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[stopwastingmymoney]

88. Yes, it's been a long time now

But I remember feeling as you describe. I also found it helpful to read about mental illness and try to figure out what was wrong with my family. My mother is a borderline personality disorder, my Dad did his best but he wasn't really strong enough to oppose her.

I began to rebel against her pretty young, stopped going to church when I was 15 and it was all out war by 17 or so. I was lucky that my Dad and other family members were there for me.

The worst part for me now is watching my younger siblings struggle, they didn't commit to therapy the way I did and we're all damaged to some degree. I had to get out and they were left behind to live with her anger. I know I was just a kid and I couldn't save them then, but it's still something I wish I could have done better. I'm their big sister and I wish I could help more, even now.

But hey, we all just do the best we can right? That has to be good enough.