I need Help

[TorchTheWitch]

30. thank you so much!

I've been as low as the underbelly of a snake for awhile that's gotten so much worse day by day since I'm playing a rigged beat the clock game with the stinking court. My slumlord/scumlord/landloon/Satan's spawn of a beast got an attorney and filed a Complaint against me in the same county court as my appeal but the Complaint doesn't even mention her eviction in district court or my appeal both of which she new of before the Complaint was filed. Not only that, she blames all the damages here on ME! I'm writing the Answer myself though I'm going to need to get no-cost attorney help since I'm not sure how much I should be saying about everything (including VERY interesting things about the scumlord that a couple of particularly fantastic DUer's ferited out for me!) in the New Matter part or if I should be doing a New Matter with a Counterclaim. I'm familiar with these since I did tons all those years I worked as a legal secretary and paralegal though I never new a thing about landlord/tenant legal disputes, and all the ones I did were mostly boilerplate or the attorney would dictate what to write on a dictaphone machine.

I also have to make a ton of copies since there's a HUGE amount of exhibits that go with it, and I've now got VERY little money to my name, and I know I'll need to get both color and black ink for my printer to do this. Yesterday I counted out what was in my change jar and was over the moon that I actually have about $35 whole dollars!!! Duer Texasgal was so great and donated money to my paypal account so I can get a bag of chow for Yoshi since he now only has a few days of food left.

I FINALLY got a case worker and met with her for hours yesterday, so I'm feeling much better about things. Together we still have to come up with $1250 by May 5th or 6th (I have to find out exactly which day is my last day I have to pay the court or the appeal that's been at least keeping a roof over my head, keeping Yoshi, and my stuff and also give HER time to dig up every resource she can find to keep helping me to get the hell out of here before I'd have to pay the court again. So, I'm REALLY scared that no matter what we do together we still won't be able to come up with the amount I have to pay the court or my whole life is just over... I lose a roof over my head with a bathroom, I lose Yoshi, and I lose every damn thing I own that I worked like a dog all my adult life for including all those things like personal papers, sentimental things from as far back as my childhood, my Dad's photographs that are almost all the artwork on my walls (my dad passed away in '98 and he was my hero), and on and on.

The total abandonment of my family has just been a knife in my heart that's been unbarable though one of my brothers has been helping me for weeks as far as getting me hooked up with the social services.

Social services SUCK SUCK SUCK sooooooooooooooooo much more than people who haven't had to deal with them especially in a narrow time frame can possibly imagine in their wort nightmares. And I live in PA not like Texas or Florida or some backward conservative state! It's also ridiculous that you're stuck with only what services there are in the county where you happen to live. There's so much more available if I lived in a more poor county than the one I do.

I think my case worker is awesome, and I was soooooooo afraid that it would end up being some git that didn't give a crap. She's a really focused go-getter, black woman whose age I can't tell, but she has to be a lot older than she looks just from some... er... gynocological things that we talked a bit about. I would have thought mid-20's but she just can't be that young. She looks like she could pass for a high school senior though. She also has a truly uncanny ability to read me that is almost scary she's so good at it. She really is everything I always wished I could be. She's truly an incredible confidence builder. Before she came over to meet with me yesterday I was about as down and hopeless as a person can get. But once she left it was like I almost back to my real self again though I'm terrified out of my mind that we won't come up with enough money to pay the court in just a few days. She can get me a little cash with her resources but I'm going to have to come up with the bulk of it and I haven't had any new ideas on that for days and days. She made me swear I'd do another humiliating begging thread here again today, and OMG, I'm absolutely dreading it. One of my neighbors suggested the pastor at her church as she's known him all her life, and her teenage son has always gone to school there. She said he's helped people out financially before, but I'm really nervous about that because I'm not a parishoner. I'm also really nervous about going begging there today because she's the most flighty person I've ever met (I always thought she had mental issues, and I think she's always been on SSI for it). I'm scared to death that she won't remember she told me this yesterday and also scared to death that her church won't help me.

I need to call the court to make certain whether May 5th or May 6th is the last day I have to pay them, so I'm off for now. Gods, I just have soooooo damn much to DO!

But thanks again so much for asking about me!