

Sat Feb 28, 2015, 03:53 PM

Feb 2015

I hope I can maintain this strength.

My daddy and all three of his sisters died from cancer. My first cousin passed from cancer as well and my niece is battling ovarian cancer now. I've feared for decades that I would get it and now I have it. So I no longer will worry about my health. The scariness now is about the treatment and pain.

I have my dark times, but they come from the discomfort. I'm not afraid of being dead...just the process of dying. If I could just go to sleep tonight and simply never wake up...well, that would be a dream come true. But it ain't gonna happen that way...at least not yet.

Thank you for your support and I know I'll need more and more as this thing plays out. But right now, I'm dealing with everything pretty well. I hope I can retain my dignity til the end.

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I think I'm pretty much done with politics.... [View all] FLyellowdog Feb 2015 OP

I'm sorry... Fumesucker Feb 2015 #1

Thanks. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #8

Oh crap...I dont pray but my thoughts are with you, my wife is having abdominal pain issues and is randys1 Feb 2015 #2

I much prefer the good vibes anyway. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #11

I watched that tonight--astounding, what they're doing--and with viruses!!!!! MADem Mar 2015 #213

I'm so very sorry marym625 Feb 2015 #3

Me too. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #13

Please post anytime you need a lift marym625 Feb 2015 #18

Will do. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #33

Flyellowdog......it's a good philosophy. Sending you positive thoughts for pain management and livetohike Feb 2015 #4

Think I'll pass on the snowballs. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #15

Live each day. Hug those you love. Be at peace. Hekate Feb 2015 #5

I'll simply try to keep on keepin' on. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #17

Rough stuff. 99Forever Feb 2015 #6

Sweet. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #19

So sorry. Good they help you handle your pain but emotionally - devastating. Good thoughts. Shrike47 Feb 2015 #7

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #20

(((((So very sorry))))) wendylaroux Feb 2015 #9

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #22

My thoughts are with you. Savannahmann Feb 2015 #10

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #23

Sorry to hear this. My best to you and your family. nm rhett o rick Feb 2015 #12

TY. Hubby is here and taking good care of me. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #25

Get yourself on over onethatcares Feb 2015 #14

OMG! Thanks for the info. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #26

Never knew that about oxycontin, but better than stool softeners is MiraLax or its generic form... Hekate Mar 2015 #214

yep, the learning curve onethatcares Mar 2015 #217

So much to learn about... FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #242

My gastroenterologist prescribed it for me, then it went over the counter, then generic Hekate Mar 2015 #283

ty FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #286

Sending good vibes. octoberlib Feb 2015 #16

TY. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #27

I'm so sorry to hear this. Solly Mack Feb 2015 #21

Fantastic about your remission. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #28

Please stop by! Solly Mack Feb 2015 #38

You are right on! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #48

I'll keep a good thought for you and yours. HappyMe Feb 2015 #24

Yay for you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #30

i just want to hug you. hollysmom Feb 2015 #29

Yes, someone is always here to listen/talk/etc. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #31

I'm so sorry to hear your news. City Lights Feb 2015 #32

So sweet. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #34

I love your attitude... SidDithers Feb 2015 #35

Well, I'm not very far into this thing yet but FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #41

Last night's Vice on HBO was about new cancer cures ErikJ Feb 2015 #36

Someday there'll be a cure. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #42

You CAN get this new treatment. They are doing trials at several Nay Feb 2015 #139

Thanks for the link. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #240

I agree with the poster who says try to get in on a medical trial--can't hurt, might help. MADem Feb 2015 #179

Good info. Thanks. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #241

I'll be thinking good thoughts on your behalf! nt MADem Mar 2015 #287

politics is very stressful daredtowork Feb 2015 #37

Luckily for me, I've done most of them! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #44

live in the moments, remember Now Is Good !! sending you strength and very good vibes Tuesday Afternoon Feb 2015 #39

Thanks. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #45

Glad to wish you the best on this journey -- you sound like you are going to make it a good one tomm2thumbs Feb 2015 #40

Yes, the moment of truth will be interesting to say the least! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #46

Been there too often to say anything other than... DFW Feb 2015 #43

Oh, I'm so sorry. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #47

My dad's last column from Washington contained these lines: DFW Feb 2015 #89

Those were beautiful words from your dad. Thank you for sharing them. sabrina 1 Feb 2015 #180

Those are beautiful words and thoughts from your dad. Thank you for sharing them. sabrina 1 Feb 2015 #182

That appeared on November 19, 2000 DFW Mar 2015 #204

Wonderful attitude. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #243

A ray of hope... ScreamingMeemie Mar 2015 #250

That is awesomely fantastic!!! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #268

Thank you for being part of the DU family. safeinOhio Feb 2015 #49

Nice! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #52

Oh shit-- I'm hoping for remission--all the best wishes. panader0 Feb 2015 #50

Yes, I'm hoping for remission as well FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #54

It sounds to me like a genetic scourge. sadoldgirl Feb 2015 #51

Yes, FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #55

Good advice from sadoldgirl... TeeYiYi Feb 2015 #63

That's wonderful advice. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #85

. TeeYiYi Feb 2015 #95

Fight like Hell and focus on your bucket list. Algernon Moncrieff Feb 2015 #53

Thank you for your support. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #57

Please don't give up and at least listen to the treatment options riderinthestorm Feb 2015 #56

Thanks, I will. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #58

I'm sorry to here your news, I watched my father... giftedgirl77 Feb 2015 #59

So sorry about your father. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #76

Enjoy and live everyday to the fullest! herding cats Feb 2015 #60

Yes, peace. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #77

My thoughts are with you...each day. Stuart G Feb 2015 #61

So thoughtful. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #88

You have a great attitude. brer cat Feb 2015 #62

Yes, comfort, PLEASE! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #79

You never know how these things will play out. riqster Feb 2015 #64

You are so right... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #81

please join the cancer group olddots Feb 2015 #65

Thanks I will. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #90

Damn. progressoid Feb 2015 #66

Dayum! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #91

Take care of yourself... awoke_in_2003 Feb 2015 #67

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #94

Wow. zappaman Feb 2015 #68

You are so kind. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #96

I'm so sorry A Little Weird Feb 2015 #69

What a nice thing to say. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #97

sorry about this JI7 Feb 2015 #70

I'll do good... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #98

more healing vibes headed your way... magical thyme Feb 2015 #71

Healing vibes are great! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #99

One day at a time. I have friends who recovered from impossible cancers. JDPriestly Feb 2015 #72

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #100

FLyellowdog, you might want to look into cannabis oil for cancer... Playinghardball Feb 2015 #73

Thank you for this link. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #101

Dear FLyellowdog, I admire your attitude. And your courage. calimary Feb 2015 #74

Exactly. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #103

I'm so sorry. LiberalLoner Feb 2015 #75

It's going to be an interesting revelation to say the least! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #105

Best wishes and hope for you and yours n/t Oilwellian Feb 2015 #78

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #106

aw, hell handmade34 Feb 2015 #80

See...you women are already trying to horn in on a good thing! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #107

What incredibly rough news. Enjoy that well-and-hard-earned break from politics, then... villager Feb 2015 #82

Will do.... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #108

A healing wave back at ya! villager Feb 2015 #112

How awful for you! I'm so very sorry. ColesCountyDem Feb 2015 #83

Sweetness. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #109

I'm sorry to read this. I do admire your attitude and courage. mountain grammy Feb 2015 #84

Yes, FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #115

I will live every day of my life the best I can. barbtries Feb 2015 #86

This too shall pass FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #116

You're in my thoughts and soul. Lots of good vibes sent your way. BlueJazz Feb 2015 #87

Love the vibes! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #117

Seize the day, FLyellowdog! bvf Feb 2015 #92

Will do.... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #118

I love this post and I hate this post. Hissyspit Feb 2015 #93

The 'cancer card'... TeeYiYi Feb 2015 #114

Valuable if one needs it... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #125

Absolutely... TeeYiYi Feb 2015 #130

So sorry about your friend. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #119

He has lived longer than 10% of people with his kind. Hissyspit Feb 2015 #127

someone is always here, FLyellowdog Skittles Feb 2015 #102

Absolutely.... FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #120

My prayers are with you. Unknown Beatle Feb 2015 #104

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #121

Sending love and light your way Dems to Win Feb 2015 #110

HOLD ON!!! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #122

My Bad! Dems to Win Feb 2015 #152

Well, he IS a good man. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #170

What a great attitude! cui bono Feb 2015 #111

No one should be in pain...from anything. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #123

My thoughts are with you... one_voice Feb 2015 #113

Thank you so much. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #124

I am so very sorry, KMOD Feb 2015 #126

Thank you. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #156

With these things my life will be full. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #252

... KMOD Mar 2015 #259

Cancer is a goddamn plague on humanity LittleBlue Feb 2015 #128

Much truth to that. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #157

I'm so saddened to hear this! RKP5637 Feb 2015 #129

You're so sweet. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #158

I hope I could keep as positive 'til the end...some claim to feel blessed to know... joanbarnes Feb 2015 #131

Dr. Oliver Sacks recently wrote in the NYT that he has been diagnosed with terminal cancer, Electric Monk Feb 2015 #137

Wonderful article. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #168

Oliver Sacks is one of my favorite authors; a very wise man Hekate Mar 2015 #236

Every day has it's ups and downs. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #159

On HBO vice yesterday they discussed how virus into cancer cells are still_one Feb 2015 #132

Thanks. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #161

Go to a major center that deals with metastatic cancer and see if there are options still_one Feb 2015 #133

Appointment next week with oncologist will give me options. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #162

Also consider second or third consultations, maybe clinical trials. All the best still_one Mar 2015 #210

FLyellowdog.. Cha Feb 2015 #134

Sweet. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #163

.. Cha Feb 2015 #165

Wow! What a profoundly brave attitude you have. I am in awe ChisolmTrailDem Feb 2015 #135

Your kind words are more than enough. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #164

OMG, I'm so sorry. lady lib Feb 2015 #136

And sweet thoughts. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #166

Two time cancer 840high Feb 2015 #138

Wow! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #167

I wouldn't fight it either PasadenaTrudy Feb 2015 #140

Many people won't understand this thinking. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #169

Love you, FLyellowdog! longship Feb 2015 #141

Always room for more hugs! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #171

(((good vibes))) Cali_Democrat Feb 2015 #142

I've got a lot of help around here. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #172

I'm with you on the playing malaise Feb 2015 #143

Kick the Can was always one of my favorites. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #173

True but I love your attitude to your situation malaise Mar 2015 #212

If you like to play, consider this aspirant Feb 2015 #144

I'm actually going to do this! FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #174

I cured skin cancer this way! aspirant Mar 2015 #215

Oh, FLyellowdog. I'd hug you, but it'd hurt. I can only send a virtual hug: ((HUG)). freshwest Feb 2015 #145

You are so thoughtful. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #175

Hugs. blackspade Feb 2015 #146

Ewwww. So sorry about the pancreatic cancer. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #176

Appreciated. blackspade Mar 2015 #189

You have an amazing and courageous spirit. femmocrat Feb 2015 #147

Yes, please place me there. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #177

Help is on the way! femmocrat Mar 2015 #221

It's easy to forget how wide and deep the DU "family" goes. Thanks for the reminder. Hekate Mar 2015 #239

Exactly. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #245

Your attitude is inspiring. DCBob Feb 2015 #148

Your kind thoughts mean so much to me. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #178

Healing thoughts to you FLyellowdog. sheshe2 Feb 2015 #149

So kind. FLyellowdog Feb 2015 #181

I am speechless nolabels Feb 2015 #150

In my opinion giving up is just a matter of perspective. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #184

You are a very strong, beautiful and honest person nolabels Mar 2015 #223

Best wishes to you and yours. "Being the first to go is really going to be a freeing thing" uppityperson Feb 2015 #151

You are so very wise. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #185

........ daleanime Feb 2015 #153

oxoxox FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #186

I'll be praying for you, that only the best things and Ilsa Feb 2015 #154

..."that you'll be comforted by everyone you love"... FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #187

.... spanone Feb 2015 #155

Peace to you and yours... FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #188

Stay golden. JEB Feb 2015 #160

Will do. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #190

I have great admiration for you FLyellowdog. Sissyk Feb 2015 #183

Thank you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #191

You know I feel the same way ... slipslidingaway Mar 2015 #192

Thank you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #196

One day at a time ... slipslidingaway Mar 2015 #203

I'm sorry to hear this and you drove me Lifelong Protester Mar 2015 #193

Fantastic! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #197

I love your attitude but be careful tishaLA Mar 2015 #194

Well...I just celebrated my 69th birthday FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #198

You sound like an exceptional person. lpbk2713 Mar 2015 #195

I'm not so sure about that FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #200

Don't give up though if there might be real hope out there somewhere but glinda Mar 2015 #199

Thank you, sweetie. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #201

((FLyellowdog)) blondie58 Mar 2015 #202

Great suggestion about the pot. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #246

Play all you want Tracyjo Mar 2015 #205

Every single day. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #247

Sending good vibes your way. greatlaurel Mar 2015 #206

Thank you, sweetness. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #248

(((hugs))) and good vibes, FLyelllowdog. sueh Mar 2015 #207

Thank you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #249

Shit. babylonsister Mar 2015 #208

Life is a little bit less sucky with people like you in it. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #251

I do that from time to time. JohnnyRingo Mar 2015 #209

Sometimes we just need a break... FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #253

Five words... AzSweet Mar 2015 #211

I'm so sorry .. and I don't blame you! Triana Mar 2015 #216

You too! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #254

It ain't over until its over. IdaBriggs Mar 2015 #218

Not even a little!!! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #255

Watch a good comedy- KrazyinKS Mar 2015 #219

Family Guy does the trick for me. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #256

I am so sorry! hrmjustin Mar 2015 #220

I'll be fine. Thanks. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #257

LeighAnn's cancer resource links mahina Mar 2015 #222

A big thank you for all this info. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #260

Go out with a Bang Not a Whimper!? well Done! imthevicar Mar 2015 #224

Absolutely!!! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #262

My sister has stage 4 liver cancer classykaren Mar 2015 #225

I'm so sorry about your sister. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #263

Sorry. Take good care of yourself and laugh as much as possible, including at those of us who are merrily Mar 2015 #226

I'll be looking for the love... FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #264

Aww, that's so nice. merrily Mar 2015 #266

Please stop by to get a lift from the good folks here. sellitman Mar 2015 #227

The good folks here have always given me a lift. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #265

Done w/ Politics evillemike2009 Mar 2015 #228

Oh no! We can't all of us drop out of politics. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #267

I am so sorry to hear this. BlueMTexpat Mar 2015 #229

Your news is so uplifting. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #270

OMG lillypaddle Mar 2015 #230

Just the fact that you read my post FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #271

I don't know what to say.... lunamagica Mar 2015 #231

Your thoughts show that goodness is in all of us. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #272

I am very sorry bread_and_roses Mar 2015 #232

Your kind thoughts have settled deep in my heart. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #273

Wishing you all the best LiberalEsto Mar 2015 #233

Everyone should be able to feel the love being shared here. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #274

Well that sucks LaurenG Mar 2015 #234

Hugs = love. Thank you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #276

Positive thoughts and vibes... onecaliberal Mar 2015 #235

Lovin' all the thoughts. Thank you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #277

All the best. bigwillq Mar 2015 #237

And the same to the entire DU community. We rawk!!! FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #278

I'm so sorry FLyellowdog..... onecent Mar 2015 #238

Well, I certainly can't control much in politics FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #279

I am very sorry to hear this but... Phentex Mar 2015 #244

It's more than amazing that we are part of such a large caring group. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #280

So sorry to hear this. kestrel91316 Mar 2015 #258

Thank you. I'll keep this in mind. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #281

Just checking in to this remarkable thread; I'm thinking of you often Hekate Mar 2015 #261

Thank you so much for these kind words. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #282

Sending good healing vibes tenderfoot Mar 2015 #269

I'm receiving them as we speak. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #284

I'm so sorry. Terra Alta Mar 2015 #275

The same right back at you. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #285

so sorry.... Chimeradog Mar 2015 #288

Good luck to your friend. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #290

These kinds of things have a way of putting things into perspective really quick. ScreamingMeemie Mar 2015 #289

Great advice! Thanks. FLyellowdog Mar 2015 #291

one more kick GreatGazoo Mar 2015 #292