Little Mini-rant on prescription painkillers...

[sorefeet]

34. First do no harm nor injustice

every doctor will realize with their first corporate job that the oath is bullshit. They learn early that the DEA owns them. With a bucket full of dept their first priority is the pay check.

They will feed you high blood pressure pills, knowing that pain is the reason for it. I learned that on my own, as everything else about pain I had to learn myself.

I had a plan to amputate my feet if something didn't change real soon. I knew that suicidal thoughts every waking moment wasn't natural but I could not stop them. Their was no where else to turn except something real drastic to prove I wasn't lying. It is degrading and humiliating to be in severe pain in the first place because your life comes to a halt. Chickenshit doctors cost me my career and half of a pension because the DEA and their corporate policies which they will not question, scare them. I am bitter because of what has happened to me, but the dirty muther fuckers will never hurt me again. If I have to get on heroin or grow my own poppies, I know now what I need to keep me sane, livable pain and alive.