Baby died after mom left in SUV while at work

[msanthrope]

131. I left my kid in the car. And I DEFY any poster on this board who would DARE blame me.

I left my kid in the car....and I've written on this before, but I'll write about it again....

And anybody here who thinks I was blameworthy, well, I wish I was as holy as you.

I spent an entire night up with my daughter. Entire night....she was screaming, crying, with colic. She would quiet down for 10 mins, only to start up again.

10 hours. Straight. My husband was traveling for work, I had no relatives close by, and it was the middle of the night. I had a babysitter coming later in the morning, but I still had a night to get through.

If you've never experienced a baby with colic, then frankly, you don't know what toture and hell that is for both parent and child. You cannot imagine what it is like watching your child be in agony, and there is very little you can do for them.

Early in the morning, after an entire night of holding my child, comforting her, I tried driving her around in the car....there is a park near us, and I drove her in an unending loop for 20-30 minutes until she finally fell asleep. I drove the car home. I parked. I walked in the house and went to pee--since I hadn't been able to for about 8 hours....

And mid-pee, I realized that I had no idea where my kid was. I was so godamn tired I forgot that I had just spent the last half hour in a car, and that my baby was in the backseat.

I was still peeing when I went to go look for my kid...and I simply cannot describe the the terror, panic, and utter fucking fear I felt. And then at some point, within seconds, I knew she was in the car.

She was probably left alone in the car for less than 3 minutes...maybe as much as 5. It was winter, and she was dressed warmly. She was perfectly fine, still asleep, with a pee-covered, crying mother who hadn't slept in over 24 hours.

Anybody on this thread who thinks it could not happen to them has never been a truly sleep-deprived parent. Anyone who thinks this happens because these parents are automatically bad or neglectful parents is out of their mind.

It happens because people are tired, and out of their routine.