I'm going to drop this here...

[jwirr]

42. That is how I felt about it. Like my entire life had just be erased. And

that I was no longer needed in the discussion or the march.

I realize that these events were deeply emotional and that many of us did not think about what we were saying and how it looked from the other side so I am trying to find my place in all this again. But it is very hard. Yes, I took it very personal - because it sounded personal.

I agree in every way with the principles of BLM - but I have no idea where I stand with them. I who have lived with POC most of my adult life have had my soul ripped out. I am feeling very lost.

As too the 400 years of oppression. Yes it did happen and there are still consequences from it. But none of us were around back then to do anything about it. We are around to do something about the consequences today. And many of us have tried. When they tell us that what happened in the 60s does not matter then what happens is that we feel we have nothing to offer today because what we did then was useless.

I would much rather fight together recognizing what we have accomplished in the past and see what we can accomplish in the future.

One of the things that I have a real problem with is that in the movement we seem to be leaderless. It is hard to see which way we should be going. We need some who can really speak for this movement about concrete proposals. I do not see that coming from anyone that BLM accepts.