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[TorchTheWitch]

21. the only problem with that is I also need a job as well

Nobody is going to rent to me without my having employment and a salary that would be sufficient to pay whatever the rent amount is. Once I had to rent a place while I was working full time doing temp work and even that some people were reluctant to accept. This place was actually the only one where I didn't have to show any kind of proof of my salary.

Other than keeping this eviction thing at bay so I don't get thrown out the job is the single biggest thing, and until I got the hearing notice that's all I was focused on every day. That was the most maddening thing until the second hearing was that I didn't have a single minute to look for a job. While this eviction process was going on I constantly wanted to scream at anyone involved to just go away and leave me be so I could get back to looking for work. And now here I am, and I STILL haven't had even a minute to do anything about that. It's been driving me bonkers on top of everything else.

And yes, this place is disgusting. I'm perpetually afraid of what's going to happen next. With my luck the whole roof will cave in or something. It's a perpetual stressor. What's so odd is that all of these big disaster all happened in such a short period of time which just added to the hysteria feeling like every day something else blew up. I can't even understand how I managed to stay here so long and not just because of the house itself but the worst of the neighbors. I just got to a sort of place that went past all the hysteria about everything and just kind of went numb to it. Even now I just can't think for the life of me how on earth I was still here even after the first year.